Lately I've been tryna keep myself in control. I can be annoying as shit when i'm drunk, pissed off too many friends, and I'm getting too old to be putting that burden on people. I remember walking by handstyles i don't remember happening. Been to AA, but don't really find it to be that helpful. If I can stick to weekends and occasional happy hours i think i'll be ok if i can stop after 4 or 5 max. I should be lucky to be alive considering things that have happened, like running across busy highways to go to the next bar. Problem is when you're an adult it seems social activities in large revolve around drinking. I'm a people person, and i like to party or chill and drink. it will always be a struggle, always. Just gotta keep myself aware and in check. Good luck to all of you oontzers dealing with the troubles and hardships with alcoholism.