really cool how fast this thread comes back to life when someone reaches out.
sobriety is intimidating when you take it in all at once - so much so that it scares a lot of us back to our substance of choice. it happened to me, at least. yeah, it is this enormous and potentially life-changing thing, but it's also pretty simple: just don't pick up a drink/anything else. for the next hour, or the rest of the day. that's all there is to it.
i know a lot of alcoholics (myself included) who overthink things until they're big and scary enough to get angry at. i think we do this because it's easy to hate, easy to resent. that is my experience, at least.
take the simple view of sobriety - you don't need to drink TODAY. try that for a little while, if you find yourself worse off than before, there may be something else out there for you.
i still get daily cravings. i've been sober about 2 years.
it may go away, though. when i'm happiest, i have no desire to drink. when i have no desire to drink, i'm not always happy - i may just be craving something else: caffeine, sugar, nicotine, sex, painting.
this is very very very true.
dude, ive bought this before. i bought 2 4lokos (old recipe) to "keep me awake" on a 14 hour drive once. insanity. i am lucky to be alive, with some of the shit i did.