If that's what it takes, then that what it takes. If you can drink and pay your bills, maintain social relationships, go for it. if you can can shoot just a little bit of heroin, get down with your bad self. if this is how you get out of bed, maybe it's time for a lifestyle evaluation.
I'm not gonna knock you if you return the favor.
This was a few years ago and a few relapses ago. I don't subscribe to all of the 12 steps but it gives me some thing else to focus on.
I know,
If I say it often enough, maybe someday I'll believe it.