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SMdoubleXL

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  1. I hope you’re able to view this @One Man Banned its the pups opening up wrapped gifts. 78DBF2F6-8AC8-4890-96BE-28D8A173EEB6.mp4
  2. SS of a story on IG I saw yesterday haha
  3. Remembering your password after 17 yrs tho
  4. Thank you @morton you’re so right. (During this time off of work) I have found great value in slowing down and taking real me time. My physical therapy guy is helping guide me. I feel like I’m learning from scratch again. Learning how to think and breathe before I move and to be very conscious in front of my movements, instead of diving in and rushing through-in hopes it just develops as muscle memory. Pretty successful, so far. It’s going to be very important to me to have a routine prior to going to work. I’m learning I don’t have to go HAM at everything I do. Like you said a small simple routine will yield great benefits.
  5. First off can we give out some type of 12 oz MVP award to @mr.yuck for always checkin in on his 12 oz fam? I have been not in a good place mentally. But I fucking force myself to get up. Shower. Brush my teeth. Eat accordingly. Because I know these little tasks (even tho I don’t want to do it) make a big difference mentally. This morning I resorted back to things my mental knows it eases. A bath. And a smoke. (I haven’t smoked in like a month). My daughter’s new beau sent a gift with her to give to me for Christmas. A bath set. And she got me some too. She knows I’m a sucker for this kinda shit. This morning. I forced myself to do the above becaue I had gifts from someone who loves me and thought of me sitting here. Why let it sit there. I took all that shit in the bathroom and had the candles and all. I had to put my mental energy into that as opposed to burning it on all the negative shit. It’s fucking hard but you have to. I feel a million times better. And for some reason we have to keep fuckking pushing. Idk what the reason is but we have to. I have recently considered checking myself in to prevent self harm but something inside me says you have to keep going. what im gettin at, i suppose, is going to to be directed to @Mauler5150 my mind can’t process your posts. I have the attention span of a wet paper towel (It’s me, not you) I admit I don’t read them thoroughly but what I do see is a group of complete strangers from across the globe trying everything they can to convince you to stay here and keep pushing. Focus on those kind of people. They have no ulterior motive they just want you to stay here. Just keep pushin dude.
  6. Sincerely gratitude with these words. silver linings: I’ll know the outcome of my work comp case soon. Win or lose I’ll be able to move past it. It’s not knowing and not knowing how to plan is what is getting to me. im feeling better today and will be able to do something with my kid. She has been able to sleep tho since I’ve been sick which she needs. lost 10 lbs being sick Upon returning to work (which they are throwing me into the gauntlet) I will now become the worker who doesn’t hold up my end of work. I will work slow and to my comfort level. AND-I am still the highest paid hourly amongst them all who needs boobs? still pushing thru. I have to. love you all. Hope your Christmas’s and other holidays have been gentle on you. I appreciate the check in.
  7. -Haven’t worked since July due to injuries sustained at work. -denied work comp (lawyered up; next court date in a few weeks) -denied short term -Unemployment hasn’t kicked in yet (hold up in the system somewhere) -long term finally kicked in Saturday (filed in October. There was a hold up in the system) -breast cancer scare (monitoring) -cervical cancer scare (all good) -the person I always formally complained about not working enough just got the promotion I was told I was getting last April since my evals were the highest in the facility. She is now my super (promotions don’t happen until April but that’s cool) -haven’t seen my kid in a year and a half and she’s here now and I’m so fucking sick I haven’t hugged her yet I know there’s a silver lining. I welcome 2024 with open arms.
  8. Got it. the contrast dye. Makes sense. im glad you’re makin moves!
  9. If it’s too personal I understand but are you being sedated for this? Or is recommending another person to drive just a precaution?
  10. just put this on caught the beginning credits showing the Obamas as producers
  11. the things some guys do for love. Amirite? ha I knew what to expect going in. Read and seen too many spoilers. pretty intense.
  12. My nerves get got on a lot thought the thread name was ‘random thots’ not ‘Tampons for all’ John, Sam, Nick and Jim to name a few lol get over yourselves edit* i have always appreciated my 12 oz fam and its support even if its simple words. if you felt as if I was attacking you, my inbox welcomes you.
  13. Some of you are getting annoying
  14. As the characters? or the actresses themselves?
  15. -Raised by mother only and I dissolved that toxic relationship some 20 yrs ago -found out my dad lived a few blocks over (wasnt told this person was my dad until I asked when I was 16 and living in Vegas already) -16 yr addiction problem (5yrs clean) -ADD -a fucking running to do list of interests/projects/ideas that I fully encompass myself in then drop for no fucking reason but decide to keep around ‘just in case’ yup. Checks all the boxes. and they’re all probably loosely related. I’ve been able to reign my projects in a bit to limiting them to 3. 1 I am finishing (fine tuning/cleaning up etc…) 1 I am beginning (gathering items/planning/etc…) and 1 I am balls deep into. (This one gets most of my attention) *off topic -it’s very tricky but a way to wrangle that ADD for me is to wait as looooooooong as I possibly can to get a dopamine fix. sometimes I make it to 4pm; sometimes 7am. Haha
  16. Picked this up today. we’ll go through this amount for the season and we’re good. have never had it spiked tho Turners is the business.
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