lot of people think meditation is sittin goin *ommmm* with they eyes closed, so well done cos already you ahead the game on that one. its about watchin yo *self*. bein aware in the moment. and when an emotion araise, you catch it, before it catch you.
start being more aware of and watchin you thoughts. it aint got to be all day [for real you can't DO that shit all day or it goin to drive you crazy]. but watch you thoughts as they ARISE. then instead of GOIN with them [lettin them TAKE YOU]...stop right there and look at the root of that shit...where it coming from? what YOU got an issue with IN YOU?
like, I feel myself getting angry, out of proportion angry with some shit...I got to KNOW the root of that is me, not the other one....even if it's someone crossing a boundary I got, thats still my shit if my reaction aint cool... and for real, manifest anger is a big weakness if it's beyond yo control. it's givin someone a button they can push anytime they want to watch me blow. fuck that. so instead of goin with the anger [if you got to pull back, you already goin too far into the emotion] STOP. Really, just fucken freeze frame. look at you self instead of the other one. look at your boundary what they crossin. to understand it, you got to get to the ROOT; where the boundary even COME FROM? Why YOU got such a strong reaction? [fuck what the other one did.....you using this for YOU, help you GROW] and slow and sure you gonna come to know yourself, master yourself and no one conquer you again. anger is for babies but when you got it, its a hard nut to crack. I know, cos I used to blow. KNOW YOURSELF. understand your shit. know you every weakness. face up the truth.
if all else failin; couple of things what help you not to blow if you gonna go:
1. anythin I get doin myself thats the same like the shit thats pissing me off when someone else doin it? [you got to be honest here and its an interestin one]
2. is the shit happenin right now big enough to still be thinkin about in a week/a month/a year/ whatever? [stop you getting bent out of shape over fuck all]
