I would say that my second hand analysis of people that I know would trump your first hand blindness.
Especially when it seems to match the general consensus, including people who have walked in your shoes.
But what do I know.
I'm just some dude standing on the outside witnessing what I've witnessed.
Like I said in my first post, please feel free to "do you".
Cause I'll sure as fuck keep on feeling free to "do me" by pointing and laughing at people like you.