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ion longer speak to mother (20 some years now) and chat occasionally with my brother thru FB posts my child is mixed (African American/ Caucasian who has white skin. I always wonder how their relationship would be if she were darker. But he didn’t discriminate while discriminating-he didn’t like anyone who wasn’t a straight white man life happened to him and he’s much more open and not as hateful -SO IT SEEMS. His wife is the same. But she doesn’t hide it at all. She hard R’s all day. absolutely not im in good company then. I have a friend in Vegas who I worked with. 60 ish yr old gay man. He said he like to be considered gay. He is not a sissy or a queer. (His words) I don’t know anymore. I don’t know how to interact with new, younger people i don’t like that people don’t feel comfortable in their own head/skin that they feel the need to switch gender (roles) but I also don’t like the fact the it seems trendy for some. Thanks for some input guise.

Yall im here to confess some inner shame (surprise) ha we have a new hire on our grounds team. There are only 3 of us and we work very close with each other most times. Sometimes it’s only two of us while the other is off. Anyway- Person is 26 prefers they/them i fucking struggle with this (they/them) where I was raised, when someone would speak of (usually African American people) always in a negative connotation. it was largely grouping people together and stereotyping them all together and it was never followed by a positive comment. (make sense? ) for instance: In jr high /high school my group of friends were African American as well as the guys I was into- my brother (who hung David Duke posters on his wall and named his pit bull Adolf [and the next pit bull he named Eva]) would make remarks as such: ”they smell like hair grease and fish” “tell them to quit calling the house” “Why do you like them” type shit. You could hear the hard R in my brothers and sometimes mother’s words. Also I use the terms “bro” “girl” when I have a moment of expression REGARDLESS of who is in front of me. this person is a good worker, knowledgeable and a go getter so far. But my generation is showing and I don’t want to disrespect anyone but I am struggling and I feel like when I refer to “them” as “they/them” it feels so generic. am I alone here?

I really only listen during free trials. But have discovered, quality wise, that Spotify>itunes. i basically listen to 2 songs on repeat. haha. And usually only listen during morning commute. I don’t know new music and I feel I have no patience to listen to a bunch of new artists to determine. Surprised Fleetqood Mac, and Atmosphere aren’t on this list.

I love the grounds I work on Bonus: Luke. The neighbors cat who always hangs on our grounds.

Sam and Bella. we had an outbreak of fleas a few weeks back. (Suspected it to come from a frequent raccoon visitor we discovered on our back patio. [carpeted] ) it was a series of laundry, vacuuming what we can (wood floors) , baths and shave downs. they are so naked. also. Sam’s old clothes are so baggy on him now after his weight loss

17lbs added fully dressed

‘scold out

IMG_5508.mov cleanin day. I’m not allowed much glass. The EYCE silicon pieces are most used. Bong specifically. post your pieces.

communication is key Yeah. Upside the head with the laundry bag 😶 THIS also realize I don’t want to go through getting to know someone again. It’s super fun at first but it gets real eventually and you have to be able to handle the real. Id rather be by myself. I think it all came down to really focusing on ourselves as individuals

Since I laid all my business on here complain all the time-I thought this deserves a follow up. after confronting him, it was great. For only about two weeks. Then it got ugly. Real ugly. He knows how to set me off and I went at him and it almost got physical. But I walked away becaue I still had enough sense NOT to do something that cannot be undone. (I left to laundry) he apologized sincerely when I got back and I told him I didn’t accept then listed the reasons. Ended it with basically saying that if we can upset eachother to the point of almost getting physical then I don’t want a part of it. We HAVE to live together for this time period so we have to be civil and respectful. something about that conversation must have sparked something. there is more consideration, more communication and support. Less ego. Narcissism has taken a back seat. He picked up a fucking book. (Atomic habits) and has been applying it and noticing what’s different it’s made in his life at the moment. we started to really focus on ourselves as individuals but realize we make a hella team when it comes to running the house, finances and now he has also taken interest in his physical health and now we’re finally both on the same page at the same time with trying to get healthy and physically fit as well as discipline with habits and food intake. work is good. home is good. dogs are good. life’s pretty fuckin great. thanks for listening, guise.

Therrs a dude, locally, who processes. Always been cool and 💯 Bodega Film Lab https://www.bodegafilmlab.com/

@nicklesndimes I LOVE LOVE LOVE seeing same things from different people’s perspective. Love the post. Thank you for sharing.

Somethin I forgot. We both went into this trip armed with two disposable cameras. I mailed hers to her so she can document her entire trip. I’m just waiting for a few more clicks before I go get all the film processed.

@nicklesndimes nice! I bet it was amazing in June. id love to see more pics if you ever care to share