eliserx

I found out that an old elementary friend of mine hung herself from a tree in my neighborhood during our senior year. I found out that it had happened probably a year later. I wasn't sad as much as I was shocked. I haven't experienced anyone close to me dying but I figure I'd react similarly. It's hard for me to imagine anyone being dead. Guess that means my unhealthy view is that I think people are fucking immortal when they aren't. RIP Dora

i like honey bunches of oats & raisin bran. kashi is awesome too.

Re: Boa Vs. Pytho is ABC's favorite movie. *'dere snake dis big out thurr?!?!

I checked out a book from the library. I had intentions to read it before I checked it out but sort of just ignored it when I got it home. I let it collect late fees and then the day I decide to turn it in, my dog fucking chewed it up. Is this karma? Or is it karma that I'd rather just ignore the fact that someone I know has a drug problem and as a result of that the person leaves my dog in the house unsupervised to chew on the book? Or none of the above. It seems like everythings too interrelated, for me atleast, to make a distinction.

Looking at this thread on an empty stomache.. no bueno.

I appreciate what you have to say Poesia. And money that's handed to you is more tempting to spend/waste in my opinion. Money earned is shit I try to save. I HATE GIVING THAT AWAY for bills, food, clothes etc. It just sucks how some people measure your worth by how much you make and how. Living comfortably is the way to go. Too much or too little money leads to unhappiness.

I don't have a problem with filipinos. My friend is half and her mom cooks good food. She's not really ugly or anything either so I don't know what you're talking about with the pear shaped bodies/pizza faces. I wouldn't mind flying over there just for the experience. I hear the roads and people driving are pretty wild. And you have to carry around your own tissues/napkins/toilet paper because they'll charge you for it if you go out to some places.

Dimmu Borgir - In Sorte Diaboli

Re: Dear ________, - no homo Dear lower back, what the fuck did I do to you? -elise

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Re: Boa Vs. Pytho is ABC's favorite movie. *'dere snake dis big out thurr?!?!

Things seem obvious to me when I'm high.. and everything will click. But when I'm sober, I second guess everything I thought when I was high just because I know I was high. there's a clarity involved.

I feel the same as your friend. I took a philosophy class a few semesters ago. Sorta changed my perspective on death. Epicurus was real inspirational to me: “Death does not concern us, because as long as we exist, death is not here. And when it does come, we no longer exist.” It may seem sort of twisted but I prefer complete nothingness over a heaven or a hell. I don't think it's realistic for us to take responsibility for every damn thing we did while we lived when we're dead and I really don't think it matters at that point anyway. Epicurus took some weight off my shoulders. It's weird with science, too. You can't mix religion/dualism/separation of "soul"&body with it. It's all definitely wild shit to think about while you're high.

I have 90. I only know maybe 20.

^my hetero life partner the chica I've known the first three since middle school, best friend status.

I'll make you all feel better about yourselves. Atleast you're in the game. You're not too freaked out about putting yourself on the line. Whether or not you get fucked over or you're happy as hell. You've got the huevos to do that shit. It's risk. Props to all of you.

It's one out of the only two diet drinks I drink.

RX Queen Digital Bath Back to School Lucky Minerva Be Quiet and Drive Mascara Change Anniversary of an Uninteresting Event It's all good.. but I like the mellow stuff. &I've only heard "Ever" by Team Sleep, I like it.

Sunset Rubdown - Mending of the Gown

Re: Boa Vs. Pytho is ABC's favorite movie. *'dere snake dis big out thurr?!?!

edit, again

edit, I fail.

sorry, edoggg. putting trust in the wrong people gets me fucked up and feeling like a complete fool. it's like being violated or something. Customer service really blows though. People get away with that shit because of these retarded business ethics "the customer's always right" bullshit. you're supposed to sit there and let them take advantage of you. even if you have some kind of evidence to prove that the customer's clearly stealing money.. you can't do shit, they get away with it. It's like you'd have to plant a weapon on them and then say they held you up in order to get them caught. that's pretty weak, but I'm sure pulling the race card let everyone know he's full of shit.

^^I had some of that this morning. Stuff tastes like 30ml of coughdrops. I wake up stupid after taking NyQuil. I wake up and I can't figure out where the button on my alarm clock is so I stare at it for a while and wonder why its making noise, like its foreign to me.

I think I'm ready to surrender. Used to, one big one would pop up every now and then and I'd kill it. Now there's all these little ones in my kitchen that I just pretend I don't see. My friend says she has a phobia of roaches. We all think she's bullshitting/an attention whore. Gag roaches, real roaches, Papa Roach.. they all make her cry. OHWELL.