SMdoubleXL

355,000 men later? to fucking retire at 70???? they're doing it wrong

Dear Sey Sey, baby daddy. he's really not worth any effort - lets do lunch...if ever. doubleX

true. tpbm goes through people's medicine cabinets.

that tea . watching a documentary on tupac and biggie. dude keeps saying >2-pack< and >sean coooms< reminds me--i should hit up Suge Knight and see if he wants to come back into the shop. tired as fuck. but freshman year tuition PAID.

one cannot clean all the nooks and crannies---cracks and crevices with nails like that.

not to make some type of -fuck bitches,get money- post.. -and it seems you guys have this sobriety thing fine tuned to what works for you i have had a few occasions where i have learned its not worth it to be an asshole. I used to wear "being an asshole" like like a crown. i could give a fuck what others thought and how it affected me. UNTIL- High school days- -learning that that kid that we all picked on, commited suicide because of it. (i guess that wasnt enough to teach me) -after having brain surgery (which was the seed of a 10 year pill addiction) that put me on the other side for a few minutes, disfigured my face, caused deafness, learning how to walk, talk and eat again....and realized how others actions can really determine your healing process. not that people were asses to me, but i learned that genuine kindness makes the difference between living and taking your life. which leads me to this-I have a child (which in some cases this makes a world of difference on your actions) who is finishing her freshman year in College. as self sufficient as I have taught her to be, because i know i had to let her go eventually, THE ONLY THING I CAN DO TO HELP HER IS FROM MY WALLET. my kid busted her ass to be where she is and i cant take that away from her. i would rather miss her dearly than to have her here and living a mediocre life. I run my own business..im simply a salon worker, but one day i was being typical asshole driver and when going into the shop, i realized the person i was an asshole to was a client in the shop whom i respected. She took care of us ($$) and i soon lost that, not to mention, i realized he was having a real bad day, and my actions (which benefit me NONE) had a huge impact on her. (she just lost her husband) when it affected my wallet, was the biggest eye opener. I couldnt risk losing a clientelle because of actions had no benefit to me or my kid. she was given tons of grants and scholarships, and we had a plan to cover the remaining tuition, when that plan fell through, and i know how much she wants to graduate from this school, i vowed to exhaust ALL efforts to make sure it happens. even if it meant dropping the pills, which i realized i was putting out waaaaay too much money for, and to clean up my attitude and focus on my business at all costs. even if it meant dropping my attitude at the door and service my clients. they are paying for it. they could also go somewhere else for it. So, POZ, i dont know if there is a child involved or financial strain, and up until this year i guess it wasnt enough for me to get right. it was when it really affected my money. it even changed the way i drive, and made me re think some of my hobbies. i hate paying speeding tickets, aggressive driving tickets...i dont paint, but i bench-20k pictures and i finally caught a trespassing case. this took 4 (separate) court days (time from work) and a 1500 fine. oooggghh, that pissed me off so bad. haha i dont know if you asked or wanted to hear all of that, or if i even touched on what you had in mind, but like anything else, addictions and all..it comes down to finding your conscious mind while trying to make a split second decision and deciding -IS IT WORTH IT?? find that ONE thing you know you CANNOT afford to lose and make it your sole reason for ANYTHING YOU DO. the sole reason should be YOURSELF, but when we're addicts, we dont understand self worth...so sometimes we need to find that ONE thing. I have NEVER been so focused and so clear minded as i have the last few months. Its been about 6-7 weeks without "meds" for me. with the exception of one day i was given 'meds' and i was sick to my stomach, missed a day of work ($$$!!!) and took me a few days to feel normal after that. i would normally take around 10-12 a day, and had myself convinced i couldnt function without them its not worth it anymore. endramble. good luck everyone, your strength is contagious.

uuugh, na na na not true. tpbm still buys cd's

good gaaaawd that fucking forehead

false. i am the fleshlight tpbm would tell a friend if they have bad breath

Dear baby daddy, eat a dick. ps. dont forget the balls. dear Kid, you have always pushed me to go above and beyond. you can do this. ps- your dad is a dick. dear anyone who lives in pacifica, Ca, if I give you an address, would you visit it and make someones life miserable? -doubleX

i lol'd she would be the one doing the smashing. ugh.trash that fugly bitch up top.

false. i don't eat pork. however the thought of a pig wrapped pig being on a rotisserie is amusing tpbm is familiar with B B Bubblegum

dear 12. yes..im sharing this anywhere i can because i never get to see my kid dance anymore. she is bout to finish up her freshman year in college. she is one of these 4 . https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=brFJ7QZukaI love love sm

dont know why im struggling with this list. took a thousand or so pics over the the last 5 days. only a handful were for this. =/

wow im touched by the amount of sincere support going on in here. im too coward to post about my demons, but reading for the last hour (plus) has been worth it. Lugr..hope youre doing ok. POZ, fat ralphy, morton, shai, omg, sayword-all have good stuff to say, i appreciate the words, even though they are not directed at me...but they still strike a chord. wish you guys the best of luck and love to see the counting posts.

true. tpbm wont hit a woman, but will shake the shit out of a bitch

thank you . like anything i assume we all do, we think we're good, until great knocks at our door and introduces us to amazing..etc etc... im kinds glad most of mine got wiped out with the 12pocolypse. when i find camera advice thread where i was reaching out for help regarding headshots i wanted to take for my kids college applications, i will post those pics in there.. thank you again. i see people have a trademark style of taking pics.. yours is a soft, calm picture. i love mercers night shots. and a few other users I cant think off the top right now. love to see em all. Who was it that went down to panama or something and captured such great story telling people shots.

true. the interwebs. no ocean. im scared the person below me will tell us their fear

oh wow. those shoes are awesome

true tpbm has an animal in their home different from a dog or a cat

false. havent seen one, but whatever was in those bags was definitely dead. (smdoublexl isnt a he..maybe thats why she repeats it in her head) it is a really awkward name though. tpbm really thought i was a male eidt. true. but it wasnt a whole body. 16 yr old on bike vs 18 wheeler about 5 minutes post collision

apply where?

haha false. was outside today and had to take off my hoodie because it got warm tpbm thinks its awkward to say MR BIG DICK...but it still runs on repeat in their head when they say his name

true/ false. I keep a container full of change. its an empty Williams Sonoma Hot chocolate tin. up with the the other food. tpbm refuses to go to a coinstar machine because of the percentage it takes off the top

ive tried people again. in situations where lighting is a challenge (my kid's graduation.) i think im just proud and all photos are good at that moment. haha only school with live music. wanted to note the song choice. ( blurring out name probably takes away from this pic, but imo was one of those pictures that i was pleasantly surprised how it came out. one try, no edit.) moving back to vegas from phoenix in November, I just took my time and tried to focus. (in my head I will NEVER make that trip again, so i wanted to take it in) rode bus today. ive learned that when you sit in the back, no one else wants to come within 3 or more rows from you. especially when you have your feet up end ramble.