chrome town Posted November 29, 2014 Share Posted November 29, 2014 Bombing and alcohol go and to hand like cheetos with weed. Every since I started with graffiti, I started to heavily drink, I did that for a while and being in Portugal, I was drinking a lot of wine through the days. Nowadays I have a huge stomach problem that fucks my everyday life, I can't even drink a bottle of red wine without throwing up and feeling like my stomach is on flames, I get random stomach aches and shit. shit's not cool. But yeah alcohol is addicting, I try not to drink on my everyday and it's been easy, but everytime I start drinking even if its in a social way, I can't seem to stop drinking or stop having thirst. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
redeyedanimal Posted November 29, 2014 Share Posted November 29, 2014 Stay up, Inj. I have to be honest, I am only just now accepting the loneliness and turning it positively into just being myself again. Actually paying attention to the advantages of not having someone else's expectations on my shoulders as well as my own. Finally cleaning it up properly, because it's finally only me left to do it for. That has seemed to be just enough to stop me fucking up of late. The lady and I are actually taking a bit of time to do this for each other, to see if we are the major sources of each other's stress. We still love each other but we drive each other batshit crazy at the same time. I'm excited to be able to devote myself to my craft again, have an opportunity to open a spot of my own if I make the rights moves and keep my game up with these people. I feel as though I have lost all passion for all things, and need some time to make me who I am and who I should be. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
heather lewis Posted November 29, 2014 Share Posted November 29, 2014 Bombing and alcohol go and to hand like cheetos with feet. . :scrambled: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
redeyedanimal Posted November 30, 2014 Share Posted November 30, 2014 My posts on this topic are not meant to be attacks, but to point out what I perceive to be a failure of logic caused primarily by being in the mist of active addiction. Blind support does not often actually help. called it how he saw it, and he was right. I am looking into inpatient treatment now. My brain is my biggest enemy, it can change itself from moment to moment, and without help I will not be able to get out of this fog. It's really fucking scary, and I'm not ashamed to say that I am scared to make a change like this in my life. But, for this addict, it's either I ask for help or off myself like a coward. I'd rather man up and ask for help. I like to think there is strength in asking for help when feeling weak. This lifestyle sucks. If you are just starting to drink, and wonder if you have abnormal drinking patterns, STOP BEFORE IT GETS WORSE, whatever you have to do. Thanks to everyone here for reading my bullshit throughout the years and showing me my own fucked logic. Hopefully my posts after I come home will seem more positive, and focused. *edit - the possibility of being able to open my own business made me realize that, in this mind state and with these habits, I will absolutely fail. I need a clear mind…. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
injury Posted November 30, 2014 Share Posted November 30, 2014 it's never too late to make a change, red. welcome. knowing that you are the enemy was frightening and liberating for me (at the same time!). it's nice to put a face to the disaster and the addiction. that face just happens to be yours. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PITOFZOMBIES Posted December 7, 2014 Share Posted December 7, 2014 *edit - the possibility of being able to open my own business made me realize that, in this mind state and with these habits, I will absolutely fail. I need a clear mind…. Landing a really fucking rad gig is what got me to reprioritize and get my shit straightened out. Hopefully it does the same for you. And there's no two ways about it: Had i continued drinking, i'd just as well have chucked it all down the drain. All the best on your endeavor. ---- Still at it here. 3 years and some change. Thankful for every day, even the shitty ones. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
injury Posted December 7, 2014 Share Posted December 7, 2014 3 years is pretty incredible, man. sincerest of congratulations. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PITOFZOMBIES Posted January 31, 2015 Share Posted January 31, 2015 Looks like we lost a few pages. Oh well. I can't tell if the revamp is the final nail in the coffin of this dying forum. I'll probably check back less frequently, but I won't abandon ship. This thread is still the most important shit on this thing. Thanks for everything. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted January 31, 2015 Share Posted January 31, 2015 30 days for me today 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
theprotester Posted January 31, 2015 Share Posted January 31, 2015 Congratulations. Stay up. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
breakfast menu Posted February 1, 2015 Share Posted February 1, 2015 30 days for me today hell yeah man! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PITOFZOMBIES Posted February 1, 2015 Share Posted February 1, 2015 Fuck yeah, BnH. How was the first month? Hyped? Whatever? 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted February 2, 2015 Share Posted February 2, 2015 Had a lot of trouble sleeping the first week+ but everything's cool now. Feels good! Dating without getting drinks has been a bit weird but I'm getting the hang of it. This is the longest I've gone without a drink since probably middle school. Was at a Super Bowl party yesterday and just stuck w water, came home to a house party and just went to sleep. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
breakfast menu Posted February 3, 2015 Share Posted February 3, 2015 there'll be ups and downs, but that sounds like solid progress. most people (in my experience) respect not drinking, especially if they're just meeting you and don't know you all that well. I use some variant of "i had to get my shit together," usually having to do with my own life/creative aspirations. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted February 3, 2015 Share Posted February 3, 2015 Been using "had to pump the brakes" Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
theprotester Posted February 3, 2015 Share Posted February 3, 2015 "After thirty years of hanging out, I thought it was time to get to know myself" Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fat ralphy Posted February 8, 2015 Share Posted February 8, 2015 Honestly 9/10 most people worth kicking it with don't give a fuck if you drink or not......and most of the party crew scumbag fucks are happy there is more for them. Good shit Boats......keep at it if you feel better off. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PITOFZOMBIES Posted February 8, 2015 Share Posted February 8, 2015 Honestly 9/10 most people worth kicking it with don't give a fuck if you drink or not. I'm going to up that to 10/10 people. The second people lose respect for my decision not to drink, I lose respect for them almost entirely. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Deine Mudder Posted February 8, 2015 Share Posted February 8, 2015 ^ this Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fat ralphy Posted February 9, 2015 Share Posted February 9, 2015 Out of all the "friendships" that I lost when I basically stopped partying, there is only one dude who I really care for. We still are friends but we are super distant because he is so into his alcoholism, I love the dude but I just can't be around to cosign him fucking off his life. Went out to Denver for his wedding last year, dude was so shit faced the bride was in tears....family coming up to me and asking me to cut him off at the bar. I ended up calling him out on it and I think it hurt him to hear me say that he needs to address how alcohol is fucking up his relationship life etc. I do agree with you POZ, anyone worth giving a fuck about is going to support you if you are trying to improve yourself. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
you can microwave bacon Posted February 9, 2015 Share Posted February 9, 2015 that's sad^ I recently quit smoking tumblewhedds and now i habitually drink anything i can lately. i used to scarcely drink. same exact shit for me. "this is a stupid fucking problem to have But, it is a problem nonetheless" ^ imaginary props if you know that movie quote Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
theprotester Posted February 9, 2015 Share Posted February 9, 2015 It's only stupid to ignore a problem. Participation in this thread is healthy for me at least. 4am lifestyle. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fat ralphy Posted February 13, 2015 Share Posted February 13, 2015 that's sad^ I recently quit smoking tumblewhedds and now i habitually drink anything i can lately. i used to scarcely drink. same exact shit for me. "this is a stupid fucking problem to have But, it is a problem nonetheless" ^ imaginary props if you know that movie quote Replacement addictions are a real thing...... If you are an addict I would bet your consumption of alcohol accelerates or you end up transferring the addiction to something else or relapsing w/ smoke. Try and go for a period of time without any mood/brain altering chemicals aka completely sober and see how that works for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted February 13, 2015 Share Posted February 13, 2015 I was actually thinking about that one the drive home from the gym tonight... This is the longest I've ever been totally sober since I was probably like 11 or 12. (Started smoking weed really young.) that's nuts. I guess it isn't actually though because I still drink coffee everyday. :/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
yomommasaho Posted February 15, 2015 Share Posted February 15, 2015 I do agree with you POZ, anyone worth giving a fuck about is going to support you if you are trying to improve yourself. this, for sure, the best medicine is a solid circle Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SMdoubleXL Posted February 16, 2015 Share Posted February 16, 2015 welcome Boats hope youre still going strong. whattup everyone left in here or checking in occasionally Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted February 16, 2015 Share Posted February 16, 2015 Fell off the wagon on valentines day:pensive: But I'm back. I wanna get back to 45 days. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
breakfast menu Posted February 17, 2015 Share Posted February 17, 2015 thought: it doesn't make all that much sense to me that people stop drinking but pick up smoking. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fist 666 Posted February 17, 2015 Share Posted February 17, 2015 I think all of us have done far more destructive things to our lives, relationships, careers, etc while drinking. Can't say that cigarettes have done anything but cost some money and damage lungs. A vastly lesser of two evils, imo. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ink face Posted February 18, 2015 Share Posted February 18, 2015 Thinking about jumping back on the old wagon myself, been getting into too much bullshit lately. It's always weird to me whenever i lay off the booze for a while, i feel like everything's gonna be great all of a sudden because i stopped. Then I struggle to stay sober when it's not. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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