Habitual social avoider, @work im a very productive person.
However, when I am alone I drink. I live alone and drink alone. Long time 12oz
Lurker hahahahah anyways. This is momth 2 of drinking ahain. First 1800 tequila reposado, that lasted
5 days. Mornings and evenings. Now its vodka afternoons. I know I drink because I want to avoid the emptiness.
Been single 6 years. Just fucking and paying to fuck. I guess that dont float my boat anymore. The time alone has shownme that people are what make you whole. Bit finding good people to be around is hard. I suck at being good to girlfriend, mostly emotional negligence. So she is off being happy. I just drink and wonder the strets at night being victimized by my own pain and emptiness. Might go out tonight might not. Oontzers, I am a broken being.