destroya 2 Posted May 4, 2003 Share Posted May 4, 2003 i often feel like i'm better than those around me for whatever reasons. sometimes, i hate everyone. everyone annoys me. they could be saying the nicest things in the world, and i'd want them to shut the fuck up. other times, i'll think about what they'd look like completely disemboweled; head split open, and all that shit. then i wonder if anyone would miss them. i even wonder how i'd kill them and if i'd torture them or not. what makes it worse, is that i'm a nice, considerate guy. maybe i should've went the bgrloffishal route. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Guest Pilau Hands Posted May 5, 2003 Share Posted May 5, 2003 -i deal with death my own way. i dont go sobbing about it or pour liquor in the ground for homies. i dont even want to think about it. i just want to go about my daily day and try not to think about death. people thinks its rude that i dont cry when someone dies, but i dont think so. i just have my own way of taking it. You know what, I think that TV has really really fucked me up emotionally. I didn't really feel too sad after September 11th. I don't even think I understood the gravity of the whole thing. I wasuptown when it happened too. Watching it on tv somehow made it less real. I've been struggling with that one for a while now. I've been in situations where I could've died, but instead walked away...but I haven't seen anyone killed, or found a dead body. I was supposed to be there that morning for a job interview at a law office in tower one too...but I decided I couldn't skip class again. And my parents were supposed to work Flight 800, but got taken off. weird. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Devilush 3 Posted May 5, 2003 Share Posted May 5, 2003 ^^funny thing is....me too. i think i do understand how emotional it is, but i think i unconsciously choose not to go down that route. i dunno. i just think that i've accepted death?? i'm not sure how to describe it. i think i've accepted things when they happen. our friend died recently (like 3 days ago), and even though i didnt know him that well, i understood that he was gone. but i didnt show any emotion of it. people didnt understand that. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
iloveboxcars 843 Posted May 5, 2003 Share Posted May 5, 2003 i seriously contemplated killing all of my friends at one point or another. i think i might be alittle into hitting and pain type stuff during sex. i kinda hope not though. i am totally full of myself. and i dont know why. i like the way i look when i have black eye liner on. i could never have a 3 some because im scared. im better at being depressed when im happy. i lie alot. for no reason. i get along better with lesbian girls than any one else. it sucks.. but i don't know why it sucks. if i think of more, you will hear it here. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
mr.yuck 2,520 Posted May 5, 2003 Share Posted May 5, 2003 Originally posted by Pilau Hands You know what, I think that TV has really really fucked me up i have seen people get shot and found dead bodies and shit. I have been kidnapped and have been shot at and have had guns stucki n my mouth and have done all types of crazy shit. After a while life just lost all reallity. Im trying to gain a small piece of anything normal back but i know that this is always gonna be a part of who i am. I feel dead inside. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Ronnie Dobbs 0 Posted May 5, 2003 Share Posted May 5, 2003 i used to listen to......... http://www.galaxytheatre.com/archive/jackyl/jackyl009.jpg'> ....jackyl Quote Link to post Share on other sites
atrocks 0 Posted May 5, 2003 Share Posted May 5, 2003 i "----" a few people when i was fifteen in the great american spirit of "me or u"......although i never looked back or bothered to find out the final outcome...it weighs heavy......hahahaha....what ever.... but what really haunts me.....is that i dont trust more than half of the people i know/kick it with....and im not sure i ever will......mainly because of something that i did once to a once very good friend of mine..thankfully the friend never discovered this and never will...now that i dont speak to them......but knowing i am capable of such acts places a great fear in me that any and all can and have no problem doing such things to me....... Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Guest rob deer Posted May 5, 2003 Share Posted May 5, 2003 I fucked a sheep once. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
amItoolate? 0 Posted May 5, 2003 Share Posted May 5, 2003 my roomate had these beads that hung over the door in the hallway, like wooden hippie beads. i hated them. so when he went away for a month and our other roomate moved out, i threw them away and blamed it on our ex roomate. then i found out the beads were a present from his mom who had just died. i still cringe about that one on occasion. IM NOT WITTY philly transplant. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
oldenglish 0 Posted May 5, 2003 Share Posted May 5, 2003 done kicked the closet door in. Esai said i could call him gambino. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Guest willy.wonka Posted May 5, 2003 Share Posted May 5, 2003 my penis has two heads Quote Link to post Share on other sites
oldenglish 0 Posted May 5, 2003 Share Posted May 5, 2003 what you got on my forty homey? Quote Link to post Share on other sites
!@#$% 632 Posted May 5, 2003 Share Posted May 5, 2003 i stopped talking to my friends until they all went away my closest relationships are with graffiti and drugs don't bother me Quote Link to post Share on other sites
oldenglish 0 Posted May 5, 2003 Share Posted May 5, 2003 thanks 12345. that made my day. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
atrocks 0 Posted May 5, 2003 Share Posted May 5, 2003 Originally posted by sadangry I tell the truth all the time because i like to hurt people with it. when my friends talk to me about problems i try to care but i just cant. they are all bullshit. i love my friends, i just cant get the emotions out. i love cocaine when i meet boys i need to know they want me, when i find out they do i dont care if i talk to them anymore. thats why i date assholes, i never know if they care or not. wooah nellaay!!.....another one of thooose huh?....well im sure i can find a nice boy to cheat on u, hit u every now and then, maybe get u coked out and then impregnate u....yeah i know alot of people u would just adore....not me of course...i doubt im your type, but surely i can hook u up..... Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Secret 0 Posted May 5, 2003 Author Share Posted May 5, 2003 I have a really bad shoplifting problem. I can walk out with hundreds of dollars worth of things in one day and never think twice about it. Even people really close to me don't know where I get my money. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Guest willy.wonka Posted May 5, 2003 Share Posted May 5, 2003 arent you handy around christmas time:) Quote Link to post Share on other sites
SteveAustin 2 Posted May 5, 2003 Share Posted May 5, 2003 eh, I had that problem too. now...I'm just a bit over paranoid. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Secret 0 Posted May 5, 2003 Author Share Posted May 5, 2003 Originally posted by sadangry thats why i date assholes, i never know if they care or not. Assholes are definitely a learning experience. When I was 17, this extremely good looking half Mexican half Filipino guy hit on me at a party. He had the big puppy dog eyes, lucious lips, the works... He went to a private Catholic school, so I've never seen him before. We hit it off really well, and eventually ended up making out at the end of the night. He called me a few times afterwards and told me how much he was into me. Little did I know he was MY PREGNANT FRIEND'S BOYFRIEND. Even though she never found out, I never spoke to him again. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
DEE38 16 Posted May 5, 2003 Share Posted May 5, 2003 Shit. Okay. My and a bro-like bestfriend type guy friend of mine that I had who was also my graf partner when i was younger did it at my lil hotel party i had on my 17th birthday. We were drunk, I was sad, he was there, and we loved eachother in a bro-sis way but got nasty that night. I kissed his brother on the cheek. I licked his bestfriend nipple. (all in the same night) Then I started sucking on his toes (my bro-friend dude) in the bathtub bubble bath and we got it on for a long time in the shower. his brother came in and video taped it, and i didnt realize it till a minute later. He had a girlfriend then and a baby. and their married now. She doesnt know. No one really knows. and the video tape is lost, one of the guys took it. Oh, and we fooled around one more time a week after that. man. We're all still homies and act like nothing happened. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
DEE38 16 Posted May 5, 2003 Share Posted May 5, 2003 p.s. last xmas when i went to hawaii, i was at a kareoke joint with my best friend and her boyfriend. well we got drunk. all of us. and uh, i pulled her pants down and licked her kitty, just once.. one lick.. for her boyfriend to see. thats it. oh and we compared boobs. oh and we kiss on new years alot. once with tounge. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Secret 0 Posted May 5, 2003 Author Share Posted May 5, 2003 I've never kissed a girl. I would maybe do it under these circumstances: 1. She has to be extremely good looking. 2. She has to be a complete stranger. 3. I don't want to have anything to do with her ever again. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Guest willy.wonka Posted May 5, 2003 Share Posted May 5, 2003 Originally posted by DEE38 p.s. last xmas when i went to hawaii, i was at a kareoke joint with my best friend and her boyfriend. well we got drunk. all of us. and uh, i pulled her pants down and licked her kitty, just once.. one lick.. for her boyfriend to see. thats it. oh and we compared boobs. oh and we kiss on new years alot. once with tounge. wish i was there come to hawaii secret..i know some hot lesbos..you never have to see them again. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
DEE38 16 Posted May 5, 2003 Share Posted May 5, 2003 I feel you on the bunny story. I mean shit like that that happens when your real young has an impact when you grow up.... and the girl kissing thing is something straight girls do when they're drunk trying to impress people. well most of the time. salud! Quote Link to post Share on other sites
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