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JoeyLawrence

Depression seems to be the theme...

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yeah i dunno. im more depressed than i have been in a while lately. i even go out now. i started smoking (something that is totally unlike me), and have been drinking by myself every day for like 2 weeks. i dunno i dunno i dunno. my best friend is comin to visit this week, im still in love with my x girlfriend niki, and even though she just recently had an abortion, does tons of coke, and fucked 3 or 4 dudes since me im still fuckin pining after her for some shitty ass reason. ive decided that my art sucks, going to school sucks, my haircut fucking sucks, im ugly, money doesnt cure shit, alcohol just numbs it, and now it takes a bottle of nyquil every 2 days to get me to sleep. fuck i dunno what im thinking anymore. i sorta wish i could die, or go to a hospital for exhaustion. i dont care about much anymore, and seeing that i live on my own and have zero friends, shit is stellar (like muhcell gelalr) haha that wasnt funny. anyways, goodnight. im wasting your time now. niki is never coming back, my hair will always suck, and antisocial is my steady character flaw fueled by my overall shitty appearance and everything. fuck it.

no one cares.

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i've been in the pining-after-the-dumb-whore-slut-ex-girlfriend game... as well as many of the other things you said... that sucks...

drop a muther-fucker an e-mail if ya wanna go fuck shit up some weekend...

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Guest willy.wonka

Elohim.....

yes-i!

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^^^^^^listin to him. lol jus jokin, and theres nuthin wrong witth smokin muahahahahahaa i love my newports mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

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I KNOW HOW YOU FELL, A LOT ACTUALLY MY MOM HAS BEEN IN AND OUT OF THE HOSPITAL WITH HEART PROBLEMS ME AND MY GIRL HAVE DONE NOTHING BUT FIGHT! ALL PEOPLE DO IN THIS TOWN IS HATE AND TALK SHIT! I TOO STARTED SMOKING TO THE DISMAY OF EVERYONE, SOMETHING THAT I PERSONALLY THINK IS THE WORST THING IN THE WORLD, ONE OF MY FRIENDS TRIED TO FLIP HIS CAR PERPOUSLY, ANY WAY I KNOW HOW YOU FELL....:(

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Guest railroadjerk

welcome to my world dunny. im sad even when im happy.

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jesus christ (oppps, i didnt mean to say that word in vain) popgunwar!! maybe if you'd come over or something, you'd at least have 2 people to drink with. and god knows that both of you guys act stupid when you are drunk. i thought you were supposed to come over on saturday?

 

i started to smoke again too. i am totally stressed out at school so smoking is my relief.

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Guest Ted Wakowski

It's natural to fall into a slump sometimes. What's important is to remember that things change; the stagnant state of shit you may feel your life has become could do a 180 at the drop of a dime. Or it could just happen slowly. Either way, it's not permanent unless you force it to be.

 

Another thing to keep in mind is the fact that depression is completely mental, so tell your mind to go fuck itself if your well-being doesn't agree with its viewpoint. I bitchslap my own mind daily and that shit works.

 

If all else fails you might find some comfort in thinking about how much worse life could be. There are a shitload of people alive right now who would probably sell their soul to trade places with you or me with our comparitively easy American lives. It's tough to see outside the spectrum of your own reflections but it's just what you have to do, unless you're comfortable with an endless state of useless self-loathing. You gotta work with what you've got and build off of it, like being stuck in an empty room with a really annoying asshole and resorting to a bare-handed strangulation over a proper, custom job. Cheer up pal.

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Hey buddy, this is the wrong place to come and lay out your problems since you cleary state in alot of your post that you don't give a crap about any of us:( , so take it somewhere esle, because we don't care right back...... and after you do that email me at sylo12@yahoo.com.

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Guest Smok

Seems like a lot of people are feeling the same way lately. Most of my friends are talking like they're ready to die. No one's the same anymore.

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Guest professor poopatronic

yeah i was in severe depression mode for a while but i've kinda snapped out of it in the last few days. the funny thing is i have no idea why. my life hasn't really changed at all since then and i doubt it's clinical depression.

you started smoking?! you're right that is very unlike you and i can't picture it at all. most of the people i've been hanging out with lately smoke, and it almost makes me want to start because what always happens is everybody goes outside to smoke and i'm left there sitting around like a damn fool. i could just follow them around but that's kinda stupid if you ask me.

anyways, go get fucked up and do some graffiti and talk to some girls. that usually gets my mind out of a rut.

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darn

 

I am always depressed too... life can be a bitch at times... I to just broke up with my gf and she meant a lot to me and her brother wants to fight me which is funny cause he is extremely tiny anyways I try to look at life like laugh now cry later and just go with it and the anti-d's help a little mixed with malt liks another thing that tends to help is this webpage http://www.threebrain.com/weeeeee.html

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Guest unoprimero

dayum. the more you put negative thinking on yourself the more deep into depression you'll fall. ponder less on the bad things about your life... focus on things that are goin good. things could always be better for you but there's always someone that has it worse.

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Guest -MOE LESTER-

.....i am depressed 24/7 and i put a mask over it all the time....im a class clown at school and yet when i get home i find myself sitting on my bed staring at my ceiling thinking abuot how much of a waste i am.....i seriously bring myself down abuot how much of a social loser i am... i am fuckin 16, and i live like an 8 year old....while kids around me are having fun and the time of their lives and interacting, i find myself shy, outcasted, and stupid. i get depressed because i think about how good my life could be right now and how sad it is in reality.......im physically weak, i have NEVER had any interaction whatsoever with any girl, i cant do the things i love, like graffiti, i havent had fun in weeks, and im alone as hell....i sometimes wish i could shoot myself in the head and end it all....but i keep thinking tommorow will get better, but it never does, so one of these days im gonna wake up and realize that NO...tommorow will not get better, it will just be another depressing day, and i will kill myself, i dont know when, but i garunfuckintee this board that i will prolly go out through suicide, ive already had numerous instances where i was about to, and one instance where i failed to suffocate myself....fuck life, its such a waste, it pissed me off because theres really nothing i can do about it

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Guest whoami
Originally posted by -MOE LESTER-

.....i am depressed 24/7 and i put a mask over it all the time....im a class clown at school and yet when i get home i find myself sitting on my bed staring at my ceiling thinking abuot how much of a waste i am.....i seriously bring myself down abuot how much of a social loser i am... i am fuckin 16, and i live like an 8 year old....while kids around me are having fun and the time of their lives and interacting, i find myself shy, outcasted, and stupid. i get depressed because i think about how good my life could be right now and how sad it is in reality.......im physically weak, i have NEVER had any interaction whatsoever with any girl, i cant do the things i love, like graffiti, i havent had fun in weeks, and im alone as hell....i sometimes wish i could shoot myself in the head and end it all....but i keep thinking tommorow will get better, but it never does, so one of these days im gonna wake up and realize that NO...tommorow will not get better, it will just be another depressing day, and i will kill myself, i dont know when, but i garunfuckintee this board that i will prolly go out through suicide, ive already had numerous instances where i was about to, and one instance where i failed to suffocate myself....fuck life, its such a waste, it pissed me off because theres really nothing i can do about it

Damn I have a lot in common with you....I'm going out next weekend and saying fuck you i'm doing what I want or else i'm going to fucking end up dead...i'm going to bring 24 cans, gloves, a ski mask and king this whole small ass town full of beef eaters, wannabe tagbangers, and these fucking toys all in one night. I cant wait until summer when I'm in st.louis

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shave your hair off then that's one less thing to stress about

 

i can't give the usual look on the bright side shit, but i have friends bi-polar, breakdowns, phobic, drug physchosis episodes etc. and they're all still alive and getting on with it...there's a lot of it about and a HUGE industry with pills tailormade for dealing with it, which doctors seem only too happy to dish out to poor fuckers like us, it's one solution, not the best one maybe but...

 

and give meditation and/or yoga a shot, seriously, been there done that myself and you wouldn't believe the difference it can make ;)

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i really feel like being an asshole to you people but i'd rather not... i would never spill my guts on such personal matters on a public message board but i suppose anonymity is your enemy as well as your allie in your current state of mind and also in our lives in general, so you are afforded the opportunity to do so.... anyway, all night i've been smoking blunts and drinking white wine and i'm in an OK mood (no i wasn't by myself) that's just an aside... bottom line is what your man wakowski said: we all get in our slumps! and the combative technique i've found to be the most effective is to really deeply consider your view of yourself... is it really that you have such a low opinion of yourself, or that you think that that's the way others view you? a lot of times it's easy to confuse the opinion we imagine others have of us, with our opinion of ourselves, and it becomes one and the same... if you can shake that shit off, you'll always be straight... cus fuck what people think...you're only working with what you got so don't waste valuable time being a pussy and feeling sorry for yourself... yeah it could always be worse but that really means nothing, it could always be better too, it is what it is (and sweating a bitch like that will only make shit worse)

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i'm on the whole antisocial thing....i hate everyone and i find that everything around me disgusts me. i find almost everything that everyone says to be trite and meaningless. people tell me to just stop hating things and be happy. why? yes, in alot of ways, i am lucky and have alot...but its just this feeling like theres something not right with my life and the world and i hate it. i have no will or desire to do anything. the only time i even bother getting up to do anything for real is when i go out riding or paint. these are the only things still tying me to this world. everyone tends to be fake and no one means what theyre saying. i dont much care for this farce.

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Guest THE LAW
Originally posted by MARLBORO RED

is it really that you have such a low opinion of yourself, or that you think that that's the way others view you? a lot of times it's easy to confuse the opinion we imagine others have of us, with our opinion of ourselves, and it becomes one and the same... if you can shake that shit off, you'll always be straight... cus fuck what people think...you're only working with what you got so don't waste valuable time being a pussy and feeling sorry for yourself... )

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