redeyedanimal

that's a really involved sticker.... For someone's book or something?

Yeah, I did some research on the lasting effects of benzos, as well as their withdrawal effects, and decided that shit was not for me. It sounds as bad as gettin off of junk, not that I've ever been there but got some old friends that I've seen dope sick. Looks shitty. I am drinking 2 beers a night, and still taking all herbal meds. Something that I am takin has me thinking about things more rationally, and able to care about tomorrow. I'll have to ask the herbalist what combination is keeping my mind out of that dark hole... Also, stepped on a wineglass at work a few nights ago, broken stem face up of the ground went through my shoe and between two of my toes, only cut one toe and didn't need stitches. When I was drinking a lot, I would have blamed the job, the waitstaff, the managers, all the people around me, and cussed up a storm about it. Being more clearheaded made me realize shit happens, and I am lucky that it went between my toes instead of into the ball of my foot. I NEVER would have been able to keep a positive attitude about that if I wasn't staying 'less-than-buzzed' every night. Booze is a depressant (technically speaking, protester) which affects the mind and body as a depressant. In large quantities it can make you completely ignore positivity, because misery loves company. Booze is misery, don't let it get you. Take a reign on that shit before it gets too bad, and if it is getting bad, take a real honest look at yourself and see how you feel. Life is treating me well right now, no need to fuck it up with selfish tendencies and destructive habits. AND, chances are, life is treating most people better than they think it is. Write a list of things you are grateful for. It helps.

Fuck all o yous guys. Every last frickin one of yas.

shut the fuck up, fuckhead. Can you believe this fuckin guy^^^?!?

ok, never do that again. That is not cool. Work more on paper unless you have a legal spot to paint. Don't do that shit illegal and get arrested. I can't tell if trolling of just a really really bad newb....

How did you do the highlights in the upward drips in the fill?

one of my favorite metal songs of all time. RIP jeff...

A legal wall at a public school will take a lot of paperwork and convincing. Paint a wall in the gym instead. Claim ignorance.

Nah dude, you're good. Put that shit up everywhere, as fast as you can. That's the best way to get into king status. The closer you can get to the police station/courthouse, the more e-street credz you will get, write down all the spots in case someone says you didn't do it, then you can prove you did. And practice on your walls, books, etc at your crib, it's more real that way and you will be able to check out your own shit every time you come into your room. Always go out with at least 10 cans, and always throw them whenever they are empty. As far as you can throw them.

stoopid thread is stewpid.

Oh, shit. RIP, dude.

I always thought you were a male.

Yeah dude, do your best to be there for him without making his problems your own. I'm not giving advice, just an opinion. And your dead on about having to keep secrets, once I start justifying shit in my own life everything gets a lot worse. I hope this dude has the very rare epiphany, I wish that for anyone that has a real problem and is trying to go into remission. But it took a long time to get to that point, and it will take quite a bit longer to get out from that point.

Man, only fags have parents. Clearly you have always been a raging 'mo, for having parents. And you lived with them for 10 years??? Not hiphop, yo. Not hiphop at all...

that obsoe is the best thing I've seen on this thread in a while.

That won't change the fact that I want to kill most of the people around me most of the time, just because. Not that I am a violent or confrontational person, just fucking angry and irritable almost all the time these days. I'm going to speak with a certified professional rather than an anonymous forum. (Red's Real Talk) I'm even willing to be completely honest with a doc to get this shit straightened out. I'm not tryin to get hooked on benzos tryin to get off booze, then get hooked on both and have three crutches for two legs.

@beershits: have you used this personally? How does klonopine compare to xanax? I used to eat them in high school, but that was a long time ago and just for fun. I definitely cannot keep living a life this angry, and I definitely can't keep drinking the way I have been in the past few months, or I'll be dead or in the penitentiary in no time.

was thoroughly disgusted because it was so well written. Gross dude, I hope this brings back some old memories for you.

what about the dowbaby?

DAO, there is absolutely no government conspiracy that could apply to the Boston Bombings or to the capture of that 19 year old kid. It is completely coincidental that the cant speak, and if you think otherwise, you are a retard. That is all.

^That being said, there is still a difference between a dry drunk and a recovering alcoholic. I'm gonna go a week again and see how it works, this time i'm gonna hit up a meeting for the first time in years. Seriously though, I have anxiety and depression issues from some fairly recent family shit, anybody tried medications to help with not drinking to keep from stabbing motherfuckers? Sometimes I just wanna stab a motherfucker, and its not even their fault...

"Why do we fall down Bruce? We fall down to learn how to get back up..."

Yeah dude, been in the kitchen for a decade now, and it's going to be my career. But I'm in a different style environment now that doesn't revolve entirely around booze and drugs. It's pretty cool. I've been looking into meeting, i'm no strangers to meetings but am in a new town, a bigger city, and it's harder to find that sense of community here. I have an old friend down here though that wants to go to meetings for the first time, if I can get him to come with me it could help us both. My bad sayWORD, definitely did not mean for that to come off as offensive, but I can understand how it did. It was not my intention.

dude, I can't stay off the bottle for longer than a week yet. But I'm tryin to fake it till I make it. I used weed and alprazolam to help me not think about booze the first two days, then went cold turkey on everything. And then I fell off the wagon. My story is a long one, and is starting to get really old...

yup. cop.