Mauler5150

Also if the powers that be could grant me VIP status as an "18th birthday gift" as I reach adult age as board member here so I can post more pics it would be great. I'm going to my Mum's place today to get my last 12oz stickers and it would be good to flick them once I find the appropriate place to put them up (I have 2 great locations in mind but I want to find the best spot in each location for them) I also will be looking to get some more oontz swag and stickers once my financial position mandates as such. Apologies for the text in a pics thread but wonk saggin.

Question. I notice you post a tonne of pics to this thread and I would love to continue to do so, but as I'm out of storage on here I don't know where the best place is to upload to and link from. Is this because VIP members get more storage on here or did I screw up by using my iPhone 14 Pro Max which takes pics with massive file sizes?

I spent about 35 minutes writing the above post whilst I tried to talk myself back to the Genesis of exactly how I ended up here, and I think I was actually linked from a guitar forum I was a member of which started a similar Myspace thread to the one here and he said "if you like thread, look at this one (on 12oz) here". I did, and here I am nearly 18 years later. And FWIW, the fact I can't recall what guitar forum it was says all one needs to know about this place and its members. Danke mistraven for this thread which details how this place was born of passion, and I hope that I can continue to hold onto my own appreciation of art and my passion for it to remain priceless to Me if only as my way of saying thanks to him for making this place my favourite place to be on the internet.

Fate I think. Myspace is somehow linked to how I found this place, specifically Channel Zero and the Myspace thread, and after reading a few pages and seeing the comedy in that specific thread from Mero and others made me sign up so that I could post the Jeffrey Star types and hot women I found whilst using Myspace at the dawn of social media prior to Facebook moving from uni/college only people like I myself was at the time. And honestly, whilst I had a graffiti phase as a pre-teen kid, once I realised what this forum was actually about my respect for the members here only grew because I was (and believe I still am) a "toy" especially compared to how incredible some of the artists are who have contributed on here. I won't lie that as someone who only had a small phase of this scene (before I left it behind to focus on surfing as my interest - as I'm someone who would put all their focus and energy into learning whatever I could about something that interested Me from when I was a kid - perhaps a symptom of the pre-internet age when to learn about something it required more effort than making a few keystrokes or screen swipes, that this forum was one where I was somewhat intimidated by as a 20 something year old with around 10 years on the internet and forums by that time. That was a good thing though, as it stopped me getting banned although I am sure @seeking was pretty close a couple of times at least. And while my venturing outside of Channel Zero has not really happened that much, it is more a credit to the misfits and the help provided by casek and seffiks in the PC help thread and tge general community here which kept me around. And I met EBPH in real life thanks to this forum who helped ensure my journey to the Bay area was a memorable one which proved once again how I can successfully "make friends on the internet" if one invests the time into not only putting themselves out there but are willing to pay others the mutual respect by hearing out and reading what they have to say, share, or perhaps teach about their life such that you can experience things vicariously through them you may never experience otherwise. While this last point is perhaps me psychoanalysing my propensity to overshare my life with others on here, I am grateful to those who have pursued a field I left behind as a kid in my pursuit of forging my own personal identity which again is why I share where my path lead me to let others know that being an "artist" can mean many things outside of graffiti if they choose to leave it behind as I did, yet the people you meet through such a scene are among the greatest and most accepting people I have met, even if the gatekeepers (the mods who governed this place when it was full of all kinds of crazy) are those I respect (almost to the point of fear as I indicated above) the most.

I would ask the same but it seems Lugr answered already. I'm of a similar personality type yet I feel that having travelled and being victim of scam artists and other people who take advantage of you as soon as you appear too mellow makes it difficult to not judge people with the haste. Yet as I have gotten older I have found a happier medium if only because My judgements have proven to turn out correct whenever I have given people chances I was suspicious of only for them to have proven such suspicions were correct in their application.

Incredible thread and I joined when the forum had the traffic light look if I remember correctly. Funny that is the case.

I only just realised that my Grandmother has "Hell" in her name (Sarah Ellen). After watching that illuminati tunnel opening Satan worshipping video I posted in the nonsense thread, having the middle name Luke and being born on the 4th, I found this fact about myself and my history rather amusing.

This video is insane. Was possibly posted during my hiatus from the oontz, so if it is a repost i'm apologising in advance.

Found a backpackers to stay for a couple of nights as I try and progress towards my goals after the events described in the nonsense thread.

Well I am sleeping in my mums car whilst she works before we intend to go visit my Dad to see if he is willing to help me when she finishes. That is going to be an interesting experience since I haven't seen him in 4 years and he has ignored my previous attempts to reach out to him so that I can let him know in person that I'm grateful for the life I have lived thanks to him playing his part in creating me, and I'm far beyond the first few steps down the rabbithole into self discovery as I was when I last saw him and was pretty much dealing with drug induced psychosis as can be the case when seeking to understand higher states of consciousness and existence, only to eventually learn in comprehending the infinite you only serve to make infinity = 1 or 0 in the process, so it is a fools choice to pollute your body and mind with drugs and the characters and scene as it exists in the present incarnation. And sorry to any Sikhs I criticised in earlier posts as without their help I may not be here today to thank them. It isn't the first time my words came back to bite me, yet perhaps the positive is that if my critiques were not vocalised in this harmless form of words on a page, then perhaps I wouldn't have achieved an optimal outcome born of mutual respect and co-operation as was the case yesterday whereby I told the cop thanks as I was told if I ask for help (as I did by asking my Mother to help me) from a Sikh then they are obligated by their beliefs in God to help. Also I did my tax return and I'll see on Monday if I can get my refund fast tracked so I can get a van (or in worst case a car) so I'll at least have a place to sleep at night even if it isn't the most ideal outcome that would facilitate me capturing and creating digital and musical art using my tools which are currently sitting collecting dust.

TLDR. Treat others as you wish to be treated and you will remain "Golden" in regards to extracting the positive learnings from the most negative of circumstances. With the most Golden payoff being able to truthfully say "I did all I could to help those who refuse to help themselves". or alternately You try to break mathematics or Matthew Luke, then you break your own paradigm of reality in the process.

Well My Mum who came to get Me and My stuff out of there got to cops to ensure I could safely leave. I'll write off the money I gave him to cover any outstanding bills He feels owed for his attempt at extorting Money from Me and My Mother with the hostage type situation he had no doubt had planned for a while before he attempted to execute it (and possibly me due to his desire to use anger, rage and yelling as a means through which he could invoke fear for the means of compliance). Fact is, I did everything I could to help the guy, including taking him to a financial counsellor earlier this year so he could see how his drug habits lead to him overleveraging his debt position to where he was effectively told by the counsellor that he was going backwards "into the red" by $100 a week without my rent covering the shortfall and giving him some additional capacity to repay what he already owed. That was back in January or February or so, and in spite of him being told he cannot afford to feed his dog and two cats unless I was paying him rent, he still thought he could rage out for 3 days blaming all his self inflicted problems upon Me upon the comedown after every 3 to 5 day meth fuelled grindr sex sessions with random guys he meets on the internet. I've seen alot of shit in my day, but seeing a pantless schizo running around in his place with a full size axe in the dark or seeing a couple of 60 something year old gays buttfucking as I get up to get my breakfast were perhaps the most horrifying things that thankfully have "scared me straight" from having any desire to fall into a life of such misplaced priorities, as whilst I will never begrudge or judge anyone who chooses to have meaningless, emotionless drug fuelled sex they believe will make them happy in the moment, having seen the come down has shown me the proof of how My decision to promote celibacy and monogamy is the correct one. So anyway, it is literally the middle of winter and I spent last night trying to find somewhere to stay and ended up just walking around the city looking for a dry place to sleep. I was unsuccessful in this pursuit and I need to try and make it until Monday so I can engage the services that help people in my predicament, as it was pretty convenient for his issue to not only be raised the day after I paid rent, but it was also a Friday about 30-40 minutes after all such services closed for the weekend to ensure his attempt at leveraging his position saw me in the most compromised one possible. Thankfully the "SIK" Sikh policeman and his Aussie colleague provided me with the Joker card that not only allowed me to leave such a scene but I did so knowing that his karma will more than likely see him losing his house, his pets, and a lifetime of equity he had invested prior to the bank having already sent his debt past their collections team and sold it to a debt collection firm whose lawyers have already made contact and are in the process of taking back what they own as a result of the mortgage contract he signed. Given I am a qualified mortgage broker who has dealt with the process of debt defaults as a Banker and client, you can see how I shared my knowledge to try and ensure that we both would have a place to stay, but his selfishness and ego that sees him believing that he could retire whilst laden with debt now sees us both a victim of him trying to outsmart Me as his intellectual superior in regards to the domain of finances and the contractual and legal obligations involved. The Golden Rule has a funny way of working which is why I obey it to the greatest extent possible.

Do it man. Having written solidly over the last 6 years, even if I never read it, at least it can be used for my next cycle of the infinitely looping simulation as training data. And if you do make a start, feel free to use this thread to provide status updates.

I am currently homeless

The guy I rent a room from gave me 24 hours to get out a day after i paid my rent for the week in advance. So upon packing everything, I'm now held hostage inside the house given he has locked me inside and didn't even let me empty the rubbish bins as I was cleaning up prior to leaving. Lets see what happens.

Well it could be yet since a thread already exists for that purpose...

How do you even come across such pics in your internet travels? Incredible.

I appreciate you taking the time to read my posts, as I try to keep them as brief as possible yet find it's impossible to share the knowledge in any way that is more concise than how I have packaged it.

I might be resurrecting this thread many times going forward even if nobody else cares to post in it as I forgot to add that I want to become a helicopter pilot at some point in the future. A childhood friend has done it and I have met 2 others who have, and I remember I went up in one last year. This was a childhood dream because of this. Obviously

And to finish, I am a certified "Master of the Internetz" with wayyyyy more than 10000 hours logged reading, watching, downloading and uploading content online with all my sharing ratios being positive in both nature and quantity. Not only can this be verified from my old pirate, pre-streaming services days using torrent sites sharing ratios, but also my post history on here showing the maturing and development of an egotistical 20 something to the Zen masted middle aged Man I am now. I can confidently say this after I saw how posts I made in 2007 on here reflected my lack of life experiences and travels I made subsequent, which whilst I am still of the same mindset and possess the same core beliefs in many ways I know that 26 year old Me would love and envy the 42 year old Me. Hopefully this lets others understand that I spend my time online learning from Masters of whatever passion they pursue, and that even the trolls online have only allowed Me to become a Master troll IRL if I wish to be, yet it is not the path I choose for myself.

And I hope you take my "Policeman" reaction as being the appropriate one to be used in this instance as whenever I see myself falling into such a pattern of thinking, my internal monologue changes to the one I detail in the post above. You know I am not only trying to help others but to remind myself with such wisdom containing posts that there always exists hope of a better tomorrow if you can retain the benefits of your past trials and experiences in life whilst owning the fact that any hope of a better tomorrow depends on you having the right mental framing of the present moment and whatever challenges you face have solutions. FWIW, I will never retire from being able to catch up with people from my past only to share an infinite number of crazy and impossible stories from My life well lived while they chose a safe path of compliance and complacency that sees them devoid of much to speak of beyond the usual "work, spouse, kids" default conversational topics that are truly equivalent to living NPCs. As such, unless one becomes a Master and invests 10000 hours into growing at least a base awareness of themselves and the subjects which interest them beyond these default subjects, then do they truly know who they are, or are able to teach kids such that humanity will evolve over time? This last part is more food for thought than to digress from the subject of the OP and is the result of my Economics "Opportunity cost" analysis way of thinking whereby I can truthfully state I am glad my life has seen me develop many passions as opposed to being focused on any one singular one to where I am able to converse with the widest spectrum of people possible. In thinking deeper about this last point, I would advise everyone on this board and in life to become a lover of music and at least develop some awareness of how difficult it is to learn and persist in playing an instrument, as not only is music the one unifying language every human can relate to, but can be freely made, enjoyed, and most importantly, it can be shared with an audience. And as music is infinite in nature, you are never lost for conversation when you meet other musicians, be it online or in reality.

Best to not think about such things. You are where you are because that is where you are supposed to be at this moment such that going forward you can become the greatest version of yourself. Or at the very least you become more aware of how much better your situation is than the one others have manifested themselves, or that you are able to avoid finding yourself in a similar predicament to theirs by doing the same thing as they do. I think I got a lot of these lessons by going out on the town with my 40 year old dad and his other 40 and 50 year old friends when I was 19. These were all successful businessmen, who had a range of kids, divorces, and other life experiences only gained through living life itself whilst being beneficiaries of being in the "Boomer" category such saw any investments made at least double in their life by that point in time (6-8x at least by now, especially in property). it also probably helps me that I have no kids and have pretty spent the last the majority of the last 6 years out of the workforce in a midlife retirement of sorts, where I not only got to spend time with my aging Mother, but I got to see how "the other side" of humanity (read as miserable, drug addicted junkies whose lives are so sad and full of delusions that rather than about their use of drugs is to escape the sad state of the existence their choices has resulted in, they try and externalise the blame onto others) lives. The fact that I have sacrificed over a half million dollars of income in this process, yet at the same time have not only survived, but am free of debts and any obligation to anyone but myself and my family to enjoy the fact that I not only exist, but could die at any moment knowing i will die a happy man free of regrets and aware that I not only lived my dreams as my reality, but that I did it because I refused to accept that thinking I could live with the "I wish I did this instead" aka the "Coulda, shoulda, woulda" thoughts plaguing my mind. I can also thank my friend Gavin, who gave himself a shotgun blast to his own dome at 21, for showing me a path I could take, however I refuse to ever do so given that I find life itself only becomes better with time. Especially when you see others for whom such an option would be preferable to the weight of guilt, remorse, regrets and awareness of how they have fucked others over during the entire duration of their lives leaves them as a withering, sad, decrepit, and bitter individual whose existence is comprised of nothing but the hatred they harbour towards themselves which they express outwardly onto others, especially people like Me who love themselves and have made peace with all their internal demons. This only gives me more reason and fuel to be happy and live a long life achieving the goals I stated above, if only to spite them and upon meeting them on the other side of Death seeing me able to flip them a double middle finger and say "Haha, I told you so you stupid fucking retard!". Now I hope you get the "Golden Rule" lesson contained in this post, as if we both have an Angel and Demon on each shoulder, be like Me and choose to make them both your bitches as you have them compete to see which one can give you the best life possible. Also, over my time of intermittently working, I gained new skills and qualifications I never would have gotten had I just continued on the path I was on, and not only am I a better, more empathetic person for it, but I am a better Manager, Leader, Director, Sage, Prophet, Shaman, Spiritual Guide, Artist, Comedian, Lover, Husband, Brother, Son and friend as well. So whatever happens next for Me, trust Me when I say I will continue to hold others accountable for the truthful nature of the reality they have constructed for themselves and bring into my perceptual domain whilst I hold them accountable to themselves in the process. As if there is one thing I will prove over a period of 10000 hours of whoever pays attention to the Golden Rule I learned as my first human memory as a 2 year old kid, there is nothing more satisfying than using one's ego against themselves by being the mirror which reveals the past incarnation of Myself I let go of (the one who shoulders "regrets etc") and the paths I could have taken My future self. As Jorn Lande sings "Lonely are the Brave", yet I will add that only the brave will ever be free.

laying in bed listening to the rain, before I get up to go do my tax return this afternoon.

This show is epic. The greatest part is when he gets issued a legit Death Certificate in India in spite of still being alive. If you ever want to go about becoming a Zombie whilst collecting a sweet travel insurance cheque, now you know how and where to go. I would definitely recommend watching this show to anyone who seeks to travel to the cities featured on it, as you can avoid the taxi scams and other tourist traps that I have fallen for during different trips I made to various places.

Can confirm that swooping magpies are actually scary af. I was getting swooped by some after playing basketball at my old high school years ago one weekend. I was a doubter until it happened to me, and thankfully I survived somehow to tell the tale.