seeking Posted February 7, 2008 Author Share Posted February 7, 2008 im getting confused and i dont even know what to post in my own thread now. plus, im listening to some depressing ass music that i should not be fucking listening to. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hatetown Posted February 7, 2008 Share Posted February 7, 2008 Morrissey? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
seeking Posted February 7, 2008 Author Share Posted February 7, 2008 no dude. 'richard youngs' some shit that was (i believe) suggested to be by someone i should know way better than to be taking suggestions from. it's nights like this that im reminded why i am my own worst enemy. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AllTheWrongWords Posted February 7, 2008 Share Posted February 7, 2008 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hatetown Posted February 7, 2008 Share Posted February 7, 2008 haha. I've never actually listened to Morrissey until some chick told me to listen to him. I think I instantly became depressed after the first minute went by. Cheer up mate. Life could be a lot worse. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
seeking Posted February 7, 2008 Author Share Posted February 7, 2008 oh, im not even depressed. this wasnt really a depressed thread, it was a 'im fucked up, this is whats going on in my head' thread. my life is actually at a huge turning point, that hopefully should bring about great things. then again, who knows. or rather, who cares. again, 'ride or die'. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
De sign Posted February 7, 2008 Share Posted February 7, 2008 yea true. listen to some oontz mang. i recomend for a grin. I FUCK YOUR MUMMA EHH? PUTA MADRE! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fylky64mXJA BRAINCRACKIN! (leet bass) COLORS http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=95nFRlwA-TY the first two make me grin. (MAKE THE SOUNDS LOUD AND HAVE A SUBWOOFER) otherwise it just no full effect. cheer up ya goose. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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seeking Posted February 7, 2008 Author Share Posted February 7, 2008 i will not be listening to any onntz. im listening to adela diane. some old folk sounding stuff. supposedly its about pirates or something. i dont know. i need more pills so i can not be awake anymore. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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seeking Posted February 7, 2008 Author Share Posted February 7, 2008 that was relaxing i suppose, but its not helping. one thing i find odd about mixng pills and booze, is that they somewhat seem to cancel eachother out in a social sort of context. like, i can talk and use punctuation and even spell as i usually would, but my thought process is kind of awry. then again, it probably always is. forget it. hesh is a faggot for not being awake. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
De sign Posted February 7, 2008 Share Posted February 7, 2008 god. your such a uni student. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AllTheWrongWords Posted February 7, 2008 Share Posted February 7, 2008 Go read a book. Better yet, just go ahead and read the bible. Unbiasedly. Itll either help or put you to sleep. Both of which you need. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
seeking Posted February 7, 2008 Author Share Posted February 7, 2008 uni student? what does that mean? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
De sign Posted February 7, 2008 Share Posted February 7, 2008 exactly that b. SYKE! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poesia [ ] T Posted February 7, 2008 Share Posted February 7, 2008 This thread is weird cause people are trying to relate and they cant. I went to the book store and was reading a shitload of magazines and was reading a article on this guy Jordan Belfort. There is a line in the article where he talks about how there are 4 phases of him taking the pills "That was the fourth phase of a Quaalude high and, perhaps, the most dangerous: the amnesia phase. The first phase was the tingle phase, next came the slur phase, then the drool phase, and then, of course, the amnesia phase.". Its actually a good article. just remnded me of this thread. Seeks drink some tea's and meditate to music. Its funny i just put the ipod on when i go to sleep now and i dont really fall asleep until the end of the album but it actually brings me down and lets me rest. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
seeking Posted February 7, 2008 Author Share Posted February 7, 2008 de sign, if you're trying to insult me, it won't really work. not only do i not care, but i also win at everything. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
seeking Posted February 7, 2008 Author Share Posted February 7, 2008 this thread is weird, because i dont even know what im trying to get out of it. its a totally random mish-mash of seemingly benign and pointless little revelations, but underneath, theres something else... its not rally about not being able to sleep, although thats obviously a problem, its more about apathy i think. or experience. or maybe trying to escape from experience. or maybe its just talking too much. in my head, things are all something though. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
count chocula Posted February 7, 2008 Share Posted February 7, 2008 century gothic is dope Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shitting Posted February 7, 2008 Share Posted February 7, 2008 T;6075707']This thread is weird cause people are trying to relate and they cant. I went to the book store and was reading a shitload of magazines and was reading a article on this guy Jordan Belfort. There is a line in the article where he talks about how there are 4 phases of him taking the pills "That was the fourth phase of a Quaalude high and, perhaps, the most dangerous: the amnesia phase. The first phase was the tingle phase, next came the slur phase, then the drool phase, and then, of course, the amnesia phase.".. That's just the process of getting wasted, i experience all of those phrases when i'm drinking beers. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
seeking Posted February 7, 2008 Author Share Posted February 7, 2008 ok, i just finished my beer, and dont feet like going to the fridge to get another one. it's been real yall. hold it down. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poesia [ ] T Posted February 7, 2008 Share Posted February 7, 2008 Aren't all those things that make up Anxiety? I have no experience, but i hear it is the thoughts that snowball into the attack. Apathy is a bad thing sometimes when mixed with pills and restless thoughts. Not in a harmful way but in the way that nothing good can come out of it. albums currently on sleep rotation The fountain soundtrack There will be Blood soundtrack Autechre Quaristice Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
seeking Posted February 7, 2008 Author Share Posted February 7, 2008 my thoughts dont make up my anxiety, they just sort of exist along with it. nothing good can come from most things it seems. i aim to fuck everything up, and have fun while doing so. that seems to work out better for me. atleast you know ahead of time what youll end up with. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poesia [ ] T Posted February 7, 2008 Share Posted February 7, 2008 Word. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
soupBDC Posted February 7, 2008 Share Posted February 7, 2008 this thread is weird, because i dont even know what im trying to get out of it. Uh, entertainment? Because you're bored? Because you're up every fucking night doing the exact same shit over and over because when you're tired you're lazy so you tend to just look for cheap entertainment regardless how tired this internet shit is? Oh wait that's me. I think the moral of this thread is winter sucks. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
the dark horse Posted February 7, 2008 Share Posted February 7, 2008 i didnt read all these responses ... but fuck a pill son! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
the dark horse Posted February 7, 2008 Share Posted February 7, 2008 (not fronting like i never did a line of OC before, but seriously though....) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
blood fart Posted February 7, 2008 Share Posted February 7, 2008 I am pretty into xanax and Sparks. I am pretty into xanax, peroid. It makes me feel regular in the head. I mix it with Sparks so I can feel magical in the head. People say I drink too much. People say I am a waste case. People are pretty on point with they assessment of me. I used to get prescribed xanax and klonpin to help me with being scared of society and scared of the dark. My Dr. learned that I don't have self control and tend to abuse any substance that is within my reach. I got cut off. So it goes. I'm still scared of society and the dark. It's not radical at all. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bodice_ripper Posted February 7, 2008 Share Posted February 7, 2008 having said all of that, hev, i appreciate the concern, but i'm a 'ride or die' type of nigga (minues the nigga part, but you know what i mean). i'm doing just fine...save for the obvious substance abuse problem, inability to sleep, tendency to obsess (as well as compulse), bad life choices, inability to let go, grow up, move on, or any number of other social ailments. despite all that though, im a pretty solid bro, so we good. I relate. Further, it drives me mad when everyones' response is a variation on "chillax". If I could walk that way... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GLIK$ Posted February 7, 2008 Share Posted February 7, 2008 seeks, dont listen to hev. He seems to think that I have an anger issue and I'm on a path to get shot. pffft we all know the K-I-D is bulletproof. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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