billboards up everywhere saying tha the worlds gonna end tomorrow. wondering what i could do to bank on it. reflecting about the past couple months. pissed about the next few monthes
dear oontzers who love me sooooo much,
shits been weird lately. i feel like ive hit my mid life crisis 30 years to early. as if i know im going to die soon and i havent accomplished half the shit i wanted to. may have to do with working as a PMC and having to go back to the mid east. the first time was all exciting and new and i wouldnt hesitate to sign a contract. but now that i have gained things i value such as one particular young lady, im scared shitless to go back fearing ill spend the rest of my short life 6000 miles away from home.
another thing it feels like im going to miss out on shit. last time i left my friend died and 2 others were arrested and get to sit for along minute. idk. ignore this. i guess i just needed to get it out for someone to hear.
psycoticRU.