its happened multiple times where i just kind of said "they are who they are & im not exactly easy to please" & tried to let it go, but no more..
been a long time coming, with a lot of yelling & forgiveness which has been discovered time & time again to have been handed out in vain - i simply dont care to make an effort in being crew anymore.. crews dont mean anything when people disappoint you left, right, & centre. im just tired of all the shit
tired of people who claim to be down but cant act the part (other than fronting in vain..), which is about half of them. conceited, backpeddling, straightup no common sense stupid (to a level where i feel obligated to facepalm myself through glass everytime), & going down roads with highs i care little about partaking in. they were my brothers & have no doubt helped me out selflessly in times of need, but i cant let them run on those good intentions forever because almost everything afterwards has just been a colossal mountain of shit. it sucks, because theyre the realest friends ive ever had & ive literally cried in front of them without shame (eh.. maybe a little). friends like that are hard to come by in life but people change - whether its them, myself, or both.. seemingly both
dudes who dont even have enough heart to rock anymore (let alone a dayspot), who think continuously riding on the glory of a few good things theyve done is acceptable.. & those who only want to ride the coattails of others & expect to be just taken to places without ever having to do their own homework. dudes who just hang out with dumb people with heads filled with only the next trend & get high on dumb shit while thinking theyve still got it allllll down in life & that its all gravy. if the ones im referring to read this, theyd probably roll their eyes right back & think towards me something similiar to what im about to say, but it must be so nice to have it all figured out :rolleyes:. cool, you got drunk & did some tags.. dont give a fuck. not impressed. not real
the paramount irony of it all is that those i consider to have as much heart in whats good (actually, a lot more) are those of the "scene" here who dislike me & vice versa. lifes funny that way, as well as art