It really saddens me to read all this shit to the point of losing sleep and having to post on this pretentious ass thread. The reality is Bernie is fucking gone, and no one knew his wishes or exactly what was going through his head the last few days before he was taken from us. All we can do is try to piece together the mess that was left behind...
Rarailu was a part of Bernie's life. Love it, or hate it. It is what it is. Rarailu has as much right as anyone to grieve, and post in this thread with out getting any shit from you guys. Not pointing any fingers, but to assume you know what Bernie wanted, or what's best for him now because you were close at some point in time, does not make it so. Bernie was always evolving and progressing at life and at what ever he chose to do. If Bernie wasn't good at something, it was because he didn't care enough about it to try. To box him in into a certain period of his life because that's the way you remember him is borderline insulting the man and what he stood for as a person.
I knew Bernie for 15+ years. I've cried with him, and we've beat the shit out of each other. I've spent birthdays, and christmas' alone with Bernie without our "friends" or families calling either of us. I've seen people that barely knew Bernie look out for him in ways that most didn't, so let's not assume because we don't know someone or they aren't "crew" that they were not dear to Bernie...
Bernie came to stay with me a couple of weeks before he passed, and all I can say is that he was not the same person I knew. The luster was gone from his eyes. He constantly had headphones on in social situations. He was lying to me and making accusations about people I knew wished no ill upon him. Plain and simple, he didn't give a fuck anymore. The same mental state he worked so hard to put in his back pocket was back ten fold. When he went back home, I spoke to Bernie every night til the night he passed. Pleading with him to not regress...
It's funny how Bernie predicted all of this shit. Fair weather friends and people who just didn't give a fuck about him in life, crying and playing the "best friend" role after his passing. I could honestly give a fuck about what you all think about me, but if you don't count, play your positions, keep your 2 cents to yourselves and respect the man. No one on this forum has the right to belittle an others feelings towards Bernie's passing. This isn't a dick measuring contest to see who is down and who isn't. Some of you fucktards need to stop playing graffiti for a sec and wake the fuck up. This is a fucking tragedy, not a social event. If you had the pleasure of being Bernie's friend, appreciate it, cherish it, and learn from it.
- Creeder WGE EPC 17 Gang All Day......
