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Don't completely rule out the heavy drinking. I was so deep into the last girl I was with, I thought death was better than being alone. I tell you, Jim Beam has all the answers even if he makes you forget the question. Time really does heal. My journal from that era makes me want to kick my own emo ass.

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start drinking 40's and whiskey so you get really really fat.

 

then grow a beard.

 

It works. Girls seem to like this look, I can't understand it for the life of me.

 

Then again, I'm twice your age. As I said, someday you'll get REALLY let down and REALLY heartbroken.

 

And then what you're going through now won't seem so bad.

 

You'll be all right.

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Most people know the deal with me and my ex, so you know I feel you on the still being hung up on her shit.

 

I also tried to do the whole changing for her thing...I tried to quit graffiti, racking, fighting, drinking, etc etc. I was even wearing this gay rubber band I found in her bed on my wrist to be a constant reminder that i was trying to better my life to get her back.

 

You know when that rubber band finally came off? i got depressed one night cuz I realized still nothing was changing no matter how much I did, so i got wasted drunk and went to a party where I kicked the shit out of her new boyfriend's best friend, and the shit broke off in the struggle.

 

The only thing that has ever reallymade me feel better about our breakup was violence against her boyfriend and his friends. Partying with my boys, fucking other bitches, making money, etc etc always are nice distractions, but only raw violence ever gave me a true feeling of happiness

 

It's been about 8 months now and while I'm still madly in love with her and all that, I'm slowly but surely putting her further and further to the back of my mind. Whenever we talk I do still get all freaked out about it, but thanks to the fact that we pretty much despise eachother now we don't talk much and yeah.

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I know exactly how you feel I split from my wife a year ago and have been hung up on it ever since, I wish I could convince myself I hate her but I can't because that would be shit for my son so I get on well with her and stay round at her place on weekends so we can have family time.

It sucks having everything in your face and not being able to actually have it. Can't really see this ever passing, people who say time heals are sometimes wrong

 

Good luck with your shit tho man

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hmmm... i hear what your sayin because you love her man, but you should never compromise yourself to impress somebody else ya kno... maybe instead of using this as an opportunity to completely change yourself you could use this as an opportunity to expierence new things for yourself ya know like finding a new hobby, doin some crazy shit ya know... anything that will help you put your best foot forward so you break free of the repetition

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You just have to concentrate real hard on her being with another guy make it harder her being with someone you know, then just realize thats probably going to be a reality the faster you deal with the better, and the easier it is to transition this time of break up make up. Im not gonna act like i know your situation but 99% of these things end the same way, and usually you regretting not moving on earlier.

 

This also gets your confidence up faster allowing you to do what you do with or without her, they comeback for seconds when they see you happy and with shit going for you and feed off that but as soon as you show you nice side they lose interest and fall back into break up mode.

 

Point unless your married understand your girl will be fucking someone else, and you need to put yourself first always. Im just a realist, shit could workout but if you play it right it will work out or it wont and it wont matter either way.

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Most people know the deal with me and my ex, so you know I feel you on the still being hung up on her shit.

 

I also tried to do the whole changing for her thing...I tried to quit graffiti, racking, fighting, drinking, etc etc. I was even wearing this gay rubber band I found in her bed on my wrist to be a constant reminder that i was trying to better my life to get her back.

 

You know when that rubber band finally came off? i got depressed one night cuz I realized still nothing was changing no matter how much I did, so i got wasted drunk and went to a party where I kicked the shit out of her new boyfriend's best friend, and the shit broke off in the struggle.

 

The only thing that has ever reallymade me feel better about our breakup was violence against her boyfriend and his friends. Partying with my boys, fucking other bitches, making money, etc etc always are nice distractions, but only raw violence ever gave me a true feeling of happiness

 

It's been about 8 months now and while I'm still madly in love with her and all that, I'm slowly but surely putting her further and further to the back of my mind. Whenever we talk I do still get all freaked out about it, but thanks to the fact that we pretty much despise eachother now we don't talk much and yeah.

 

Bumped to this page, cuz I feel like this is one subject I give good advice, although it's not really socially acceptable behavior

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yea puttin the beatdown on her new mans sounds like fun, i dont know where my bitch has been the last few months, and honestly im too far outta town to be chillin in my crown vic waiting for suckas to come out of the club. if shes datin some nerd ass fool i aint gonna hate, but if its a knuckle head ass club promotor or DJ or some shit im finnna CREEEEEP.

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My ex ended up with a kid who was the exact opposite of me...some faggy, preppy, Spanish kid who's so much of a pussy that he denied dating her to me, IN FRONT OF HER.

 

The reason I flipped as bad as I did and beat up not just him but his whole team was because that was her best friend for a long time, and when I broke up with her he was the one that I specifically sought out and warned not to go near her or he'd suffer consequences. He did, so he did.

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after this sentence

 

your in a continuous repetitive cycle?

 

it got a little too emo for me and I stopped reading

 

But yes I do feel like i'm in a continuous cycle. Not one I want to be in.

I'd like to change this cycle and live life in a continuous loop that I do like.

Not one I don't like.

I try to make my days, routines, choices all the same, at the same time, in the same manner, every fucking day.

 

Makes life simpler

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Autobiography in Five Short Chapters

by Portia Nelson

 

 

I. I walk down the street.

There's a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I fall in.

I am lost.....I am helpless;

it isn't my fault.

It takes forever to find a way out.

 

 

II. I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I pretend I don't see it.

I fall in again.

I can't believe I am in the same place;

but it isn't my fault.

It still takes a long time to get out.

 

 

III. I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I see it is there.

I still fall in....it's a habit.

My eyes are open.

I know where I am.

It is my fault.

I get out immediately.

 

 

IV. I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I walk around it.

 

 

V. I walk down a different street.

 

http://www.winternet.com/~terrym/autobio.html

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T;6113580']You just have to concentrate real hard on her being with another guy make it harder her being with someone you know, then just realize thats probably going to be a reality the faster you deal with the better, and the easier it is to transition this time of break up make up. Im not gonna act like i know your situation but 99% of these things end the same way, and usually you regretting not moving on earlier.

 

This also gets your confidence up faster allowing you to do what you do with or without her, they comeback for seconds when they see you happy and with shit going for you and feed off that but as soon as you show you nice side they lose interest and fall back into break up mode.

 

Point unless your married understand your girl will be fucking someone else, and you need to put yourself first always. Im just a realist, shit could workout but if you play it right it will work out or it wont and it wont matter either way.

 

That's pretty much what just happened this week, basically what I'm starting to realize, like AB.

 

BITCHES IS CRAZY.

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yeah man just take care of yourself. give yourself some credit, you had a life before she was in it didnt you? if you're trying to improve yourself do it for you not for some girl. get some things to look forward to, make some big changes in your life. just keep moving, and recognize that this shit will pass, if you let it.

 

biggest thing is realizing that you can take responsibility for how you deal with all this, and it can actually make a huge difference in how you end up feeling. give yourself some control.

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