The general discussion thread within our general discussion.

[KNIFU]

My new land lord is this super cool uncle he put me On to this band have you guys ever heard of it? 
 

 

[KNIFU]

Is this band sick or what?

Edited June 10, 2023 by KNIFU

[NightmareOnElmStreet]

My dawgs. Hbd later grammed for the big homie @KILZ FILLZ Straight up some blink your eyes and wake up 5 years later shit going on fr. Gotta have fun whenever we can man. Force that shit if you’re a couch potato cause ain’t no guarantees on tmrw. I been out a good deal lately playing lots of pool at the local haunt. The table is god awful but the times are great. 

[KNIFU]

: )

Edited June 10, 2023 by KNIFU

[KNIFU]

/thread

[ndv]

50 minutes ago, nicklesndimes said:

rip the unabomber

 

Wait what? He died?  No!

[Mauler5150]

6 hours ago, LUGR said:

Best novel you have written to date.

Thankyou for the feedback.

 

And given @fat ralphy feels somewhat the same, I will dedicate this one to @LUGR and him.

 

Well I guess it is the cumulative experience of the 10000 pages I wrote of my travels through the entirety of the emotional spectrum, some of it whilst being baked out of my head, which really would compile into the "Diary of a Madman" if other's were to ever read it.

 

Writing actually became my way of socialising as I ostracised myself from friends and family whilst on my existential crisis journey into making sense of my self as simultaneously part of and distinctly separate from the One universal God/Simulation or whatever terminology one chooses to apply to the consciousness framework that allows us to percieve ourselves and the world around us.

 

So something I should have added above was the act of writing diwn what was running through my head at any specific tine, was not only extremy cathartic, but it allowed me to channel whatever rage, anger, negativity or homicidal or suicidal thought onto the pages of my device. The benefit of this is that I can look back in years to come, or leave my relatives an extremely detailed account of my life and character that would far exceed me telling them "Go read Matthew and Luke in the Bible and use your imagination to interpret it", especially given the videos and photos I have to match the events of the scriptures in what I refer to as a "UTF-8 encoded" format. Especially since not only have I gone through enough of the Book of Matthew to where I can attribute specific images to decode the text to where only a fool would dispute the metaphor being depicted to them as beyond mere coincidence, but any disputing would moreso be based in fear that "If God is real and this guy is potentially the Messiah prophecised to "Come after Jesus" which Jesus warned people about, then I am accountable for whstever fucked up things I have done in my life". 

 

As you can imagine, rather than look at actual evidence Doctors just use their Devilish Sadomasochistic Manual, aka the DSM5 to diagnose someone who makes such a claim unaware of that fact that in discovering yourself to be "One with God" you are every sound, word, letter of every language ever devised so any singular term they wish to categorise and label you with from "Genius" to "Psycho" is relevant, applicable and true. 

 

As such, reconciling the fact I was Hitler, the Unabomber, Ghengis Khan etc all in past incarnations created for me to learn of and percieve such that I could refine and define my icgaracter and identity to a perfect being of love by abandoning any desire to replicate the path of these politically driven leaders, is the purpose of mine (& I believe other's) life.

 

Also I can thank @Bojanglesfor planting the seed to write down my life story with the extract he posted of his autobiography. While mine lacks a significant depth of detail of my childhood, there are many callbacks throughout the passages of my adult life experiences which refer to my childhood which is expected as I live within and for the moment and it is impossible to linearly recall every significant event and experience from my blessed childhood.

 

Anyway I don't want to make this thread about me, and hopefully this sharing of wgat I was up to in my time away from the oontz encourages others to own their life and the experiences and choices they made to where they can love themselves to where they become beyond the judgement of anyobe else and will happily divulge this love for themselves by writing it down online as I now do. As if you cannot prove you love yourself free of negative judgement, good luck proving you love anyone else.

 

Perhaps one day I may share sone of what I wrote during times of chemically assisted madness, once it is contextually proven via passing drug tests and reintegrating into the fear filled metaphorical mask wearing "normal" society (whereby people gave certain "masks" they wear in their workplace and public that differ from the one they wear in private or around close friends) such that more people can learn from me that you are only decieving and harming yourself(and by extension the society we live in)  in doing this. It took me 35 years to discover this, abd if I can share in the hopes of preventing someone finding themselves in Hell itself to where they legit want to kill themselves, or at least let them know I was capable of going to the edge of this place in one's psyche, yet I was able to find a reason to not go through with it, then are you wishing to become a bitch by saying those who chose to live are mentally stronger than those whom choose to end themselves?

 

As whilst I once thought those who fall to suicide made a brave choice, I realise that it was weak as it is alot easier to exist in nothingness (I know because I remember that is where I originated thanks to a Kundalini awakening -coincidently the same event which triggered my descent into madness and the descent out of it).

 

TLDR - If I (and other's) can save one single other person over the course of their life from choosing suicide by giving them a reason to live and persist in, and ultimately laugh at, this unfair, inequitable world, then you have lived a life of purpose, meaning and truth. Anything beyond that is the icing on the cake.

 

@LUGRwhilst you may not have picked up on it but you gave me a reason to live (which I hope is reciprocated!!!) by answering my post about getting a reunion 12oz shirt, as I fully intend to get myself back in a financial position to make it happen, which I hope gives you reason to stick around so that it can. This example I hope clarifies the overall point I am attempting to make in the least Jesus-y, least preachy, and least egotistical, most loving manner possible.

 

As after all, thanks to Raven and the comedy provided by the members here, I am sure we all recognise through the members that have been lost or have dropped off, the world and forum was in a better place when we were all making each other laugh (or be laughed at) than it is otherwise.

 

So with this said, enjoy this pic of the overweight version of me and Jesus Christ, I mean Jean Claude I took whilst in the home of beer - Belgium itself, back in 2014

[Mauler5150]

1 hour ago, ndv said:

 

Wait what? He died?  No!

Well he will live on via these posts and my one above so food for thought....

[Mauler5150]

Also, another thing I would like to do is to reach out to @Theo Huxtable as I have him added on Xbox Live from back in the day and tell him to stop by here at some point. As the value his presence provided on here is missed, so I hope his real life is going well as a result.

 

Also anyone know where @lord_casekis at? Much love to him for all the tech support provided back in my PC using days, before Maria decided to play as Eve as she lured me into the walled garden with a bloody forbidden fruit adorned iPhone, and I had to question whether I still have my PC Master Race status now that I have never ever used the latest version of Windows as I left when it was Windows 10.

[LUGR]

2 hours ago, Mauler5150 said:

Thankyou for the feedback.

 

And given @fat ralphy feels somewhat the same, I will dedicate this one to @LUGR and him.

 

Well I guess it is the cumulative experience of the 10000 pages I wrote of my travels through the entirety of the emotional spectrum, some of it whilst being baked out of my head, which really would compile into the "Diary of a Madman" if other's were to ever read it.

 

Writing actually became my way of socialising as I ostracised myself from friends and family whilst on my existential crisis journey into making sense of my self as simultaneously part of and distinctly separate from the One universal God/Simulation or whatever terminology one chooses to apply to the consciousness framework that allows us to percieve ourselves and the world around us.

 

So something I should have added above was the act of writing diwn what was running through my head at any specific tine, was not only extremy cathartic, but it allowed me to channel whatever rage, anger, negativity or homicidal or suicidal thought onto the pages of my device. The benefit of this is that I can look back in years to come, or leave my relatives an extremely detailed account of my life and character that would far exceed me telling them "Go read Matthew and Luke in the Bible and use your imagination to interpret it", especially given the videos and photos I have to match the events of the scriptures in what I refer to as a "UTF-8 encoded" format. Especially since not only have I gone through enough of the Book of Matthew to where I can attribute specific images to decode the text to where only a fool would dispute the metaphor being depicted to them as beyond mere coincidence, but any disputing would moreso be based in fear that "If God is real and this guy is potentially the Messiah prophecised to "Come after Jesus" which Jesus warned people about, then I am accountable for whstever fucked up things I have done in my life". 

 

As you can imagine, rather than look at actual evidence Doctors just use their Devilish Sadomasochistic Manual, aka the DSM5 to diagnose someone who makes such a claim unaware of that fact that in discovering yourself to be "One with God" you are every sound, word, letter of every language ever devised so any singular term they wish to categorise and label you with from "Genius" to "Psycho" is relevant, applicable and true. 

 

As such, reconciling the fact I was Hitler, the Unabomber, Ghengis Khan etc all in past incarnations created for me to learn of and percieve such that I could refine and define my icgaracter and identity to a perfect being of love by abandoning any desire to replicate the path of these politically driven leaders, is the purpose of mine (& I believe other's) life.

 

Also I can thank @Bojanglesfor planting the seed to write down my life story with the extract he posted of his autobiography. While mine lacks a significant depth of detail of my childhood, there are many callbacks throughout the passages of my adult life experiences which refer to my childhood which is expected as I live within and for the moment and it is impossible to linearly recall every significant event and experience from my blessed childhood.

 

Anyway I don't want to make this thread about me, and hopefully this sharing of wgat I was up to in my time away from the oontz encourages others to own their life and the experiences and choices they made to where they can love themselves to where they become beyond the judgement of anyobe else and will happily divulge this love for themselves by writing it down online as I now do. As if you cannot prove you love yourself free of negative judgement, good luck proving you love anyone else.

 

Perhaps one day I may share sone of what I wrote during times of chemically assisted madness, once it is contextually proven via passing drug tests and reintegrating into the fear filled metaphorical mask wearing "normal" society (whereby people gave certain "masks" they wear in their workplace and public that differ from the one they wear in private or around close friends) such that more people can learn from me that you are only decieving and harming yourself(and by extension the society we live in)  in doing this. It took me 35 years to discover this, abd if I can share in the hopes of preventing someone finding themselves in Hell itself to where they legit want to kill themselves, or at least let them know I was capable of going to the edge of this place in one's psyche, yet I was able to find a reason to not go through with it, then are you wishing to become a bitch by saying those who chose to live are mentally stronger than those whom choose to end themselves?

 

As whilst I once thought those who fall to suicide made a brave choice, I realise that it was weak as it is alot easier to exist in nothingness (I know because I remember that is where I originated thanks to a Kundalini awakening -coincidently the same event which triggered my descent into madness and the descent out of it).

 

TLDR - If I (and other's) can save one single other person over the course of their life from choosing suicide by giving them a reason to live and persist in, and ultimately laugh at, this unfair, inequitable world, then you have lived a life of purpose, meaning and truth. Anything beyond that is the icing on the cake.

 

@LUGRwhilst you may not have picked up on it but you gave me a reason to live (which I hope is reciprocated!!!) by answering my post about getting a reunion 12oz shirt, as I fully intend to get myself back in a financial position to make it happen, which I hope gives you reason to stick around so that it can. This example I hope clarifies the overall point I am attempting to make in the least Jesus-y, least preachy, and least egotistical, most loving manner possible.

 

As after all, thanks to Raven and the comedy provided by the members here, I am sure we all recognise through the members that have been lost or have dropped off, the world and forum was in a better place when we were all making each other laugh (or be laughed at) than it is otherwise.

 

So with this said, enjoy this pic of the overweight version of me and Jesus Christ, I mean Jean Claude I took whilst in the home of beer - Belgium itself, back in 2014

TLDR

[LUGR]

Just kidding, I will try to read it later.

[Mauler5150]

1 hour ago, LUGR said:

Just kidding, I will try to read it later.

Take your time. Hopefully my other posts can ensure we all have plenty of it left 😉

[KILZ FILLZ]

This foo got him shook that’s a why

[mr.yuck]

6 hours ago, KILZ FILLZ said:

This foo got him shook that’s a why

 

This dude looks like he says shit like "Dad says poor people are poor because they're lazy!"

[LUGR]

9 hours ago, nicklesndimes said:

i just saw the hip hop artist copywrite perform a live show downtown, involving the jam i mentioned yesterday. he was really rough live. constantly messing up and asking his dj/producer to start tracks over, constantly. he was also a loose cannon, saying weird shit between tracks, etc. very odd performance to say the least....almost wish i'd have stayed the whole time to see if he became unglued at some point b/c he was pretty close while i was still present.

Probably because he is from Ohio.

[Mauler5150]

15 minutes ago, mr.yuck said:

 

This dude looks like he says shit like "Dad says poor people are poor because they're lazy!"

Best call.

 

My thoughts on this topic of going to watch rap "artists" is why would any straight male choose to pay to go watch another male dance around on stage as he effectively "speaks in subdivisions of 4/4 time".

 

There is a reason why in the book of Matthew, Jesus said "He who builds his house on rock shall be saved" because even God knows that rap "artists" have nothing redeeming about them worth saving, as unlike rock musicians who have proficiency in a instrument that involves more than holding excrement covered bank notes up to their ear in an attempt to flex, rap musicians rely on the human propensity to hear music in standard time signatures they can nod their head too think it is good.

 

I can understand the appeal of watching male pop singers like Michael Jackson as he was as famous as Jesus and transcended music itself, plus there is a high chance of attractive females being present at gigs that you would actually find have more to offer than just looks, unlike females who think being a "gangsta thug" is a good thing like those who attend rap concerts.

 

Sorry, this concept gets me going, as I for one miss the days when music had actual rockstars and not these poser idiots that have been popular since the internet made mediocrity "cool".

[KILZ FILLZ]

2 hours ago, mr.yuck said:

 

This dude looks like he says shit like "Dad says poor people are poor because they're lazy!"

“You need directions to the financial aid office, I don’t think I’ve ever actually met anyone who needed to go there” 🥴

[mr.yuck]

29 minutes ago, KILZ FILLZ said:

“You need directions to the financial aid office, I don’t think I’ve ever actually met anyone who needed to go there” 🥴

Haha. What movie was that from?

[ndv]

@Mauler5150  its been a while since @lord_casek has been in here.  Basically a few members here had a keyboard warrior with casek, Dhabs, Kults and Where and they haven't been back since.  I take it Wjere and Kults took the high road doing theor thing right now, Dhabs purchased some property so from my understanding he's been hard at work clearing his land.  Casek did stop by a few or several months ago but haven't seen him since.  Hopefully these guys along with abrasivesaint will all come back.  

[KILZ FILLZ]

3 hours ago, mr.yuck said:

Haha. What movie was that from?

How High

[One Man Banned]

9 hours ago, Mauler5150 said:

Best call.

 

My thoughts on this topic of going to watch rap "artists" is why would any straight male choose to pay to go watch another male dance around on stage as he effectively "speaks in subdivisions of 4/4 time".

 

There is a reason why in the book of Matthew, Jesus said "He who builds his house on rock shall be saved" because even God knows that rap "artists" have nothing redeeming about them worth saving, as unlike rock musicians who have proficiency in a instrument that involves more than holding excrement covered bank notes up to their ear in an attempt to flex, rap musicians rely on the human propensity to hear music in standard time signatures they can nod their head too think it is good.

 

I can understand the appeal of watching male pop singers like Michael Jackson as he was as famous as Jesus and transcended music itself, plus there is a high chance of attractive females being present at gigs that you would actually find have more to offer than just looks, unlike females who think being a "gangsta thug" is a good thing like those who attend rap concerts.

 

Sorry, this concept gets me going, as I for one miss the days when music had actual rockstars and not these poser idiots that have been popular since the internet made mediocrity "cool".

 

I'm pretty sure the book of Reverend Run says "He who builds his house on rap shall rock."

 

Michael Jackson, yeesh.  Touchy example, pun intended.  I believe you folks would call him a dancing rock spider.

[Mauler5150]

2 hours ago, One Man Banned said:

 

I'm pretty sure the book of Reverend Run says "He who builds his house on rap shall rock."

 

Michael Jackson, yeesh.  Touchy example, pun intended.  I believe you folks would call him a dancing rock spider.

Reverend Run? Wasn't that a series of pornos back in the day? Or am I getting it mixed up with Rectal Rooter? Either way, his lyrics are abominable if he chose to bastardize perfectiom.

 

In regards to the other point, have you watched this?

 

 

Curious to hear your take if you have. Money is a fucked up motivator as I continue to express on here, and someone like MJ had as big a target on his back as anyone, especially when he pissed off the music companies as elaborated in this video.

[Mauler5150]

8 hours ago, ndv said:

@Mauler5150  its been a while since @lord_casek has been in here.  Basically a few members here had a keyboard warrior with casek, Dhabs, Kults and Where and they haven't been back since.  I take it Wjere and Kults took the high road doing theor thing right now, Dhabs purchased some property so from my understanding he's been hard at work clearing his land.  Casek did stop by a few or several months ago but haven't seen him since.  Hopefully these guys along with abrasivesaint will all come back.  

i saw Dhabz posts about his land and such, good on him for sticking around post VAG debacle, so why he would leave after enduring that shitstorm onky leads me to believe it is because he is busy with living life, so more power to him.

 

For casek to leave after seeing DAO survive all his keyboard wars is crazy as I thought casek's "internet armour" was impenetrable. Maybe I was wrong to assume this. Either way, guy deserves a proper "Lord" title as a gift from Established Titles for his cintributions here over the years

[ndv]

49 minutes ago, Mauler5150 said:

i saw Dhabz posts about his land and such, good on him for sticking around post VAG debacle, so why he would leave after enduring that shitstorm onky leads me to believe it is because he is busy with living life, so more power to him.

 

For casek to leave after seeing DAO survive all his keyboard wars is crazy as I thought casek's "internet armour" was impenetrable. Maybe I was wrong to assume this. Either way, guy deserves a proper "Lord" title as a gift from Established Titles for his cintributions here over the years

 

I agree.  I guess that's what happenes in the life cycle of the internet.  2 people disagree, go theor separate ways for a few years,come back stinger than ever.  Or at least thats what I hope. 

[LUGR]

Elections coming…..only a matter of time.

[Mauler5150]

7 hours ago, ndv said:

 

I agree.  I guess that's what happenes in the life cycle of the internet.  2 people disagree, go theor separate ways for a few years,come back stinger than ever.  Or at least thats what I hope. 

I am glad to see that I am not alone in holding out hope for a better, stronger, more unified tomorrow, given today seems wasted by the majority.

 

In other news, I told an egotistical prick at my course who tried to insinuate he knows it all at 24 as he advocated war and other nonsense, that he knows nothing and as he is the present representative of a guy whom tried to George Floyd me when I was 12, I told him I would John Wick him in the leg 100 times out of 100 as he is a bully prick who tries to throw his weight around hurting people in defenceless positions.

 

Pretty sure the tonality implying that if he wants to get smart with me I would gladly end him in self defence for the past avatar which had his name seeing me with no option but to break my rule in treating others as I wish to be treated as my life was in jeopardy.

 

Note that I warned hom twice to get his shin off my neck before I sunk the lead pencil into his shin and snapped it off. 

 

Given I allowed him to live in that instance, if he tried the same thing again I will go for the jugular this time to ensure he never gets another opportunity to hurt or bully anyone ever again.

 

Sorry for taking things to the negative, again I hold onto some semblance of hope yet if others choose to iterate themselves as hopeless then they leave themselves open to be mocked by me on here as I detail their crime of which I am innocent of the repercussions that followed.

 

He is just a reflection of a swirling vortex of python code anyway, and if the serpent seeks to suffocate me with a lack of money and opportunity to exist as I did before, then I will elect to humour myself by takikg a photo of said fool, removing all it's virbations, colour, saturation and then turn his life support off as I decapitate him "Highlander style" using the tech I hold in my hand with no blood spilt but ionic radiation emitted from satelites doing the job for me.

[Mauler5150]

Obviously the above post was made in the wake of the PTSD inflicted upon me after I realised I "had to stab a bitch" in order to stay alive.

 

Given it happened at my rookie ball training (baseball but with a machine pitching instead of a human) and at 42 I can look back without regret knowing that I did the right thing as it wasn't me who instigated the physical violence, I just reacted to it (as anyone would be justified in doing so if some pathetic bully cunt was to put their life in danger of expiry).

 

Thanks for being my shrink in this regard Ch0 people, and everyone who truly knows me knows I am harmless and full of love & laughter to the extent that others hate me for it. 

[ndv]

You're all good @Mauler5150 no need to apologize, sometimes unfortunately there are going to be negative instances that cr9ss our paths and due to the core nature of the negative force the logical thing is to fight fire with fire.  This may sound like a cliché but I think intellects are the ones who see the only way to beat them at their own game is to out smart them on their level.  Ya know?

[mr.yuck]

21 hours ago, LUGR said:

Elections coming…..only a matter of time.

 

I'm gonna tag him in a bunch of lib tard shit. It'll be like saying bloody Mary 3 times while looking in a mirror.

[ndv]

31 minutes ago, mr.yuck said:

 

I'm gonna tag him in a bunch of  tard shit.

 

No need, he's does it just fine all by himself.