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☠ THE CANCER THREAD - a.k.a. I'm Fucking Dying ☠


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I've been urged by a few fellow 12ozers to make this post.   On December 26th I was diagnosed with stage 4 esophageal adenocarcinoma. This cancer of the lower esophagus was caused by acid re

Hey all. I'm still here.   The cancer is still very much present. I was feeling good during the summer thanks to the weather and keeping myself occupied around the house/yard. In the summer

As far as I know (and the attending Doctors) my condition began from acid reflux (GERD) and must have evolved into what is called Barret's esophagus. Essentially, stomach acid eroded the lowest part o

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Finally some good news... Prior to my sixth treatment session I had another CT scan performed. My oncologist said that all of the cancerous growths had reduced in size by about 50%. While that is certainly good progress, I am not cured by any means. Treatments will continue as normal until another CT scan in mid-June. For now I am only venturing out in the public for my appointments. The last thing I need is the coronavirus right now.

 

On an even lighter note: There a massive black bear that has been raiding our trash can. Finally caught him on the trail cam.

 

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On 5/5/2020 at 3:08 PM, ndv said:

yo @-Rage-. You seen this?

 

 

My friends son had treatment from Burzynski - in my opinion it did extend his life past the expectations of the doctors focused on traditional medicine. 
 

My best friend Dub passed away in March after battling cancer for about 3 years. Looking back on it, seems to me like those last three years really helped him develop relationships. He reconnected with his sister who he had a falling out with - we focused on enjoying each day and living in the moment, huge lesson for me.

 

I will echo the resounding theme here - fuck cancer. @rageI wish you peace and love - keep your head up because I know it gets tough. Therapy helped my friend cope, talking openly with me about his fears and stress helped.......people are there for you even if its just strangers on the internet.

 

Maybe we need a @ragephoto thread- share your work with us man. If you have the energy during downtime - 

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I'm sorry to hear all this. As everyone else has already said in so many ways about the early aughts and the mark we've all left on each other, I can only agree.

A few years ago my uncle was diagnosed with acute myelocytic  leukemia. It was fast, relentless, and unforgiving. He was just about ready to receive a bone marrow transfer after forcing it into supposed remission through two very aggressive chemo rounds. He passed no later than 5 months from his initial diagnoses. It was incredibly hard to see him in the hospital: frail, scared, and more than anything just terrified to think about the fact that he wouldn't see his daughter graduate college as a D-1 Athlete, or see his youngest son off to his prom and college, or to watch his grandson grow up. It's fucking awful to think about and I still get irate at the whole situation. I am right now. 

It rocked my cousins, and me. I'm the oldest of the grandchildren on that side, and I always had a very different interaction/relationship with him than his children, mostly because my parents were divorced, and he took on a lot of those fatherly duties when my father couldn't be around. I cannot imagine how you feel, but I do know how your loved ones feel. 

All this to say that you should do literally whatever the fuck you want with your time. Your family, friends, and your partner will support you in any choice you make. Take care of the logistics like you said, and then just ball the fuck out. 

Best of luck to you, Rage. And as everyone has said, please please please let all of us know if there is anything we can do, and that extends to your partner as well.

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Let's not write him off. Cancer kills, but there's a lot of things that can kill and certainly a lot of people that have survived cancer.

 

I have faith in the exception to every rule and the belief that not everything exists as absolutes. 

 

Keep fighting, don't lose hope. Enjoy every moment, whether its today, next year or a lifetime.

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Hey all. I'm still here.

 

The cancer is still very much present. I was feeling good during the summer thanks to the weather and keeping myself occupied around the house/yard. In the summer I was on oral chemo meds and they had zero side effects. Unfortunately, my most recent CT scan showed some new growth. With the recent downgrade in health I am back to intravenous meds and I forgot how much they knock you on your ass.

 

I wish I were an optimist, but there's no surviving this.

 

 

On 11/6/2020 at 11:31 AM, fat ralphy said:

Maybe we need a @ragephoto thread- share your work with us man. If you have the energy during downtime -

 

Nothing I've made recently is worthy of a standalone thread. Not being able to travel doesn't lend itself to being truly creative behind the camera.

I might post some stuff in the Photography Thread in a few weeks though.

 

 

On 11/6/2020 at 12:32 PM, the.crooked said:

All this to say that you should do literally whatever the fuck you want with your time.

 

I wish this were an option if COVID wasn't fucking shit up right now.

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Good to see you're still kicking @rage. The oontz is a weird place full of weird people. Been off for awhile though, cancer is a bitch. Over the years I've lost some good friends and have had some good friends lose parents and, my pops been dealing with stage 4 colon cancer for the last 7 years. It's a shitty fucking disease, which for some reason they can't figure out how to create a cure for it. Hopefully you make it longer than they predict. Cheers to you and some positive vibes as well. My pops gets transfusions bi-weekly and it sure does fuck him up. Just keep keeping on! It sucks that you gotta have your card stamped like that.

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hey @rage, hope you're still kicking and doing good. I can imagine it is difficult to stay optimistic , but keep fighting that's all you can do.Said a prayer for you today and hope you're well. It's almost been a year since you posted this. Merry Christmas and I hope you have a Happy New Year.

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Sup. Still kicking here.

 

Had a routine CT scan the other day, just waiting for results. I'm still on the IV chemo meds, but handling the side effects a little better.

I finally qualify to sign up for COVID vaccination with the comorbidites phase. It will be a relief to have an extra step of protection.

 

Besides all that I am waiting for warmer weather to get some shit done outside.

 

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Giving a bump and positive thoughts to what I believe to be the realest thread on 12oz.  This should be one of the most active threads but the realities it covers are too harsh for many to want to entertain for long.  I also want to recognize the risk you've taken in sharing openly.  We do have people who occasionally choose to act like aholes and while I hope this is a line they would not cross, it is the interwebz and those people have shown few boundaries.  Anyhow, nothing but good positive thoughts for you on my part.

 

Hoping some Oontzers got in touch w/ you privately but want to give mention to something that came up some months ago.  People were noting you weren't on here, and there was discussion between people being hopeful you're out living your best life vs the awkwardness of how would they know, and not wanting to initiate contact with people if it was going to be bad news.  I guess people were hoping no news is good news, but were also wanting to know how would they know or find out if... I imagine you have someone designated to let people know in the event you're not able to, but the people on here who know you might find some reassurance knowing someone would tell them if something happened.

 

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