delta9 here...yes rolling a fat blunt.
well theres been some shit on my mind lately that i needs to get off my chest. well more like a story...a story on friendships.
well me and this cat where really close..we went to highschool together bt started chillin more our senior year. in a sense he taught me the ropes..i smoked my first el with this nigga. we got in the graf game together and would go out and bomb shit it was dope. we even formed a crew. we entered different colleges still had each others back crazy.i knew his fam it was dope. see at the time i felt he was different....a dope artist and a real person. he suffered from social anxiety disorder...he was a shy cat..but was a good looking guy who could pull bitches for sure if he wanted. now this cat had rank amongst the circle of kids we would hang with. well respected...this cat was a genuine and nice guy all around who had morals. a couple years pass and i notice changes in my good friend. he started to get depressed and shit started tweaking out...more irratible i would chief this nigga out blunts all the time and i remember one time he got all pissed for a gram i owed him from when he was selling herb..caught me mad off gueard and shit..i was kinda hurt..that's just one instance..there are others..basically he was becoming more shady with his shit...he would expect to get hooked up but would never hook others up ya know...i was like whatever though...fuck it imma do my thang and shit....he would come up with excuses for his depression..his outlook became one with was negative. i dunno what was the source of his depression probably family maybe because he was thirsty for a girlfriend. i tried helping him, taking him out to parties, bars, basicalling trying hook him up with sum hoes ya know? but this nigga would get CRUNKED..he would drink alot and be too shitfaced to even stand up straight...or he would tweak out and do somthing wierd that would creep the girl out...(peeing on himself, getin too rowdy, acting mad hard and stupid) this type of behavior was at first tolerated by the crew and laughed off..but things started getting crazy...a few months pass i get busy with school and shit..i even get a hot girl who i really like...i think that's when my friend tweaked out dude...one day i get this call and shit my boy is at this party with some people i know...so im like imma roll thru see what's poppin...no theres a whole bunch of people there and shit is lookin cool...when alll of a sudden i see my friend(the one who the stories about)...now this nigga looks fucked up....anyways he makes a big ass scene where he's all cursing me out for no reason...talkin bout i turned my back on him...witch is not true i recalled numerous times trying to tell him to tone down his drinking and get a hold of himself...i might of not been around for a few but your a grown man dog...what you want me to do..well basically the night was all fucked up you now...i never saw him in that light before...it was like mad wierd...i basically now feel wierd about him....like i tried to be cool again but all that's happened....i heard stories that he even talked some shit about mev even told this other crew that we both used to paint with that i'm a lame and they should drop me...i'm like what the fuck....this cat even told this girl i was hollering at a while ago at a party that i sleep around...witch aint true, jealous shit like that.. pretty much everyone in my crew has there fair share of stories with this guy but...basically i cut this cat off...i mean what else could i of done...i confronted his ass and we ended up almost fighting....whatever....he has apologized since then and we are on speaking terms but...i don't fuck around with him like we used too...it's too wierd i don't feel the same way...i feel his true colors were shown to me..currently this cat is on the verge of being a alcoholic...i see him at parties and sit say wassup see how he is doing...that's pretty much it...somtimes i feel like shit...about the whole situation...but everyman is in charge of there own destiny....i think his fam has sent him to therepy...but i dunno...am i at fault??
whatever i wanted to share my story..feel free to share your opinions and similar stories holla
