you are a chef, so i know you love to eat and enjoy food more than most. imagine how fucking annoying and restrictive being diabetic at a young age would be for you, and maybe your career? in a way you are lucky, because your body is actually telling you directly just how irresponsible you are being and what is going to happen if you dont change course. you no longer have the privilege of entertaining the addicts fantasy of 'maybe I will be okay' . heed the flashing lights before you run headfirst into certain disaster. good luck