im buggin out.
i got shit for parents, and am in a terrible spot in life.
had a friend pass this weekend. fucking horrible situation.
the room that i rent from my mom floods everytime it rains. she begs me not to move out bc she cant pay her own bills. ive got a 10 yr old autistic brother who im scared for bc my mom is so fucked up on pills and liqour she cant even get herself together. let alone a family.
tryin as hard as i can to make a real life for myself, and be able to enjoy it, unlike most of the people i grew up around. but i feel like everytime i get one step closer, of course. i get knocked back 2. ive got $, not alot, but enough to get me by. i need to go ahead and take the next step of my life, move out (again) and try n start something new.
i got a great GF who isnt willing to let me fall, which helps almost more than anything, considering pops is a crackhead, and like i said. mom cant do a damn thing for herself. so all the support i can get from outsiders is greatly appreciated. it would be nice to have my parents around for guidence, but to me its like they havent been here before, why the fuck would i want em around now?!
i will succeed, and i will accomplish my goals. with or without anyone else.
i hope you guys have a good week, and keep pushing on!! thats all you can do. GIVING UP IS NOT AN OPTION.