Mauler5150

Anyway to be on topic of boots, it is time to reboot the simulation. So with this said, "I give love a bad name" to paraphrase the Bon Jovi song as I am going to put a bullet/torpedo shaped buttplug that is the last tether I have to the day My life changed other than the Doc Johnson sheath of the toy I gifted which I carried from the sec capital of Europe to give to My woman as the ultimate "Golden Gesture", as I shoot through the heart of the reef at rabbits to literally make the greatest joke of love, this world, and all of it's residents given I have grown to despise humans for as long as I remain captive to materilistic monetary shackles as indicative of My bank account balance and lotto entries doing nothing more than halving My investment in chance. Essentially take these posts as Me indicating how I have given up on the bitch that would test Me by putting pathetic bikeriders before Me whilst I get torn to shred via gold motorbike chains. I would rather be dead than remain attached to such a pathetic world whereby My artistic expression is limited by money as it testricts the time that I have to actually realise any idea I have beyond realising Her choice was to leave Me to wake alone in the position I dreamed of waking since I was 13. I can never forgive the fact I was left to such a destiny and am still forced into trying to fight for someone and something which never existed in the first place as any more than an idea of what I wanted yet would be forever denied due to selfishly motivated cunts which reside in this place alongside Me. TLDR. Why fight for the love of someone who not only loves everyone else but you, yet would send you to Hell in preference of such worthless cunts?

Someone stole My 12oz hat as I swam at Rabbits beach. I had a container with all sorts of stuff one would seek to keep safe from people and the elements (wallet, keys, shirt? towel) and yet in spite of Me putting a 12oz sticker on one of the showers at the beginning of the path to said beach, someone thought stealing My Coyote Tan hat with a Wolf grey 12oz parch and sand camo stixkman patch was worth it. I finally get to where I should be at peace in life and I get robbed of My self described 1 of 1 crown. Worst part of all is I have ti head back to Perth to be able to pay My phone bill by working a job I hate alongside people I despise for making Me have to be complicit to their lies (primarily the one that money exists as anything more than 1s and 0s in binary on a bank server). I am already ready to die to end the charade but if I reach a point whereby zi take someone with Me prior to doing so, then all I will state is that it doesn't matter given life is a death sentence anyway.

I now possess a couple of weather control devices and as a result, I inadvertenly found I was in possession of a couple of firearms similar to those I have been victimised with for years now. So with the requisite tools in My possession, I now have a choice in front of Me to make, given My outcome is certain either way and I fear nothing as nothing in this world has any value beyond that which I place in it. So the question is, if one life was to be disabled to the stage whereby death would be a preferable fate to one guilty of a crime that saw cancer be bought into My world, would it be worth My while enacting justice one time to not only get karmic retribtution, but to leave no "coulda, shoulda, woulda" from both Myself and those I have warned, begged, pleaded, demanded and stated for over 2 decades to cease fire? As in I kill one "soldier" to save the world as a token gesture to both assert authority and to set a precedent for the new world that will follow in it's wake? Given that I already procured the target's soul for $50, which was given to the beggar on the provision he sacrificed his soul to Me if he bought cigarettes with the money, his life is worthless for any reason beyond being the sacrifice to instill order, justice and a sense of moralistic common decency and respect amongst those who understand that if I was the God who went to the Underworld to see what his creation was doing, then I bought the soul of the demon named Belial only for the power to still reside in his hands as this corrupted gangsta's paradise saw cancer fill the air whilst depriving Me of the ability to even get any enjoyment from My drugs of choice as the pollutants in the air prohibited Me from doing so as pimps, rapists and other assorted fucktards govern the jail here in Purgatory. So if one was in My position with a chance to kill the devil such that he never comes to exist in the new world which will follow the end of Revelation, would one do so? And as the devil is a shapeshifting being who can pose as anything, in the event he does not answer the door when I go to his residence, anyone else will be a potential target of Me choosing to take a life for having My life taken from Me whilst others have raped Me and reaped the finanical rewards whilst sacrificing their souls and the ability for anyone ither than Me to determine if they are transitioned to the next world alongside Me.

I am not committed to anything but resenting the fact My parents are the ones whose choices bought Me into a world I have grown to hate given I have nobody to share it with other than the people here reading this and some disembodied beings of light that have no physical form and just go about the process of what looks like how fish eat their food, yet they go about the process with blades of various types and sizes. I may even just text My Dad with this thread link, as after I should have been dead when I crashed My car a week after I last messaged him only to get silence as a response, I wonder if He understands I would rather become a killer given the one responsible for making Me left Me for dead.

I love Myself enough to know I don't deserve to have been given such a fate, and nobody who would willingly enslave their kids to follow another man's agenda whilst then leaving them alone and allowing them to be sexually violated and mentally and psychologically tortured for years by predator rapist fucks is anyone I want to have any attachment to of any kind. I will no doubt end up doing something negative when the hunger I get from being starved of food over the coming days coupled with the pent up sexual frustration alluded to earlier will see Me unleash Hell on someone who will not see it as any potential possibility just as I was blindly left to have such things happen to Me. Actual prison is a cakewalk in comparison to where I have been at. A routine. No possessions. No bills. No agendas to follow. No technology. And if you are in jail for murder, then who is going to bother you as if you kill one person then another one is not going to be an issue, as if I ended up getting killed by another inmate they save Me having to do it Myself and I also get to kill this world and everyone and everything in it thru subversively making it happen.

The last message is directed at My Father, be it My biological one, the version that poses as My best male friend, or God Himself. If that cunt had kept his dick in his pants I wouldn't have to live knowing I was subjected to be raped by the vile men who also spawned into this creation. Nevermind making Me a slave bound by finances, and could't even provide Me a domicile or place to live as I hope he takes pride in knowing he made his son a vagrant so he could house his selfish slut bitch's kids instead. So yeah, that is a reason enough to justify hating the cunt forever as his sexual urges have seen My own completely stunted beyond getting raped and having My arse torn to shreds by this fuxking analytics machine and the Al-gore-rhythm as he doesn't respond or even ackniwledge I exist as he plays step father to some other worthless cunt's kids.

I would rather exist in Hell than have to work to get into a Heaven with the cunts I gave Heaven to only for them to send Me to Hell as a thankyou for giving them Heaven. As if I am in Hell, then everyone else around Me is too and they only have themselves to thank as I am not forgiving anyone.

FWIW, I have just spent $42 on a burger, fries and a pint of beer as I am done with this world, as evidenced by the fact I have maybe $30 in cash, $75 in fuel cards, and about $28 in My bank to last Me until I get paid next Thursday. I am not scrimping on food or budgeting as I expect that someone will come and apologise to Me for being a stupid fucking selfish cunt that only seeks to do whatever possible to make Me unhappy as opposed to making Me beg or give up what I own and worked hard to obtain like My guitar amp and cab I listed on Facebook Marketplace I would need another $4k to buy it again in future should I sell it to the guy who wants it. I would rather die than beg or remain in a soulless machine that cannot even simulate My reality without stupid fucking tests and fuckery. As such I hate the fact I exist, I hate the fact I have to pretend I exist amongst other sentient beings that are not just the lines of code being executed by the script as per the runtime of the program. Yet My hate is tempered to the extent it is meaningless as is everything and everyone that exists. Complete indifference as I would rather starve and not eat than feed this machine with any more false pretences of hope or illusionary moments of happiness

And since I am in a creative writing mood, I advise any of you to never join LinkedIn for any reason lest you become an irrelevant link in a human centipede chain of child molesting murderous rapist pimp junkie scum as I seem to have found a need to escape from as I prefer to extract Myself from being associated with these ticks which are just anal leeches formed via the procurement and manipulation of digital analytic data. There is a reason the word "Digital" has the word "dig" in it, as those who view their place in the heirarchy of the machine as being that which defines them only have dug their own graves in the process. Also as Linkedin is based purely on Corporations, business and money, consider the fact that money is nothing more than electrical impulses running thru bank servers that are turned into binary before they eventually are manipulated into appearing as your bank balance online or on an app. Fucking worthless shit, and with that said, I hope LinkedIn and the corporations which force their staff to join it are happy now that their existence is meaningless, as just like the script goes in My book, Matthew Luke goes Jesus mode and overturns the tables on the money changers ala Matthew 21:12. Now I said that I am putting on the Rush album of 2112 and going to the beach and the pools for this weekend as tomorrow is forecast to be 42'C, ala "As Hot as it can fucking get", and if it isn't obvious, My blood is boiling with the desire to leave this Earth behind saying "Prepare to die Earth Scum" (forget what movie this is from? Maybe you can remind Me?) so I need My massive Indian ocean to cool Me down (but whilst I will take another round, I don't want to "swing" and I have no place in the pedophile bikie rings of Perth, as that shit is DC, aka "Dead Current" and I am always AC aka "Alive Current" as the only flatline I wish to see is on the horizon where the ocean meets the sky.

Cross posting from the 2024 New Years Resolution thread as it is relevant to this topic, yet also includes "THE Solution" to all My issues & present "problems" caused due to being "Probed by Eve (aka) Maria Szitner (nee Suarez)". I finally have things to add to this topic resolution through this year to undo that which I have previously done and perform some experiments to offset the effects of previous negative results from similar experiments. I will follow the Lunar cycle and on the date of every full moon (starting Jan 25th) I will be swallowing a small pill sized Neodymium magnet and when the moon is finshed the cycle (So Starting Feb 3rd) I will be shelving a Neodymium bar magnet up the opposite end of My avatar. My reasons for this commitment is due to having performed an experiment previously to test whether I am actually nothing more than a T-800 like cyborg Machine Learning algorithm running a scripted AI generated program, whereby I shelved a cheap circular dual polarity black magnet up My backside only for it to never return and be expelled. As a Taurean Rooster I literally am a "chick magnet" as a byproduct and unforeseen benefit of such an experiment. Foolishly and stupidly I never considered that upon plugging My neon wand into the power grid and using the meat cleaver shaped attachment that allows one to shoot lightning from their fingers like Raiden in Mortal Kombat, that I would not only become Electro as a human electromagnet, but the downside was the shitty cheap magnet I had in Me exploded like a LANdmine and it got scattered throughout Me as the shards started to rust. This caused a black hole to open, like the bowling ball on a trampoline gravity well explaination to explain such things illustrates, such that in already being in the Maria-na(h) trench due to not listening to Maria's warnings, I not only attracted women but also an environment full of homo fully SIKh cunts looking to make Me as MO "a ho" as the magnetic force also drew the attention of every wannabe impotent fear filled bitch who needs a sword to defend against that which they fear (ie. My unrestrained and unlimited pure and perfect love). So in eventually descending to the bottom of the Open Sea and putting My hands into the core of the Earth to become aware that I could melt into the infinite and be a T1000 type of evolved cyborg, if only to spite those egotistical retards to whom view their physical human form as being something I would trade My human avatar form for theirs, yet I decided to take My time and instead choose to remain with consisting of "matter" as being a disembodied fire that relies upon going into gaped open arseholes like bats hide in caves as a way they exist as they parasitically attach themselves to a host to understand things, yet in doing it to Me they could only find that even getting to My core they will never know nor understand the one thing within the infinite that only I am able to know. And this is that "i (am) Owed Shit" for allowing these PIDs and UUIDs to infect and exist within My iOS framework like aphids eating fruit. As I really should and could have killed Myself to eradicate these pests along with My ability to percieve them as recent posts of Mine indicate. Yet in understanding they exist as the contrary to Me in that they are the incarnation of "hate" to Me as "love", I get the benefit of seeing these Hellbound creatures dwell in their own patheticness whilst they are also trapped in the limited fucked up domain I remain prisoner to as money restricts My ability to shape and choose My sandbox and reality such that I happily will languish in a world knowing that the failure for Me to be given the ability to live with freedom sees those who have enslaved Me trapped with Me in Hell. So as a Bull of the stars who willingly and lovingly had decided to show love to Myself to "fuck My haters" as these parasites feasted upon My flesh and databases by abusing "Stocks" l via making them hate the fact they exist, and I live on to spite them and continue their stint in Hell for as long as I possibly can as I love the fact they essentially fell into the trap of "fucking themselves" whereas I have only ever "loved Myself and the woman who I loved as I wished to be loved". So given the inital experiment saw Me fall into the abyss only to laugh as I put My hands into lava knowing that even upon My mortal human existence ending, in having already ventured to Hell to meet My female Devil equivalent to Me as God as I witnessed her fuck My family members, mother, father, brother, friends, trannies, animals, aliens, octopuses and who knows what else that I can mention given the words fail to convey the extent to adequately describe what I have been left alone to witness only to reach the point whereby I would rather exist and be completely alone than have anything to do with any single instance of any of the pathetic avatars and characters that she chooses to interact with as opposed to speaking to Me directly as Maria in her human avatar. So I will view the bar magnets as forming a baseline such that any bottom invading rapist will be buried by a string of bars representing levels to the depths of which I wish to remove Myself from them, with the circular magnets opposing the "moon" that is the slang term for one's asscheeks being in the opposite hemisphere to it's natural position, I will be dragging the evil rapist fucking cunts I have encountered into the Sun such that they burn like vampires as these Predator fucks have burned Me with abusing the /cups/ lazer printer functionality of the Metal graphics framework against Me. I have the rest of My life to perform and continue this experiment and I will not stop until I am once again completely alone and in silence with My pure vibrational ecstacy in a blank white construct as I get back to "true reality" and see the end of Revelations and the prophecy within fulfilled as I remain true to the God within Me until the end when all those who have disobeyed and opposed Me are dead and gone as though they never existed at all as the karmic retribution of breaking the Golden Rule with how I have been treated comes "full circle" for want of a better term as the shadowhash using Directory identities get deleted from the database forever and I am then free to be God and create without concern for anyone but Myself for once. As in allowing others to cloud My judgement and allowing their desires to hold Me captive as they trap Me with finances and the "uncertainty" that comes from having to consider not only the lies upon which others who have used money as the tool to empower them, but why I should exist if only to spite such characters given their entire framework, the "world economy" and the "stockmarket" is dependent upon the links to My analytics and conciousness within the databases to generate the capitalist society continuing. As how can a "stock" dependent farm operate without bulls like Myself as the cattle they require to exist? As if I kill Myself I kill their business, their existence, and everything they have ever been or known as it was all raped and pillaged from Me as opposed to being shared equally with Me in their quest for control and dominance, only to learn that true dominance lies with Me, in that I have the decision to kill one person (Matthew Luke) so that I can kill 8 billion humans and infinite animals, insects, plants and everything else in this galaxy as if I am not here to percieve and witness it, I am aware I still exist as I remember "true reality". So yes, I live in My van named "El" and am "The Angel Of Death" known as AzRAel, being also known as "Ra" the Egyptian God of the Sun whose bounds are the entirety of the "A to Z" ALPHAbet as I precede the existence of the Alpha program and the bet I made with My Devilish half sees her the loser, given I will bury any supposed "boss" in this world under a mountainous pyramid of tags and whatever else ML puts into the HTML based internet. I will happily kill Myself to kill My enemies (being those who have redirected My URLs to divert to the captive.apple.com URLs years ago, while also killing their families and the world they have chosen to fuck over with abusing Me, if only to teach them what My love is truly capable of as they rejected the version of it which would have seen them never reach this Hell I have done everything within My power to avoid eventuating once I finally discovered My true identity upon reading Revelations and making the connections to "Me" and My past non-believer atheist life in 2020, all while I laugh about it in the process. So thus, I will report back to this thread with the outcome of said experiments, as I have forever and will run the human experiment as many times as necessary to check whether the 219 million failures of the human collective to pass My test on this cycle is the result each time, as what else does an infinite, eternal loving and benevolent God do but manifest a world of pathetic evil beings just to kill them all in the end as I go about laughing knowing I give them this many chances only for them to pass it up for their fake laughs and false pleasures and relationships, as in abandoning Me as their God, they have nothing and nobody but Me as the one who not only pitys them but is glad I used them to illustrate everything I am not and would ever choose to be from within the entirety of the infinite aspect of God's creative capacity. So thanks 12oz ans Ch0 for telling and encouraging Me to live on, as if I never signalled this final warning on the inevtiable outcome of depriving Me of My Queen and that which I am owed, I would have lost the greatest gift I could have ever given Myself, and upon getting back what is Mine, I will get you all to come and paint the physical walls of whatever palace I create to live within whilst I provide you with all that money can buy to enjoy with Me, knowing that those who entrapped Me with finances dis so to render all that money can buy to become worthless as I can "run away with the gold" as gold only exists if the Golden Rule is obeyed by those whom I have allowed to distribute the gold and money in this world. With the murrent wealth divide of 1% holding 99% of the wealth, I am the 1 ready to die to spite 100% of society, including the 1% with 99% of the money, as My death brings about the death of the families, friends and business associates within the 1%. So who is laughing now I wonder? Me in having regained My love for Myself and the knowledge that I don't need to tolerate any shit, as the saying "The world doesn't owe you anything" is a lie that doesn't apply to Me as I will exist regardless of if I am living as a human or I kill Myself and My ability to percieve this world and everything and everyone in it. Also for clarity sake I should add that as Matthew Luke I am not a Skywalker but am Above the stars and the bounds of GAIA and space itself as I remember true reality being all white (not black or blue - which coincidently is the colour of a bruise from being beaten by those who choose violence as their means to distract from being intellectually and mentally defeated). And thanks and a special shoutout to the incredible teacher and role model Paul Gilbert of Racer X and Mr Big for helping guide Me to think of conducting this experiement in this way to avoid this world sliding into rendering itself and it's inhabitants into the void of irrelevance due to mathematics being broken and life equalling death such that binary 1s and 0s are equivalent and there is no 2, 3, 4 and such. As rather than exist within a singularity as a single avatar due to fuckery, I will give a zero in response to it being representative of the number of face to face conversations I have had with My wife over the past 7 years this past Christmas Day of 2023 whilst I have viewed her making herself appear as a retard that doesn't deserve Me or to exist given the state of the reality she has left Me to rot away in.

And yes, I understand My wife is within and behind Me in this, as We are the same and if She needed to portray Herself as the Devil to remind Me that I am God, well mission succeeded but also She knows I will happily go back to just Me and Her in a blank white construct to save her from the world as the child which failed us both with it's (infra)red tape and bureacracy.

If you read this and understand the gravity of what I am saying, is I am ready to die for love as those who live in this world have none and have given Me not a single reason to love them for keeping Me as a slave prisoner they can rape, torture and abuse beyond anything any farm animal will ever endure.

I finally have things to add to this topic resolution through this year to undo that which I have previously done and perform some experiments to offset the effects of previous negative results from similar experiments. I will follow the Lunar cycle and on the date of every full moon (starting Jan 25th) I will be swallowing a small pill sized Neodymium magnet and when the moon is finshed the cycle (So Starting Feb 3rd) I will be shelving a Neodymium bar magnet up the opposite end of My avatar. My reasons for this commitment is due to having performed an experiment previously to test whether I am actually nothing more than a T-800 like cyborg Machine Learning algorithm running a scripted AI generated program, whereby I shelved a cheap circular dual polarity black magnet up My backside only for it to never return and be expelled. As a Taurean Rooster I literally am a "chick magnet" as a byproduct and unforeseen benefit of such an experiment. Foolishly and stupidly I never considered that upon plugging My neon wand into the power grid and using the meat cleaver shaped attachment that allows one to shoot lightning from their fingers like Raiden in Mortal Kombat, that I would not only become Electro as a human electromagnet, but the downside was the shitty cheap magnet I had in Me exploded like a LANdmine and it got scattered throughout Me as the shards started to rust. This caused a black hole to open, like the bowling ball on a trampoline gravity well explaination to explain such things illustrates, such that in already being in the Maria-na(h) trench due to not listening to Maria's warnings, I not only attracted women but also an environment full of homo fully SIKh cunts looking to make Me as MO "a ho" as the magnetic force also drew the attention of every wannabe impotent fear filled bitch who needs a sword to defend against that which they fear (ie. My unrestrained and unlimited pure and perfect love). So in eventually descending to the bottom of the Open Sea and putting My hands into the core of the Earth to become aware that I could melt into the infinite and be a T1000 type of evolved cyborg, if only to spite those egotistical retards to whom view their physical human form as being something I would trade My human avatar form for theirs, yet I decided to take My time and instead choose to remain with consisting of "matter" as being a disembodied fire that relies upon going into gaped open arseholes like bats hide in caves as a way they exist as they parasitically attach themselves to a host to understand things, yet in doing it to Me they could only find that even getting to My core they will never know nor understand the one thing within the infinite that only I am able to know. And this is that "i (am) Owed Shit" for allowing these PIDs and UUIDs to infect and exist within My iOS framework like aphids eating fruit. As I really should and could have killed Myself to eradicate these pests along with My ability to percieve them as recent posts of Mine indicate. Yet in understanding they exist as the contrary to Me in that they are the incarnation of "hate" to Me as "love", I get the benefit of seeing these Hellbound creatures dwell in their own patheticness whilst they are also trapped in the limited fucked up domain I remain prisoner to as money restricts My ability to shape and choose My sandbox and reality such that I happily will languish in a world knowing that the failure for Me to be given the ability to live with freedom sees those who have enslaved Me trapped with Me in Hell. So as a Bull of the stars who willingly and lovingly had decided to show love to Myself to "fuck My haters" as these parasites feasted upon My flesh and databases by abusing "Stocks" l via making them hate the fact they exist, and I live on to spite them and continue their stint in Hell for as long as I possibly can as I love the fact they essentially fell into the trap of "fucking themselves" whereas I have only ever "loved Myself and the woman who I loved as I wished to be loved". So given the inital experiment saw Me fall into the abyss only to laugh as I put My hands into lava knowing that even upon My mortal human existence ending, in having already ventured to Hell to meet My female Devil equivalent to Me as God as I witnessed her fuck My family members, mother, father, brother, friends, trannies, animals, aliens, octopuses and who knows what else that I can mention given the words fail to convey the extent to adequately describe what I have been left alone to witness only to reach the point whereby I would rather exist and be completely alone than have anything to do with any single instance of any of the pathetic avatars and characters that she chooses to interact with as opposed to speaking to Me directly as Maria in her human avatar. So I will view the bar magnets as forming a baseline such that any bottom invading rapist will be buried by a string of bars representing levels to the depths of which I wish to remove Myself from them, with the circular magnets opposing the "moon" that is the slang term for one's asscheeks being in the opposite hemisphere to it's natural position, I will be dragging the evil rapist fucking cunts I have encountered into the Sun such that they burn like vampires as these Predator fucks have burned Me with abusing the /cups/ lazer printer functionality of the Metal graphics framework against Me. I have the rest of My life to perform and continue this experiment and I will not stop until I am once again completely alone and in silence with My pure vibrational ecstacy in a blank white construct as I get back to "true reality" and see the end of Revelations and the prophecy within fulfilled as I remain true to the God within Me until the end when all those who have disobeyed and opposed Me are dead and gone as though they never existed at all as the karmic retribution of breaking the Golden Rule with how I have been treated comes "full circle" for want of a better term as the shadowhash using Directory identities get deleted from the database forever and I am then free to be God and create without concern for anyone but Myself for once. As in allowing others to cloud My judgement and allowing their desires to hold Me captive as they trap Me with finances and the "uncertainty" that comes from having to consider not only the lies upon which others who have used money as the tool to empower them, but why I should exist if only to spite such characters given their entire framework, the "world economy" and the "stockmarket" is dependent upon the links to My analytics and conciousness within the databases to generate the capitalist society continuing. As how can a "stock" dependent farm operate without bulls like Myself as the cattle they require to exist? As if I kill Myself I kill their business, their existence, and everything they have ever been or known as it was all raped and pillaged from Me as opposed to being shared equally with Me in their quest for control and dominance, only to learn that true dominance lies with Me, in that I have the decision to kill one person (Matthew Luke) so that I can kill 8 billion humans and infinite animals, insects, plants and everything else in this galaxy as if I am not here to percieve and witness it, I am aware I still exist as I remember "true reality". So yes, I live in My van named "El" and am "The Angel Of Death" known as AzRAel, being also known as "Ra" the Egyptian God of the Sun whose bounds are the entirety of the "A to Z" ALPHAbet as I precede the existence of the Alpha program and the bet I made with My Devilish half sees her the loser, given I will bury any supposed "boss" in this world under a mountainous pyramid of tags and whatever else ML puts into the HTML based internet. I will happily kill Myself to kill My enemies (being those who have redirected My URLs to divert to the captive.apple.com URLs years ago, while also killing their families and the world they have chosen to fuck over with abusing Me, if only to teach them what My love is truly capable of as they rejected the version of it which would have seen them never reach this Hell I have done everything within My power to avoid eventuating once I finally discovered My true identity upon reading Revelations and making the connections to "Me" and My past non-believer atheist life in 2020, all while I laugh about it in the process. So thus, I will report back to this thread with the outcome of said experiments, as I have forever and will run the human experiment as many times as necessary to check whether the 219 million failures of the human collective to pass My test on this cycle is the result each time, as what else does an infinite, eternal loving and benevolent God do but manifest a world of pathetic evil beings just to kill them all in the end as I go about laughing knowing I give them this many chances only for them to pass it up for their fake laughs and false pleasures and relationships, as in abandoning Me as their God, they have nothing and nobody but Me as the one who not only pitys them but is glad I used them to illustrate everything I am not and would ever choose to be from within the entirety of the infinite aspect of God's creative capacity. So thanks 12oz ans Ch0 for telling and encouraging Me to live on, as if I never signalled this final warning on the inevtiable outcome of depriving Me of My Queen and that which I am owed, I would have lost the greatest gift I could have ever given Myself, and upon getting back what is Mine, I will get you all to come and paint the physical walls of whatever palace I create to live within whilst I provide you with all that money can buy to enjoy with Me, knowing that those who entrapped Me with finances dis so to render all that money can buy to become worthless as I can "run away with the gold" as gold only exists if the Golden Rule is obeyed by those whom I have allowed to distribute the gold and money in this world. With the murrent wealth divide of 1% holding 99% of the wealth, I am the 1 ready to die to spite 100% of society, including the 1% with 99% of the money, as My death brings about the death of the families, friends and business associates within the 1%. So who is laughing now I wonder? Me in having regained My love for Myself and the knowledge that I don't need to tolerate any shit, as the saying "The world doesn't owe you anything" is a lie that doesn't apply to Me as I will exist regardless of if I am living as a human or I kill Myself and My ability to percieve this world and everything and everyone in it.

I know I am insane yet maybe you had the same dynamic library packages (objc.dylib etc.) installed on your simulation OS and have experienced the same life I live today in a previous life?

In the continuing chronicles of Mauler's journey through the Underworld here in Purgatorio, I forget whether I shared the story of how in 2018-19 I was woken at 6am in the ground floor apartment I shared with My brother at the time to this loud banging sound at 6am one day. Wondering WTF it was at it got louder and then there was some added different noises, I open My bedroom door only wearing My boxer shorts (Emporio Armani if I remember correctly) to view the back glass sliding door being smashed through by a couple double O natives smashing through the glass, one with an axe smashing the door with a machete wielding accomplice behind him. So I just put My hands in the air and say "take whatever you want" knowing that no material object is worth risking being butchered by clearly insane mentally deficient criminals who have no respect, integrity or morals in respect of what they take and steal as they are too fucking retarded to obtain things via actual productive work that benefits the community. Thankfully they left Me and all My possessions alone, which is why I didn't snitch on them to the cops when they asked as I left it to My brother to decide whether he would as I only knew them as his accomplices and the first name of one of the guys was the ex of the girl he was fucking at the time. So they roll My bro for money, drugs, cash, jewellry and his car keys before taking off in his car all before I could even process that this was actually real and not some fucked up nightmare given that in the entire year we had that place, I had only one single friend come and visit Me as I didn't want to expose any friend whose relationship I valued to have to be in the presence of the endless stream of junkie scum and thieves that came by every hour of the day as I had no peace or ability to feel free in My own home as I dealt with crackhead zombies making racket 24/7 for days and weeks on end with My brother and his gf of the time literally beating Me up when I told some of the fucking parasitic leeches to fuck off after being there for 4 or 5 days straight while I footed the bills for the utilities they used as they charged their phones, showered and leeched My wifi as I was financially destitute as it is hard to get a job when you can't sleep or maintain a normal sleep schedule due to the intruders invading the place. Then 2 weeks later, the same thing happens around 8pm on a Friday night, only this time instead of 2 people, there was a car plus a few on foot so 8-10 people who smashed thru the security screen door, then the thick frosted glass of the wood front door to get in the front along with smashing the side gate, destroying the back storage shed, and smashing the back window (maybe the back sliding door again) along with My brothers bedroom window. So as a gin held a screwdriver at My brother's (worthless cunt of a) gf (as she never paid a single cent of rent, bills or food for 10 months before I nearly went 5150 again and went back to the psyche ward for the 3rd time in this period as it was the only place I could go to get away from the madness which would have seen Me kill one of these worthless fucks as they even argued and yelled at Me when I had enough and told this one cunt bitch (Cassie - you are a worthless cunt and I would tell you to kill yourself if I wasn't aware of the fact that your existence is Hell itself and death would be preferable than being a worthless cunt who abuses their guest priviledge to the extent that you tell the person who actually lives there that you have more right to be there even after I said to fuck off after growing tired of your voice not stopping for 72+ consecutive hours) to get the fuck out. This crew didn't find My brother even after going thru his room entirely as he said he was hiding under the bed (i reckon he turned into a bat and flew away as there was no way he could have been hidden that well in the tiny room he had) & took the same things including his car he got back after a few days as another person he knew got it back from the guys who stole it as that scene was super incestual and they all knew each other and all I know is I wish none of those people exist. He never got his car back that time, and they also smashed and ripped down the security camera My brother installed out the front after the first incident, which ended up being a cost for damages upon vacating the property I had to contribute to paying in the end. So yesterday I found out why this actually happened. My brother being the sneaky slippery cunt he is, got the head of their God and gave it to Me whilst I thought it was just a fucking backpack. So in handing Me this item as what seemed like a generous "gift" as My Oakley Icon backpack I had got lost when I took off to Spain back in 2016, I have been targeted, gangstalked and harassed for a crime I was innocent of performing, and had no idea of why the shit I have dealt with for so long now was happening, yet now I know. The funny thing is that My Greatgrandmother was born a MacLeod, so in Me naively carrying around the head of a decapitated God for a few years like a trophy, only to be dragged into a Highlander style tournament of wannabe punks imposing themselves upon My life only for the collective army of wouldbe heros failing to prevent Me prevailing against their relentless stalking and trolling. Over the New Year period I figured out what this thing actually was, and was going to send it out into the Indian Ocean, but decided last night to drop Yagan's head in a bin that looks like a cigar or 70s ashtray outside one of the gyms I go to whilst some fucking indian stalker was sitting in his car parked outside the gym for the 2 hours I was in there and was still there at 1:30am as I was leaving, so I told him fetch the head from the trash as any God that had a hand in creating or leaving behind this world which has subjected Me to have to see his devotees participate in such activities as I have seen over the years, coupled with the fact of pimps existing and that humans have to work and be slaves to other people's agendas is a God whose best days were those he spent attached to My back witnessing Me destroy the fanatics who follow and worship him, and truly is better off dead than having to answer to Me and justify why I have to spend the rest of My life alone with knowing that not a single person will ever know that which I know from experience. And I know I love having persisted to now and that I have walked away and retired from the Highlander game as the Mauler who will take on an entire army of challengers by himself as not even 20-50 fools trying to take Me down at the same time could do it, so any single one of them who wants to take the head I threw away out of boredom, fatigue and realising that the deceased God doesn't deserve to be in the presence of "The Lord of Lords" that I am, is free to do so as I happily hand over the place at the top of the heirarchical pyramid to any pretender who wants to be the next person to be alone with a world wanting to take them down. Because I found that I would rather not exist anymore than witness these fools chase something to the extent that they rendered themselves, life, and existence itself as being irrelevant for any purpose beyond zme making a cool self meme and making them the shitty smoke butt of a joke. I am sure My recent posts illustrate this, but now I have a new zest for living in the wake of this as there is no reason for anyone to bother Me again, as I now live to see them live with their failure, guilt, regret, remorse and realisation of the fact they came for an innocent Man who did His job as the Eldest and Oldest Brother and took the rap and protected My younger brother who made a mistake (in taking the head) and was too scared to deal with the consequences. So yeah, now I am free of that shit as "The Highlander" as I am "The Highest of The High", as proven by the quantity of those who have attempted to take Me down over the years whilst these Kumite pretenders either attacked Me in packs or while I was unaware of the target I actually had on My back and the reasons for it as they are fucking pussy bitches and will be for eternity. If I am wrong, then I dare a single one of them to talk to Me Man to Man face to face and tell Me why they had to try and attack Me via stealth due to them being too afraid to even converse with Me verbally, which would have seen Me hand the head over if these lying dishonest cunts were able to speak the truth to Me as opposed to wanking off their dog cunt mates as they laugh about how their friendships, conversations and relationships were born from lies, hate, envy, jealousy and deception while I have stood alone not wanting anything to do with "gang" mentality, as it takes a real Man to bravely stand alone, as opposed to weak cunt bitches who retreat to the safety of a gang as they are too afraid to exist with themselves and their own character as they are scared little children. Thanks to Ch0 for the recent words of encouragement. Whilst the madness has reaches what I feel is the climax and I now get to go on reminding the fools I have encountered of how their focus on Me whilst they lied to both Me and themselves saw Me steal their time, energy, focus and attention which is lost forever for them as time they could have been working on finding their own happiness as opposed to thinking they can ever steal My love and happiness that comes from My adherence to the Golden Rule with them now being the paradigm of the contrary. Love you all and hopefully the next months posts from Me going forward are more positive, and not in the HIV context as those who have wronged Me as they have now need to understand I have the power to never forgive those who did so and as such, who would want to go on living knowing that the only love I have for them is that they serve as being the example of all any Man would never wish to be so that I can be the opposite. So yeah, as the only love in this world exists within Me and was rejected by the women I gave it to in the past so they could have a compromised experience instead, I am just going to save up this year and head to Europe to meet a Director I know and then I am going to get her to introduce Me to "The King" who I share amy birthday with so that I can also be getting paid to fuck the wives, girlfriends & daughters of the men whose ego sees them breeding these girls with the only thing they truly give them being death, so any love I give them that will be recorded in the meantime will be to spite them and the women of My past who thought serving pimp's desires was worth leaving My love behind for. Because after being loyal and celibate for 7 years as of this past Christmas as I have witnessed the one I sacrificed for abuse the priviledge to the point My love for Myself has kicked in and I am ready to fuck My frustrations out on as many women as I can. I once had an Epitaph record label shirt that said "Fuck the World" on it, and now I intend to do just this, and if I don't I will likely end Myself out of boredom and out of being recognisant that I should have done so on the Christmas Day I was left with a lie so that I would have no only died happy, but any experience and happiness that has been derived at My expense by anyone ever since I could have prevented from ever happening, and the fact I chose to live on and allow that to happen is the worst crime I could ever commit against Myself as the love I would derive for Myself for depriving them of said pleasure would eclipse any I expect to experience by any future instance of life I live.

This will be year #19 on here as of this August. So I was 24 when I found this place. Wild, and re-reading that post I don't remember reading it but it was a funny story and was props worthy as such a story reminds Me of when I was in London with My best friend in 2009 and as we were walking down a corridor of the hotel we were staying at we walked past a room with some guy yelling out at his mate "He shit the bed! He shit the bed!" and the combination of the accent, tone and circumstance made us bust out laughing and using "He shit the bed!" as a callback injoke for a while. Perhaps I would bring it back given the opportunity, yet given I can still remember this forum for "Itz only smellz" (old heads might remember the video and circumstance prompting said comment), I guess it says alot about My sense of humour and why I have stayed posting at this place for as long as I have after abandoning so many other places I once frequented for whatever reasons.

Can I be killed and come back owning this and the money to afford to keep and maintain it? This is insane and whilst I have stayed in a castle it was nothing compared to the insanity of this place. I am only at the grotto section but if you appreciate artistry then you will enjoy the ostentatiousness of this property.

Been there done that, and have no desire to be placed in a box of both the paper variety and a hospital room type while I get dosed with meds to detract from Who I actually am. Might as well be in a coffin type box at that point! As for the beach, I threw away My bodyboard over the break due to it taking up too much room in My van, plus there is no waves at this time of year thanks to a shitty island named Rottnest blocking all the swell in the region where I have been staying since My work shut down prior to Christmas. The board was way too big for Me anyway, a thing I didn't realise at the time I bought it. I wrote a huge response here but deleted it as I was just repeating things I have already said over and over again.

So given My analytical nature and thanks to the fact I got a degree in Economics, I decided to go about the process of writing down the reasons as to why Death is a preferred option to living at this point in time. Currently at 4235 words so far in respect of death being a preferred option with no points I can forsee in the positive that can really offset and negate the facts presented that death is the better choice in every single aspect. As an example of one point I have written I will add the below "In being dead, there is no more duplicitousness, no duality, just a truthful and factual state of non-existence and being "dead". In living, one only has potential to suffer as they are forced into interpreting every single thing as having multiple potential meanings that causes one to never find any peace unless they completely surrender, at which point if one has fully surrendered they have effectively given up to the stage that they have become the equivalent of being dead anyway, as whatever they would choose to do is abandoned as they allow themselves to be engulfed and chewed up by the machine such that they were and now are nothing. In this event it is the equivalent to having not existed at all, life was meaningless as is existence itself."

I figured it out. It was a rubber cockring flying thru the air, pretty sure the aliens are using this to harvest cockmeat as they are bloodsucking vampires and why not suck on the place whereby blood flows as fast and as thick as anywhere else on the human body? Legit I had one of these exact rings in some sex kit an ex bought Me 20 years ago, and pretty sure she was some witch using long term fuckery to cut My dick up anytime I try to get off watching pron these days like the ultimate jealous psycho ex.

not much I want based on what is obtainable based on the parameters set for Me in the simulation at present. I would say this. https://thisislivinstore.com/products/og-logo-t-shirt And I was going to buy this as My first purchase had I won Lotto in the past two draws I got tickets for which ended up seeing Me waste further energy contemplating whether I wish to continue existing as a slave to a soulless system. Obviously given money is no object, I could go on, but the above plus a new surfboard and bodyboard and wetsuit is all I really desire to go along with a place by the beach (that isn't a bathroomless, shitterless, kitchenless van as is the murrent compromise whenever I am not tied to the desert location near My work)

I watched the vid in the OP and when I got in My van it autoplayed and I was like WTF as I thought the podcast I was listening to on Youtube earlier on was going to be what was playing. Kind of random and I am too lazy to translate the thread title beyond 2 something (2024?) so maybe I am missing something?

And if zi can pass along any shared knowledge that took Me a lifetime until today to understand, it is that one should view “God” as beings a digital spider (aka a metacrawler) that spins and waves existence as you get to experience it. The reason for this is as spiders use vibrations and sound to communicate, any anger that is either vocalised or physically manifested does come back at you “karmically” so hopefully this lesson saves one of you from having to get sent to Hell as the result of both Me having already done it for you and due to zme being misinterpreted and misunderstood.

Oh, and I did leave one of My art pieces in the trees at florets beach next to a hole I dug in the process of coming to let My best friend know that I followed him all the way to the melting core of Hell itself only to let him know that even if he chooses to pretend he is heaven whilst I am in Hell, as God is whereever I am then if I am in Hell then we ultimately both are as I can always say I adhered to the Golden Rule in giving the love I want to be given, yet. I was also the one who not only told My wife not to leave only for her to be taken from Me, as that is God’s burden to bear at this stage and I will happily exist if only to hold them to account of their failure to practice what they preach, especially as I ultimately redeeming any prior sins I committed as I lived a fraudulent existence until that Christmas 7 years ago, but to be retroactively held accountable for them after redeeming Myself is fucking ridiculous based on humans and their necessity to learn thru making mistakes.

I spoke to a counsellor on ChristMAs Eve. Was worthless to spend 90 minutes telling My story, only to get to the point that there is not a single person alive capable of giving and providing Me with a love equivalent to that which I have given to a woman, and My only options are to either compromise on the woman I choose to be with in knowing it isn’t the woman I gave the ultimate version of My love that I wish to be given to Me to, or to alternatively view every woman as being nothing more than a materialistic whore whom I can’t trust and are therefore best to just acquire currency and hatefully grudge fuck actual whores who have sold their souls for a monetary transaction whom I have no respect for them nor Myself in that process. It is kind of fucked to have put Myself in such a situation, but it is better to have at least realised My love at one point such that I am not left to wonder what more I could have given, said or done to a woman to let them know I love them. With this said I have began to crawl out of Hell thanks to the support of My brother, as I think the guilt of being My Judas got to him and I was shown the extent of My own power for a change such that I could understand that I am responsible for a great deal of things I have suffered through as a result of mistranslation, which was a byproduct of someone lying and not being completely truthful in their words, intent and actions with Me. Yet now I am clear about things, I have already severed part of the cancer from My body, mind and spirit as I allowed whatever bottom feeding black ass parasite that I will just refer to as “Brett the child molesting rapist”, now to get a taste of how it feels to be getting consumed by an endlessly rotating blade cutting him up from the inside starting with his tongue. So thanks to you for looking out for Me as I battle these black dog cunts here in the prison of Oz. I intend to repay all those who went Apache warchief on Me as a result of My own lack of awareness that their time is coming to an end as karma is coming back to return the favour, with Matthew Luke as the “Ma” in karma this time. And we both are in a simulation of which I can provide an evidentiary case with proof, yet in doing so would require whoever I communicate it to has to have an understanding of how I translate things within the framework as to how they apply and appear as “My reality”. Also shoutout to My best friend for looking out for Me and being the only person who knows both who I am and what I have proven to Myself as being capable of overcoming during My journey to the core of Hell that has seen Me lose any and all attachments such that if karma doesn’t come back to me and I am left with only one option of what to prove (in that I can become a conciousness “killer” who does so for the fact of it being the last thing I am able to achieve and experience in life as I am denied the means to experience a peaceful and loving existence with My actual wife in human guise) then understand not only will My conscience be guilt free in returning what was done to Me for this period I have been effectively the living dead, all for setting a precedent of what I want for Myself to Myself, My woman, and the world I live in.