Kalashnikov

Thanks, this actually helps give some insight. I'm pretty much the exact same as you in terms of my drinking habits. Typically once a week, sometimes a few days at a time, since around the same age with a few breaks (mostly when I was into heroin, as funny as that might be). We're also pretty much the same age. This past week, I had a few friends from high school come visit me and they're straight up alcoholics, drinking morning until night. I would drink at night with them most nights, and the pain is definitely drinking related. It actually was quite noticeable yesterday (Sunday), and was sharp at times when it never was before. I drank Thursday, Friday, and Saturday nights. I also notice it when I've abstained from drinking and have one beer, it starts maybe a minute after taking the first few sips. Either way though I'm gonna give the drinking a rest for at least like 4 or 5 weeks and see what happens. Which I guess means I'll have a sober Christmas and New Years, but whatever. It's not like drinking makes anything better, but it does help you feel normal when you're an anxious wreck half the time. I also plan on going to the doctor to see what this is about, ask for some labs, etc. I'm glad that you quit (pretty much), living a longer life is the better choice.

Just took a shower, gonna go to my girl's parents' place to wash our cars and go to some birthday celebration with her friends where we're just meeting in a park to play soccer and shit. Exercise is good, I guess. Different than the usual "meet at the bar" birthday celebrations.

Trash the midgets too man. It'd just be too weird, even if they look alright. Plus those hands, I can't.

There is not even one small thing about this girl that would make me have even a slight interest in this. Trrrrrasssshhhh.

I put Valentina on pretty much anything that'll take it. It's nothing fancy, you can get it at any supermercado or even Walmart. They have hot and extra hot, both are delicious. It goes on chicken, beef, rice... anything.

Not listening to shit right now but Ghostface - One is stuck in my head. Discovered Wiki as a Spotify recommendation not long ago. Really like this shit.

I have been drinking more than I want to inside lately, if that makes sense. One thing I'm starting to get worried about, when I drink a lot I notice that I get this dull pain where I feel like my right kidney would be, but sometimes it's on the front too. It's right above my pelvic bone, so it feels too far down to be my liver. It's not bad but it's noticeable. I don't really notice it at all after I'm a few days removed from drinking. I've been drinking maybe 2-3 times a week. Anybody ever experience something similar? I had a physical earlier this year and nothing stood out as a problem.

There's some decent and funny stories in this thread, lol. This past weekend, took my girl out to the Keys. We got a hotel room with a balcony overlooking the water on a quiet key. We get in the place, looks nice, but the bed is against the wall. Why not move the bed to right in front of the balcony door so we can look at the water while we lay there, right? We start messing around with the door wide open. No big deal, there's nobody around. Things start getting heavier, I'm kinda kneeling and she's sucking me off while I'm fingering her with her ass facing the door. I'm getting into it and I decide to look out the door, a boat has appeared and there's like 6 people just standing on it looking right at us. It made getting up to close the blinds a little awkward.

Is weekendgunnit leaking?

I rarely, rarely write anything by hand anymore. It's all digital. However, about two years ago I had to set a new hire up at my job with equipment. I had to write ...I forget what the fuck it was, on a sheet of paper for her. She looked at it and said, "Wow! You have such cool handwriting! It looks like graffiti!" My handwriting is pretty neat but some letters have little twists to them. I just responded, "Meh... maybe in a past life or something." Thought the normie comment was funny though.

Friday night, went out with some people from work. Had 4 drinks, didn't think that I was that drunk but the next morning I definitely felt like shit. Even had my last drink like 2 hours before going to bed, and ate. Began to contemplate drinking in general and how it's getting kind of played out. 100% sobriety has always been a problem for me, though. I still feel like I need some kind of release. Maybe something is just missing in my life. Saturday, hung out with the girl. Mostly did nothing all day, just watched The Wire. Her first time seeing it, my like 15th. Today, meal prepped for the week. I realized I spend a good $150 on food throughout the week eating out for every meal, so I went and just made arroz con frijoles and chicken for the week. Maybe I'll lose some weight. Trying to fall asleep now. Took a melatonin but it isn't doing a whole lot.

$40 to see them live when they come to Miami, probably gonna go.

That is some day old Little Caesar's looking bullshit. And yeah I couldn't imagine trying to bang her and keep looking down to see a humongous fucking bee... get the fuck outta here with that shit.

Word. My parents never really exercised though, but they stayed normal body weight. I'm starting to get a slight belly (I'm at the very top of "normal" for my height), but god damn. Going to work all day, taking care of adult bullshit and then working out afterwards takes dedication. If you have kids that takes even more. I wish there was hiking around me. The only real place is the Everglades and that's not real hiking, it's walking/running through grass instead of on the pavement. I hate winter but one thing I do miss about being up north is those fall evenings. Where the trees are bare but the leaves are all over the ground, there's that crisp smell in the air and it's perfect weather to be outside exercising in a light hoodie.

Normally I like a girl with decent tattoos, but these tattoos are just ... I don't know. I don't like them. Unattractive

God damn, another death? Rest In Paint

I went about 4 times a week all last year. 15 minutes of cardio, plus weights. I hit some kind of reverse New Year's Resolution and stopped going around the start of January. Last night I went for a run, just a mile but I did that in a little under 8 minutes, which is my usual. Surprised I could still keep that time. Going to go again later tonight once it cools off, and hopefully continue. I have high blood pressure so cardio really is all I NEED to be doing, weights are way more fun though. Fucking hate cardio.

As someone who quit both, I gotta disagree. Kicking heroin (multiple times) was by far and long (nh), the hardest (nh) thing I've ever done Quitting cigarettes/nicotine literally was nothing, at least to me personally. One day I was just like... "Why do I still smoke? It tastes like shit, makes me smell like shit, costs me money. Fuck it." and I just stopped. It's been about a year and a half since that moment, no desire to smoke at all. If quitting heroin was as easy as quitting cigarettes I would have done it a long time ago.

That's actually good insight, I've never really thought about that before.

Smash from the back, smash from all sides, and trash for @One Man Banned's post.

So for all of those people who are former addicts of any sort and are now sober, or at least sober from their DOC... what's up with the food "addiction" thing? I have been noticing this more and more lately. Like I feel like I'm turning into a true fat ass. I'm still within my normal weight range and everything (albeit, not by much) but when I don't have anything else, I really look forward to eating. When I'm having a shitty day especially, sometimes I'll get lost in thought thinking about all of my lunch choices. Plus if I have enough food, I eat until I'm full. I also eat when I'm bored. Not fucking around either, I've heard this is definitely a thing with sober people. I never really used to give a shit about food that much. I mean yeah I liked good food, who doesn't, but so long as I had a dollar for a McDouble after getting a few bags of dope I was good.

I can just smell the Marlboro Reds and boxed wine from here. Straight into the basura.

I think I had a couple PMs from DAO running his mouth as well which I always found fucking hilarious. Like this nigga is so mad that he's gonna go out of his way to send a private message. Then weeks later after it had been long forgotten, he'd come back and talk some more shit "just to remind you what a faggot you are." I can see him rolling around in his bed at night just fuming mad about shit people said on 12oz. I had a lot of PMs from Sword though which is what I was getting at, but if they're not salvageable it's no big deal. I have emails from him from back in the day which contain the same "Swordisms." On Aug 19, 2013 10:49 PM, "swordfish meatloaf" <> wrote:

@misteravengot my account back when I was locked out as well. One thing though, my old PMs aren't there. Any way to get those back?

I agree, I'm pretty sure this was the case. They were probably treating the passengers like a drug dealer treats his customers. "Yeah fam I'm right down the block, be there in 2 minutes." "I swear this time I'm pulling up just look out for me." "Yo I got stuck at the light on the corner but I'm pulling up right now" And so forth. There's really no point in leaving the train to truck through the wilderness on foot when you're being told that help is right around the corner. You don't wanna be the idiot they have to come rescue because you decided to take off instead of wait another hour for help. Of course there comes a point where it's like, "Okay, they're not coming." But making that call can be difficult depending on the situation.