wow. twinky. Judging by your posts you are the result of years of child abuse.
You must have been molested by a doctor at the age of thriteen and have issues with your mother because she wouldn't believe you.
I can just imagine you getting mouth fucked crying by your doctor when you went to get your first physical.
Your anus being brutally violated and having to shamefully tell your mother what happened. you couldnt. You simply felt to ashamed. you believed it was your fault.
It wasnt son,
Go confront the abuser and get some therapy so you can finally move on with your life.