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    Pregnant? No you dick, I just love gross food combinations.

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    Definitely dip french fries in milkshakes errday. Always have.

    Peanut butter, honey and banana (TRY THIS SHIT), cuz my momma fed that shit to me on the daily as a kid.

    Sriracha + anything.

    That's actually pretty standard as far as gross food combinations go I suppose. Guess I'm just boring. I'm sure there's worse I've eaten but I can't think of any right now.

    Travel Log - Hunting, Hitchhiking, Painting & Getting Dirty: Traveling Across America

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    Just spent two days reading through this entire thread every second of free time I got. This is fucking sweet. And all the Washington flicks made me horribly homesick. Looks like you were out on Second Beach, by Forks. Beautiful shit. Whenever you get to SF hit me up, I'd love to burn you one and chop it up. Please keep updating, this whole thread was nothing short of mindblowing to me.

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    Alcoholism

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    I talked to an OG about it...he said that sponsees are like babies at first and you cant expect anything, you feed them and help them grow, they become infants and can take a few steps on their own etc.....eventually they develop more into children and you dont have to watch over them nearly as much. Cheesy, but it really helped me understand it is not about my expectations, everyone will be different.

     

    Wow that's a pretty kickass saying.

    Alcoholism

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    Word to what LUGR said, Ralphy, you've been a great help. I'm really happy I found this thread. I started in on the book with my sponsee today, his story is so similar to mine and he's so much like me. He was talking to me today about how he knows that dope can kill him randomly, especially hearing my story about finding my friend's body, but for some reason he just can't stop using. I told him that's exactly how he's supposed to feel, it's called the first step. Honestly the kid is doing great.

     

    As for this weekend I'm just going to try to ignore the hype. Do some more work with my sponsee tomorrow, hit some meetings, going to a Dia De Los Muertos celebration in Oakland with some sober homies on Sunday then doing my H&I Sunday night. As for Monday shit I'm working all day, it'll be really all I can do to make it through my double shift and give little kids candy. Good luck to everyone this weekend though and remember to just keep working that program.

    Alcoholism

    in Lifestyle

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    I'm past 90 days clean, I rarely think about heroin anymore. But what's amazing is on Sunday night I got to be the speaker at a meeting and it was such an amazing experience getting to share how far I've come since the death of my best friend (even though when I got to that part in my story I choked up really bad and had to stop for a minute). And after the meeting a kid came up to me, said that what I said made him realize how important getting sober is and how important working a good program is. So now I have a fucking sponsee! It feels SO GOOD to get to pass the message on the way my sponsor did for me. This is such an amazing thing, much love to all my people saving their own lives and those of others.

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    Alcoholism

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    So like I said, my sobriety started with the OD death of my best friend. Since then I've moved away and taken strides to better my life, working a strong program. Me, him and our very close friends were all using together. When we lost him and our worlds all got flipped upside down we all took steps to get clean. Sure it was probably easier for me considering I was the one that actually witnessed his death, all I have to do when I feel like using is bring that image back up. So I just checked up on my hometown and all of my close friends excluding the one that's currently in an inpatient program are fucking using again. It just breaks my heart. I just don't see how you could do that, how you could disrespect his memory like that. I don't think I could ever bring myself to pick up a drink or drug again, it just seems like spitting on his grave. I wish so much that they'd all just realize that, and that they're risking their own lives. But I guess the only person I can really take care of is myself. And I'm sober. Sorry if I'm rambling but I couldn't get to a meeting and I just needed to share this with someone. Keep them in your prayers.

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