Yup. Pretty much. Heroin is a motherfucker, the single worst thing I've ever done to myself. It lowered my standard of living in such a subtle way over the years, I look at myself now, and think I can't believe what a junkie piece of shit I've turned into. I'm on another relapse run.........why?!?!
6 months ago I got heavy into smoking crack, and a few weeks later the crack is going in the cap with the dope, now I've a speedball freak. My life is a mess right now, one dirty urine and I'm the county for a year. I've got to man up and live life, not floating in an opiate haze. Heroin feels so fucking good, it completely destroys your ability to cope with ANYTHING remotely uncomfortable, for me thats the hardest part of staying clean....