Everyone thinks about it. The past year, up until recently, I was just shitty as fuck. It ruined a lot of friendships and a good relationship. blahblah. I still think about it from time to time, because I theoritically think "if this happened and this happened it would be enough for me to jump in front of a train." I don't know. Fighting through shit does make you a stronger, more educated, and better person, but sometimes certain things can occur that aren't even worth fighting through because it won't make anything better.