Don you gotta quit that job man. It sucks but id do it now and get it over with before it gets harder. I been in that same position, had a girl who i loved leave me because i couldnt get my shit together. I been sober for a bit of time now, i lost count of days, but shes back with me now. Youll be surprised how life can change and get better and all you have to do is be sober. Get yourself outta that job position man...get yourself a nice little break from alcohol and drugs and your mind will start to clear up. If I can do this shit so can you man..give yourself a chance.
LUGR thanks man that was inspiring.