I despise giving this type of answering considering I might be taken for an ignorant dumbass, But I honestly read almost nothing posted here, despite it seeming interesting.
I just have absolutely no way of following that along, it's like hearing a conceptual artist talking about a sculpture of a hundred pans glued together, I naturally just let it go in one ear and pour out the other while I stare at some girl on the street or go walking to go buy a shake or some shit.
But since it appears to be a topic where one can just release his or her idea of their mind, I'll just go with:
Dude, I just simplify shit, spent my entire teenage analyzing every single thing, wasted my goddamn time haha.
I live for art, I go where it takes me and make lemonade out of the lemons it gives me.
I drop friends if they block my artistic path in any way, I drop girlfriends who do the same.
I despise money (family issues due to it might have resulted in that), but I recognize I need it in order to live so I make it without becoming a total asshole due to it.
And I just wanna be happy, doing what I love, whether that means selling my shit or teaching a handful of kids how to draw and appreciate art so at least a few of them won't become fast food guzzling idiots who think Picasso is a car (there's a car named Picasso here in Brazil) or Banksy is the english word for "little bank".
Anything else, I see absolutely no point in analyzing and consider a complete or partial waste of my time.
Except for, of course, video-games and beer on weekends, and soccer games (I'm Brazilian man, kill me if that's a sin).
I don't see myself asking "why" so much as "How to?" I guess.