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i admit i would fuck kelly osbourne just to say i did!

where nyc?....probably next week time frame yea feels good to be back to the states, back to beer, back to 12oz, back to my life...

umm right now im still in the states...i will be going on deployment in june...but fortunately for me its not iraq i will be spending it in italy,spain, greece mainly countries of the mediterranian region...which ultimately means alot of drinkin / partying will commence..i dont have to go back to that fucking country for the rest of my life... im going to new york city for fleet week...which means ill be doing parades and stuff like that

thanx man but id break my bank to get everyone drunk.... cuz when i drink i spend alot of money,,,,

yea im that guy....

whats up everyone im sorry i havent been on lately...i just got my internet and computer..majority of the people probably will not recognize me but her i am and on a side note i will be going to new york city for 12 days so if anyone wants to party and shit give me a hollar!...and hook me up with some females too!...i had to ask....

thanks everyone...i was kinda drunk so i apologize for just writing whatever on here.....but it was still the truth but i prob wouldnt have said anything if i wasnt drunk.....yea fuck that b....its kinda funny cuz all her friends wanna hook up with me and they just sold her out.....like 4 of em wanna hook up....which is cool.... and all my friends are telling me to just fuck her and leave one last time........but im not type of guy to do that.....i dunno just never been an asshole......maybe its time to start bein one...that is all

in fallujah.....we were the unit in the middle taking over the city of fallujah....1st bn 8 marines

that i would want to go back......everything is alot more simple out there......out there i dont have to worry about bitches and shit....like my ex...the one i actually cared about....the one who cheated on me while i was in iraq....yea that one....shes over here fuckin with my head...and for me it feels like i just broke up with her the day i came home, im not used to having these feelings and shit....fuck i hate this fucking place....im ready to go back....and people have the fucking nerve to ask me how many people ive killed....people i dont know at a personal level...its used as a fuckin ice breaker....and everytime someone asks me that i actually get somewhat of a flashback/memory of it....and i sit there and the people ask me for their own personal gain/entertainment.....i dont know if they realize it or just dont care but having to be put in that kind of situation where you have to take a life....is the scariest feeling you could ever imagine....because you actually come to the realization that you could die.... drunkin ramblings of a tired soul...... i dont know its like describing the how sex feels to a virgin....

my dad used to always tell me "only a real man can hit a woman...."

okay this is how you make corona red...... buy a 12 pack of corona buy some limes buy some grenadine (cherry flavor) open a bottle of corona add a slice of lime in the bottle....then add enough grenadine that its red...and drink....it also adds flavor to the beer.... now how the people in iraq were.... they are one of the most two faced people i have ever meet...during the initial fight of the city of fallujah we were offering humanitarian aid to civilians and 7 out of 10 of those civilians asking for food tested positive for gun powder residue....they always asked for anything and everything we had....the iraqi people are very dependant and needy ....thats why i really dont see them surviving long.....but at the same i have only seen the very bad parts of the country( every part is a bad part of the country). i guess the best way to put it is.... its like trying to describe how sex feels to a virgin....he will only get an idea of how it is.... i have worked with the az army, navy seals, special forces and some british and independent forces.....i have not seen any nicaraguan forces over there....but it doesnt mean they werent or arent over there.... cameras are allowed as long as you are not taking pictures of anything your not supposed to ( ie. prisoners, intel reports, dead bodies...etc etc)

the reason why they are so clean because most of them are not the boots they were wearing........ the military gives all the personel effects to the family....

and this is us headin home.....

thats me...the shit on the floor is white phospherous...so no touchy..... some buddies shooting a smaw and an m16 with an acog lets just say that we didnt have to worry about anyone snipin' out of that building anymore.... right when we got back from inside the city we saw this sunset.... our setup for christmas..... when santa claus(our chaplain) came to greet us.... a fallujah sunset.... this plane was at the air port in kuwait for our flight home...

i stayed in iraq for about 7 months....yes you can buy your own camera, and yes you can go to the internet everyday and use the phone everyday when ever you want as long as you are not required to do any work.......and in regards to the other question as to how many people i have killed....i dont know but im pretty sure thats not something you ask....its something you accept as the possibility of ability to do so nothing more.....which means id rather not talk about it.

i forgot in what order the pics are in but one is a pic of us convoyin to fallujah....the next one is us actually getting there....the night vision pic is right before we entered the city the blanketed the outside portion of the city with white phospherous thats what that is and the other is when we were patrolling and that street was just an example of what the whole city was.....

ight what kind of pics you want?....i got all kinds

yea we go back in sept. but im looking at the present right now i dont give a shit what happens in a couple of months from now....just enjoying my beer dos equis special lagar corona red (rip marty , he was the one who showed me how to make it...)

yea i just got back from iraq last night and it felt so good to drink a beer and not worry about people shootin at you.....i got some random pics of the deployment if anyone wants to check em out.......

hey whats up everyone im just written asking about what new music has come out the past couple of months?....i heard Nas and tupac have come out with new music....is it good.... some insight on music would be appreciated....

believe this or not but we had the only NY times reporter with our unit...and yes a sniper did die in our unit....3 to be exact...ziolowski...is the one he was probably talking about...the rest died towards the end of the battle... its wierd because i know the reporters they were good people...i remember when they went back to base to send in there pictures they bought us a shit load of ciggerates....they said it was the least they could do...

im just going to say a little something that us as marines think people back home should know....and when i say this i do not direct it at any of you but more to everyone in the states....im well aware of what i got myself into but i just want everyone to appreciate what they have...i wish i can wake up and grab a beer and chill the fuck out on a saturday night with my boys...but i cant when i was in the city there was a day that i was losing 2 friends a day for 4 days......sit there and think about it...it got to the point where i wouldnt want to know who else is dead...because i was afraid it would fuck me up when i should be as clear minded as can be...where not being able to shower for 20 days...shitting in a fucking cardboard box... the fucked up part of this war is that an insurgent with an AK-47 can run into a house and drop his weapon and change clothes pick up a white flag and we cannot shoot at him...(i lost a friend because an iraqi with a white flag crying went up to a patrol of marines and when he got up to them he threw a grenade and killed one of my friends) i want you to sit there and really think about that and actually put a friends face on that marine getting hit with shrapnel all over his face and neck because the iraq had a white flag.... the media take a picture of a dead woman or child and want to the public to believe that what we are doing is completely wrong to begin with.....when in all actuality you have no idea what the fuck happened....the next time you read an article about shit happening out here put yourself in there shoes and ask yourself what you would do? just ramblings of a tired man....

im in 1st battalion 8th marines (an infantry battalion)... the deal with my ex?.......i just let it be i havent talked/written to her since i broke up with her like in july/august time frame..... yea you could say i have seen things i would have rather not seen...shit that keeps me up at night sometimes...im not going to advertize some events that took place because people died and that in itself deserves enough respect.... i got some pictures ill probably hook yall up with....of the city how fucked up it is.... alot of my friends died and i dont want to say anything more than im allowed too but the insurgents didnt expect us coming from the north of the city ill tell you that..... and who says we havent found weapons of mass destruction?? last thing i know was were not releasing anything of that nature to the public.....if weve found anything

hey whats up eveyone i just came back from the city of fallujah....it sucked so much ass but i made it back unharmed if i can sum up what i feel right now i think the word closest would have to be tired...too many close calls....i lost alot of friends...i guess i did my part well how is everyone over here on 12oz havent been on i apologize just gotta take care of these bad guys....well ill be back on from time to time...just given everyone a heads up im still alive.....i guess they cant get rid of me that easily...

as everyone might know im stuck in iraq...well im going back to the very spot no one wants to be...if youve been watching the news you know very well where that is....we got "kill cards" which means its a card that tells your social bloodtype name everything so incase something happens to you other people would know who you are with out much problems....makes me feel all nice and warm inside...because we didnt get those the last time we went to the city were going now...but anywho not going to be online for 2 months.....ill reply for as much time i have online now but afterwards no more posting for awhile by me......latRz