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PITOFZOMBIES

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  1. Are you talking the acute irritability that comes while hungover, or just a general feeling that's difficult to pinpoint the cause of? I still get roadrage like a motherfucker, and I still can be 'snappy' at times. I think that's part of being human in a society that sucks in many ways. I'm so tired of people's carelessness, and that's generally what will cause my anger issues to flare up. Skateboarding helps immensely for me, and I'd assume any exercise would yield a similar result. I've also been dabbling with some of the philosophies behind mindfullness. More specifically, letting shit
  2. and of course: Glad to see the rest of y'all doing well. Same ol' shit here. Been a crazy summer thus far.
  3. Toiletseat: I'm pretty much beyond hyped that you made that post a page back. I'm not alone when I say that your general posts have always stood out as some of the funniest shit on here. With that said, your scathing irreverence and general inclination toward mockery of pretty much anything, while hilarious, definitely reminded me of how I thought when I was wasted. I just did not give a fuck about anything, and it was quite a release at times, because my true self often cares about things more than I would have liked to much of the time during those days. I think that's one of the main reason
  4. It's really too bad that the train didn't hit the other side of the car... more specifically the front half of that side.
  5. Pretty fuckin' much. Alcohol is the ultimate boredom killer. It's TOO good at dealing with boredom, actually... to the point where you allow yourself to run out of shit to do because you know it'll be there to fill the gap. Being able to push through the inevitable boredom is sometimes a necessary skill to hang onto sobriety. I've definitely had some frustrating nights when there wasn't shit to do, but I'm glad I didn't slip up. BnH, even though I know you're struggling with shit a little bit, it's still rad to hear you laying shit out for yourself as well as the rest of us. As long as yo
  6. It's definitely daunting to think of drinking and the hole there'd be if you quit. Took me a bit to get comfortable being inside my own sober head, but once you're settled into it, it's actually pretty cool to start feeling like you don't need the escape. "Liberating" is one word for it. I know I've let my other hobbies each put dents in that void, and I am okay with spending time in my head with whatever scraps are left after that. I used to drink to help me stop worrying about what people think of me (social anxiety in a nutshell). The irony of that being that I was giving more cause for j
  7. I know what you're going through, FR. It's absurdly easy to, with some years under your belt, begin to feel like you've grown enough since 'those days' to dabble with it. I know I've stepped up to the plate in about a million different ways since I sobered up, and I'm certain that's no coincidence. It's a bit of a catch-22, because we feel like we've grown up some and perhaps can handle it now with our refined state of mind, but the growth wouldn't have happened had we kept drinking. That's not to say that it isn't possible for some people, who've taken a break from drinking, to get back into
  8. I know what you're going through, FR. It's absurdly easy to, with some years under your belt, begin to feel like you've grown enough since 'those days' to dabble with it. I know I've stepped up to the plate in about a million different ways since I sobered up, and I'm certain that's no coincidence. It's a bit of a catch-22, because we feel like we've grown up some and perhaps can handle it now with our refined state of mind, but the growth wouldn't have happened had we kept drinking. That's not to say that it isn't possible for some people, who've taken a break from drinking, to get back into
  9. Here, in small doses. How you been dude?m I guess you already answered that. Formalities...
  10. I'm going to up that to 10/10 people. The second people lose respect for my decision not to drink, I lose respect for them almost entirely.
  11. Fuck yeah, BnH. How was the first month? Hyped? Whatever?
  12. Looks like we lost a few pages. Oh well. I can't tell if the revamp is the final nail in the coffin of this dying forum. I'll probably check back less frequently, but I won't abandon ship. This thread is still the most important shit on this thing. Thanks for everything.
  13. Landing a really fucking rad gig is what got me to reprioritize and get my shit straightened out. Hopefully it does the same for you. And there's no two ways about it: Had i continued drinking, i'd just as well have chucked it all down the drain. All the best on your endeavor. ---- Still at it here. 3 years and some change. Thankful for every day, even the shitty ones.
  14. Who really cares? Graffiti is a part of my life that I was never all that into advertising. The only people who knew I was involved with it were people who did it or people who were very close to me. Since I grew up a little bit, I've distanced myself from it as I've realized how goofy the shit actually is when you put it on paper: I write the same word over and over again on things that don't belong to me. I still do it, but it doesn't really serve much of a purpose beyond letting off a little steam now and again. Skateboarding is in a much worse state of affairs with all this contest c
  15. Not even mad, dude. I was more surprised than anything... I truly never had the intention of hounding you for shit. I was definitely apprehensive about some of the things you said regarding your tactics in navigating this shit, but to each their own. It's water under the bridge homie. Hopefully you're doing well now... sounds like maybe you hit a wall with shit... that's usually a nice cue that things need adjustment. Hope you get it sorted out if you haven't already. Homie of mine his 9 months today... stoked for him. He's a smart dude and one of the few people I can relate to or fee
  16. I think that many of us can probably relate to having extremely 'busy' minds. I know I do. I think that was why drinking had such a massive appeal to me, cause it quieted some of those thoughts. Things like weed made me look even deeper into my head in many circumstances, which is probably why I never liked it much. Because I'm constantly tearing everything apart in my head, I think it's possible that my brain ends up overworked, and then starts malfunctioning with memories and such. I definitely have trouble staying in the present, which by no means makes me an anomaly, but I wouldn't rule
  17. I've never been good with names, but I'm definitely horrible at remembering them now. I have moments where I get pretty frustrated with myself for not being able to think of whatever it is that I'm trying to think of. I don't know whether to chalk it up to getting older/having more shit going on, or if it has to do with my drinking days...
  18. Hope all's well folks... still at it. So stoked for Fall... been a relatively hot summer here and it leaves me with a lot of idle time when it's baking too hard to skate or do much of anything. I also become pretty irritable when it's hot. We've had a few Fall-ish days recently and there was a noticeable improvement in my general state of mind. There were a few days where it was bloody warm out and no one was around to find some water to swim in. The idea of copping a 40 definitely crossed my mind... didn't amount to much, though. Not sure what any of this has to do with anything. I hope
  19. Won't be caught dead on this shit. It's like club scene meets the internet... from what I've heard anyway. I don't think I would have a single thing to say to any of the kinds of people. I guess that's missing the point though...
  20. TOT a motorcycle cop told me simply to "knock it off" after seeing me catch a whiteout tag on a sign. He didn't even come to a stop. TOT I existed yesterday. amazing day.
  21. Congrats, Injury. Seriously, fucking rad. It helps me on my little path to know you're doing so well with this. I feed off the success of others I see handling this stuff. Standing up and facing the daunting, serious shit in life is one of the most respectable and honorable things someone can do. Thanks for killing it. Don't ever slow down.
  22. Gaping Asshole Grandma... haahhaha
  23. I didn't even read your post, Buddy. That was a general observation that pertained to the discussion at hand, specifically Protestor's post. When something you said had, in the past, prompted me to say something that might have somewhat countered it, I addressed that i wasn't attacking you in particular, because I'm not about that. What i said in my previous post is a reflection of with MY experience with AA, and nothing more. Am I supposed to wait 'til someone has posted after you to have my say, because your feelings get hurt if what I think remotely contradicts you? I'm not here to chase
  24. The thing that pisses me off about the God/Higher Power shit is that people try to deny or dance around that AA's foundation is/was constructed with Christianity in mind. Just own up to it as the reality of the situation, and offer that they are also open to anyone's interpretation of 'god'. When people attempt to deny an obvious truth, I lose most of my ability to trust them, and it leaves me disenfranchised with just about anything coming out of their mouths. Cut the sneaky shit and be straightforward. Deception is not something someone should have to deal with when they're confro
  25. Dealing with some rough shit lately. Past couple weeks have been grueling, but things turned around out of nowhere and improved my situation greatly. There were moments where i entertained the idea of getting wasted, but i stifled 'em without issue. Even considered going to a meeting, just because I was feeling pretty alone. Couldn't find one that was near enough and at a plausible hour. Skateboarding has been probably the biggest help, along with my homies who that entails. Been reading more lately... not sure why, but books kind of were lost on me for the past year or so. Looking forward to
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