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its been so long since Ive posted a picture...i forget about sizing them hope those arent too big

this one?

but its them unfortunate lookin ones that probably give then best ones

should be doing a handful of other things but i was missing my oontz

my brother an I were talking of this subject yesterday . mind you, he has no idea i have struggled with my own substance issues. he started doing meth at 16, he will be 41 in a few months. mayyyyybe went a few years without it (beuase of jail and court ordered rehab, parole etc....) now he takes diffeent pills, im sure he does a lil bump occasioally and every few months he has a drastic weight loss. I know he is not clean and sober. everything he talks about, when he is stuck in this world of when "it was good" was about the age of 16 for him. thats all he talks about. the music, his friends, the way things were, where we lived, high school days...even the same "dream way of life" is the same as when he was 16. he cant remember that I sold my car last year, when he was the one who had to drive to stateline to tow me in. we spoke about this a few weeks ago. he doesnt even remember the conversation we had about him forgetting that subject. he forgot to take his insulin because he forgot the dr diagnosed him with diabetes. the nhe went into renal failure. i know that drug does some damage, but its odd that his mind is stuck in 1989/1990 i hope everyone is well and healthy and strong. i hope weapon X surfaces love you all

dear NOES I am excited for you and can wait for pictures!!! Dear CALIgula, did we completely miss eachother here? im kinda bummed if we did but I still hope you had an amazing time. smdubski

i have been very proud of myself not falling asleep at the movies in he last year or so. I slept through 1/2 of LUCY (last movie i fell asleep during was BRICK MANSIONS) i will agree that johansson is beautiful-but the camera will rarely let you see her walk from the mid thigh down. very knock kneed- but im just a hater

true hair down to the crack of my ass - (and white people have a low ass crack) you try combing this out with out conditioner. tpbm drinks tap water

off subject- we manage to pick up 25k-30k anually in scholarships. tuition and housing runs around 42k but we got 2 years under the belt and she picked up an intern program this summer. she is my reason i know if i didnt have her id be dead or worse.

checking in and trying to catch up. any word on weapon X..? heather Lewis..my girl!! always randomly checking in on me. for that you are very much appreciated. and i love you for that I cant remember from a few pages back-but some milestones have been made with some of you. so fucking good to hear. also a few pages back (red calling poz out) remember-as addicts- we do not hold accountablity for any of our actions, and don't recognize what that actually is until sobriety has really set in. have a lil mercy on us all. i don't count days/weeks/months anymore. i just know i haven't been able to get legal prescriptions since the beginning of the year. my (real) dr got pinned as well as my (street) pharm. there has been 3 occasions since then that ive been able to cop a handful of roxys that only last a few days. then i realize it was a few days of an incredible headache and a steady search for that feel good feeling that you never get again as you did in the beginning-minus a hundred bucks or so honestly-if it landed in front of me now/tmrw/in a week-id take it. forever craving. but this (last 7 months) have been the cleanest ive been in 12 yrs. (a few weeks away) ive put on weight. im super bitchy and miserable. back to zero sex drive. ZERO.. and i feel, fuck that, i KNOW my creative side has dwindled down to bare minimum at best. ive lost some clients because of my attitude.im in pain. so -im really struggling with seeing the benefit to sobriety. (for me,no pills) I had the ability to obtain the legally. i was definitely more pleasant. my work definitely stood out way above anyone elses. i didnt feel lazy I had a lil more drive i was just out a few extra bucks each month. which is the ONLY good i can pick from this because tuition is a muther fucker. im glad i could check in and read the las few pages.

checkin in

false-ive never said that shit (i think thats what you mean) tpbm puts smiley faces when they text girls

nice updates on this page -porra- i cant pick a favorite-i like them all and cannot prop you again yet sorry to hear that news IOU - mercer has always been a favorite of mine especially the night time ones. wafflecake-looks like a nice ride need to push myself a lil again. stay up ya'll

if the face is an unquestionable smash- i would agree-either fat or has a peen

Re: random thoughts when i hear of ninja Turtles-i think of Jem and the Holograms

bout to go watch a movie and go play at the Pinball hall of fame. not sure which order yet tho

false. i dont even talk to her. tpbm cuts the crust off of their sammiches

Have you ever stopped to think and forget to begin again? --A.A. Milne

Re: random thoughts clams and mushrooms...... double checked to make sure i was in the right thread