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International Overdose Day today. Pour out a lemonade for those lost to the disease. RIP to so many.

 

Stay up y'all hope you're all doing well today.

 

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Bumping this back up since it's been a while. Definitely RIP to POZ and Swords. Never met the former in real life but the latter was the homie. Just makes it sink in how real this shit actually is, it's all fun and games at first before addiction sets in.

 

Glad to see the updates on here though regardless, props to those of you who are still sober and much love to everyone who is still fighting and attempting.

The last time I posted here I was still using heroin and on methadone. I can proudly say now that I have been off both for a little over 2 years. Longest I've gone without doing drugs since I started doing drugs, definitely the longest I've been off heroin. Funny thing is, I have no desire to use anymore. Sure, I think about it some days, but it's not worth throwing away everything I've accumulated since I stopped using.

 

I will say though I'm not sober by NA/AA standards as I still drink, usually once or twice a week. I can't smoke weed anymore, for whatever reason the past like 5 times I tried, it just gave me panic attacks, so I said fuck it. I never really enjoyed it all that much anyways, it would always make me second guess everything I said.

 

I've been working, working out, that's about it. One thing I wanted to bring up was how I don't feel like I belong to the "normal" society. Like... I don't know how to really put it, kind of a strange feeling. I feel more at home with the addicts, the degenerates, whatever. Working a normal job and trying to meet healthy friends has proven tough, especially since I moved 1000 miles away. I was always good at finding other addicts, but when I meet new people (potential romantic interests especially) I just feel out of place. It doesn't help that dropping the, "I used to be a heroin addict" line on a girl I'm into is a huge bomb in itself. Anybody have thoughts or advice?

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Still think of this thread often. I'll be two years clean and sober next week and the things poz said you here gave me hope back then

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Congrats Pro

I've cut back my alcoholic consumption loads. Think in the last 2 weeks I've maybe drank once. Did have a slip after payday last month and got wasted.

Luckily I'm broke so no chance of drinking and am almost out of weed.

Been getting really bad insomnia but off to get some sleeping pills from the doc

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Keep it moving, Decy. Be responsible with those sleeping pills yo, those things just gave me a way of getting more fucked up off of less drinks.

 

That's just me thiugh!

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It's cool the doc only gave me 7 zopiclone 7.5mg

They don't tend to like to give me many drugs with my history of addiction

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The best way (for me) to deal with insomnia is exercise, the evening after a hard swim I sleep through no problem. Failing that if I am looking for a aid I take benedryl, although I have heard that does not work for everyone.

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The best way (for me) to deal with insomnia is exercise, the evening after a hard swim I sleep through no problem. Failing that if I am looking for a aid I take benedryl, although I have heard that does not work for everyone.

 

Definitely. I've had insomnia problems for yeeeeears, but never put two and two together. I'd take diphenhydramine, try to drink myself to sleep, melatonin, etc. Some of it worked in the beginning but would always fail out after a few weeks. Started exercising, and that took care of it. Even exercising for 40 minutes or so is enough to knock me out that night.

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i gave up alcohol for lent. I'm not religious, but spiritual. it was more of a self imposed test to see how big a deal alcohol is to me. Its more of an issue than previously perceived, as cravings are real af and falling asleep is/was somewhat a struggle. On the bright side, dropping pounds from my gut.

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Been 100% clean no weed no alcy since Valentine’s Day .

 

definitely noticed issues with my sleeping patterns the first month , I had insomnia most nights but when I was finally able to get some shut eye I would have ridiculously vivid dreams . .

 

 

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Been cutting back significantly. Haven't blacked out in a long time. 

Age has made my hangovers too costly. 

Still have a beer or two on occasion but if I go over that the urge to continue drinking increases exponentially. 

 

Getting better at controlling and noticing when I am going to go into a depressive cycle. Still smoking weed in small amounts to keep me from doing anything stupid. Did that exclusively for awhile but my social life was withering. Trying to get more social without using the drink as a crutch . 

 

Pro been a big inspiration dawg seen the major come up like a new man

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After not drinking as much, having even 2 beers makes my anxiety skyrocket the next day.

is this normal?

 

Big Ups to yall sober people 

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My family has been ruined by alcoholism before

 

nothing but respect to you guys who stay sober

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On 2/15/2018 at 8:20 AM, Kalashnikov said:

 

Definitely. I've had insomnia problems for yeeeeears, but never put two and two together. I'd take diphenhydramine, try to drink myself to sleep, melatonin, etc. Some of it worked in the beginning but would always fail out after a few weeks. Started exercising, and that took care of it. Even exercising for 40 minutes or so is enough to knock me out that night.

Damn, this hits too close to home. Maybe I need to get better about the exercise thing. Almost to a year sober myself. One thing at a time, I suppose.

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