japillahan

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You, sir, wrote that poetically. Awesome story telling; bummer story. /Thread win

Thank you for your contribution

Also, I've learned that one way to defeat my self-defeating tendencies I need to do what I know is right (but my self-defeating self has me ignore) before I give myself the opportunity to say fuck it. Thinking of reaching out for help? fucking do it now. Thinking of going to rehab/detox? same.

Like 423894 said, it's not something you need to rely on other people to do. It needs to be something you do for yourself. Sounds like you are dating a potential GOOD resource to help your problem, but this person cannot be your sole solution because again, you need to do it for yourself. As far as the physical symptoms go; it seems like you might should consider a detox. It would help put just a little spacetime between the booze and you and from detox you can go from there whether it is inpatient/outpatient treatment or something else. Surround yourself with supportive people, but to beat a dead horse, do it for you and not for them. Best of luck homie keep us posted.

This.

laughing at (mostly) children

Tonight I was at the first non-homegroup, non-commitment meeting I have been to in ages and ages; I went with a friend that went off the deep end not too long ago. It was nice to see faces other than the ones see every week. Helping other people has always helped me, provided I go into the situation in the help-them not help-myself mode. When I honestly go to help them I [inadvertently] help myself. Honesty is key; demons can't hide in the dark. Took a long while to man up and be straight up. These are 2 reasons I go to meetings; but I totally dig it if it ain't your thing, but I'd say worth checking out since its better than the potential alternative

Someone posted this tumbler on the bookface and I thought y'all might get a kick out of it. Not sayin' I'm pro or anti Obama, but feck.. some of my faves: -The jew -The Muslim (you know the crackers are sayin' he's one o y'all right?) but the best is the -wait-that-was-a-female-named-bubba? Hello There, Racists! honorable mention; homeboy who posts his license online

step 8 isn't a step you need to worry about until you finish step 7; and it doesn't sounds like you're there yet. So no worries. It gets easier with time, which is easy to say, but hard to accept it if you're into the instant gratification (I was because I was there too once... still am, just in different ways now). I don't think i got to my 4th step until i was at least about a year sober. Maybe more (not counting my treatment 4th step). Shit's gonna get tough inevitably but that's when I rely on my G.O.D. (group of drunks) to have my back. Some of my best friends are either sober or know what I'm up against and it's best to surround yourself with positivity (If that's your goal). Real recognize real, hang with the winners. Much love and hang in there cause it's worth it.

props. props indeed.

45 british euro things crass rules everyting around me cream get the money

Taking wedding pictures in abandoned buildings; which i've seen a lot of lately. Somehow it doesn't seem right. Abandon all hope?

props to anyone who knows what movie this is from

"Elephants" Adonna Khare; carbon pencil

finally unemployed; got a job at a shop. Not too much wrenching experience, but I speak spanish, which is gold where I am. Now I'll be able to look at the QBP catalog and look at all the stuff I still can't afford from the perspective of a shop employee. Woo.

I would be down but I can't make any promises. Awesome idea; the online non-flesh-and-blood aspect kind of weirds me out but I'm down to try anything out at least once.

Props man that is awesome.

Congratulations man that's huge. I'm pretty lazy so I quit taking the bus and just rode bikes to wherever i needed to go. Then I dealt with a small bike and bike-part-buying compulsion that I have since gotten over (i Hope), but still ride for fun and for getting around. I had to learn to defeat myelf defeating myself because that's all I did before. To get clean and healty isnt just to stop the booze; I had to fix my brain as well as the body. Props yo

I'm glad to hear about people doing well. I decided on october 2nd yesterday that October would be a better month than September. Cousin killing himself, getting a crushing flu, almost failing my last semester at community college (for christ sake) only to have my girlfriend break up with me to top it off. Sucked. That being said, being sober I have much more to be grateful for than to lament about losing. Granted it sucks, but drinking would have only made it worse... Much worse. Time to head off for class and do what I can to not kerplunk my classes. Stay strong y'all