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gwar used to do halloween every year at the eagles club in milwaukee. although never a diehard fan musically, their stage shows were brilliantl, fun and entertaining. went three years in a row with my ex girl and ate an eighth of boomers before each time. quite the experience. but that blood & slime DID NOT taste like kool aid. more like melted wax and rubber.

RIP to the god. a legend in the truest sense. watching throwback frasier fights was partially what got me into boxing at a young age. a huge loss for the boxing, fuck it... entire sports world...

actually according to several reports ive read 12pack, SP is often accompanied by auditory hallucinations. most times its a LOUD crunching or something... sometimes like the sound of crumbling celophane. but less often ill hear someone speaking in tongues, or yelling obscenities in arabic directly in my ear which is mega fuckin terrifying. anyway, im convinced that I will have to deal with this for the rest of my days.. but it presumably becomes more tolerable over time. still, fascinating stuff. I wish some members would post up some of their experiences in best possible detail. IMO, this would make for a great read/thread.

looks like hielo has everyone ELSE craft his letters for em... bring some STYLE to the table kid... KOBRA BNASTY HEAT 8TRAK YANK!!!!!!!!! 666

its the "LGBT" groups that you wanna stay away from, POZ.

usually if they exist, in the directory next to the group in parenthesis it will say "young adults welcome" or something along those lines. it doesnt mean the group will be devoid of all veterans/old timers whom we all know have mega knowledge to drop/experieces to share. I imagine its there as a comfort level for some, and not to discourage younger folks in need of help from attending. IME, these groups have just been a little more diverse age wise, thats all.

I wear a rubber to bed every night so this shouldnt be an issue

KUEDO - severant (planet mu)

bumped.. after months and months of letting this frighten me to near heart attack, I have learned over time to manipulate my experiences half of the time. at some point a few months ago, I stopped fighting it to see where it might take me, based on the knowledge that other more experienced sleep paralysis sufferers (for lack of a better word), have used it as a catalyst to O.B.E's, astral projection and deep meditation. at first this was x10 more mortifying than its predecessor (attempting to speak/shift/move until awakening), but things started getting interesting, although often times still frightening. some of my more recent episodes could only be described as intense O.B.E.'s, usually involving levitation and movement of body. I have been lifted up into the air, up to the ceiling. what happens next varies, but it involves rotation, often times at unearthly speeds, followed by intense geometrical shapes/visuals and concluded by a catapult from the ceiling directly into a wall. I suppose this is intended to mimic death because I usually jolt awake sweating. other times, simply "letting it go" transforms into more strange dreams, with much more chaotic auditory goings-on, and a complete departure from anything resembling a normal dream. seeing shapes, patterns which have yet to be formulated and/or discovered. kind of difficult to explain but lets compare it to zen, or total inner peace, or a profound DOI/DOM/DOB trip, full & total understanding of why I exist/my purpose on this planet in complex detail. unfortunately when I awake from these episodes, they only remain memorable for seconds and the POOF! gone like mothafuckin magic! the whole missing/phantom limb phenom has also been a recurring experience. am I seriously fucked up, or is anyone else with me here? even if not, any profound, memorable, amazing experiences for anybody lately?

Cosigned Ralphy, the only criticisms that should be taking place are positive ones. If you are not giving advice, or simply identifying with others, then why bother? (Most) people in this thread are going through an array of problems, some perceivably worse than others but I, along with any other member have no right to judge the way we cope/struggle with our addictions. I consider this kind of behavior to be immature, childish and just plain disrespectful and as such, I will no longer address it. Lets keep it POSI ladies & gentlemen. POZ, tomorrow (tonight) I will be attending the Milwaukee Group on Center & Weil, and quite possibly an ALANO meeting with my moms by her crib. The eastside has a handful of groups in relatively close proximity to one another, making it easy to find at least one and attend multiple times weekly. I do prefer the Center street group though because it is closer to the crib, caters more to young adults and I have been there several times before. Its kind of a rugged building and im general seems a little more comfortable to me given my anxiety around folks with whom i am unfamiliar. Ill report my experience immediately post-group. I remember leaving these groups feeling a great sense of accomplishment and general wellbeing. That is a (natural) feeling that I have been longing for since my last time kicking last october/november. I managed to stay clean until my fiancee got locked in june. I am confident I can do this because ive done it before, and confidence in this matter seems extremely important to me, especially in a time where I feel I have NONE. Natural happiness here I come! I wont expect it immediately, but certainly forsee it in my future and god (higher power, self, object)-willing every last one of you too! Good luck to everyone as always stay up and stay SOBER. P.S. - Kaashnikov, holler if you want to catch a group this weekend and go paint afterwards!

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one: not trying to make it seem like my struggle is any more difficult than any other person in this thread, but heroin withdrawal, IMO, some of the most difficult shit one could ever go through. call it "excuses".. shit ive made alot of them.. I AM AN ADDICT. two: you would fucking check yourself out of that place too... I GUARANTEE IT. ever been to jail homie? and lets not forget I admitted myself. I am trying. I am currently free of all toxins. thats the biggest step ive taken in years. step the fuck off with that judgemental garbage. everyone else stay up... ill quote "thedoc".. this shit is a rollercoaster....

what excuses? im simply relaying my experiences/struggles. ive been drug/alcohol free since 2pm tuesday.. how about you?? I am having a difficult time with this, as are others in this thread. I may not know how to do this BUT I AM FUCKING TRYING. who are you to judge homeboy?