dude doesn't get it. Alcoholics by nature can't do moderation. I recently posted that if i can limit myself to so and so drinks, i'll be ok, and keep it in control. It can happen, I've done it before, and there is a realistic hope in that I believe. Most times that's when I'm with friends or whatever. I just got home from bar-hopping tonight. When I'm alone, it's a different story, cause there's nothing to keep me from wanting something more. A lot has to do with trying to want to meet girls at the bar. I always want to do that, and the girls I end up meeting are terrible, and it's just depressing. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.