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Too good for your own good.

Discussion in 'Channel Zero' started by oneeightyone, May 31, 2005.

  1. oneeightyone

    oneeightyone Senior Member

    Joined: May 23, 2003 Messages: 1,289 Likes Received: 0
    So it's about 2:30 am, im covered in grease, im pretty sure my car will need major money put in to repair it.

    it's about midnight and i am feeling pretty low, today for some reason made me feel down in life, like when you like a girl and you feel inadequate, well that same feeling, plus the one for the girl, but for your entire life, x3. so i go out for some ice cream and orange juice, because i think it'll make me feel better.

    i get it, im driving back home when i hear my tire die on me, my tire is dead, so i pull over try to change it but realize i have no spare. so here i am at 1am in a dark parking lot by the woods and i dont have anybody. i cant call anybody because for one, all my friends for some reason have scrambled in the past 6 months. i start looking for a 7-11 to get some tire in a can and finally find one, then it starts to rain.

    so im walking back to my car in this deserted parking lot where my car is to put this fucking can into the tire. here i am, depressed already, trying to fix this, i bought two, i unloaded both of them only to realize the tire is off the wheel and it's a big waste of money. so there i am, with nobody to help me. alone, and my cell phone battery is about to die.

    it seems that ive stretched my hand out to a million people, even at this time of the night/ day, if someone called me, i wouldnt leave them hanging. so i look on my list and nobody. nobody is there to help.

    so i say fuck-it, jump in my car and drive home on a busted tire, my tire is probably shot to fuck, maybe the wheel is dented now. i dont care. im pissed, and sad at the same time.

    pretty much after all that rambling of my shitty night,

    i feel that i am too good for my own good, i try to help everyone out, but when i need it nobody is there for me. like i cant take care of myself, that i dont do things for myself as much as for other people.

    i dont know how to change it, nor do i know if i need to change it. i like to help people but when nobody is there for you, then that diminishes your perspective on what good can do.

    oh, and i locked the keys inside the car afterwards.
  2. Grimes

    Grimes Veteran Member

    Joined: Mar 11, 2004 Messages: 5,161 Likes Received: 195
    damn man,hope things will get better,keep your head up
  3. firsttake

    firsttake Member

    Joined: Feb 10, 2003 Messages: 411 Likes Received: 0
    maybe you should go live in new york with hesh and them
  4. Mr. Peanut

    Mr. Peanut Elite Member

    Joined: Dec 2, 2002 Messages: 3,033 Likes Received: 10
    i hear ya brother. i often go out of my way to help people out, then end up being taken advantage of. fuck it though. it doesn't do any good to dwell on shit like that. don't worry about changing yourself. just know you're a good person and fuck the rest.
    sounds like one shitty day though. life seems to go lke that sometimes.
  5. mackfatsoe

    mackfatsoe Veteran Member

    Joined: Oct 8, 2004 Messages: 6,532 Likes Received: 168

    i feel the same way right now.

    except nothing happened to me today.

    sleep it off. im gonna go read a book.
  6. I.C.Shadow

    I.C.Shadow Senior Member

    Joined: Apr 9, 2004 Messages: 1,190 Likes Received: 1
    i feel the same way man, hope you feel better.
  7. Dr. Dazzle

    Dr. Dazzle Veteran Member

    Joined: Nov 19, 2001 Messages: 8,147 Likes Received: 3
    Sounds like one of those days....
  8. droptheknife

    droptheknife Member

    Joined: Feb 29, 2004 Messages: 481 Likes Received: 0
    I gave up trying to help people a long time ago. They just take what they can get and fuck off. Then when it comes to re-paying the favour its all such a big effort for them. Look out for number one mate.
  9. sneak

    sneak Guest

    sods laws.

    looking out for others is all good. it is a nice thing to do, and not everyone takes you for granted...

    ...but still, people always forget to look out for themselves, if you get me.
  10. hopeizm

    hopeizm Member

    Joined: Oct 3, 2003 Messages: 578 Likes Received: 1
    Best advice here, the world has a funny way of dealing with people and everyone gets back what they put in.... good and bad, one day you'll get your good........ keep your head up matey
  11. -Rage-

    -Rage- 12oz Loyalist

    Joined: Apr 12, 2001 Messages: 11,276 Likes Received: 71
    Hey man, sorry you had a bad time.

    Sorry I didn't get a chance to reply to your e-mail in time.
    Hope you found something to do in the city.
  12. Gunm

    Gunm Banned

    Joined: Aug 31, 2003 Messages: 12,427 Likes Received: 2
    the hour before dawn is always darkest
  13. oneeightyone

    oneeightyone Senior Member

    Joined: May 23, 2003 Messages: 1,289 Likes Received: 0
    yea, no problem, i went up there on a whim but next time ill hit you up well before the day tha ti actually go.

    i got into a gang of shit, first and probably the last time i ever try moonshine.

    rarebreed is an okay place, too bad it was closed.

    and LENS,
    yea it is. today im in full effect about to get a show at a gallery.

    lifes a bitch sometimes but you just gotta rough it out and keep on playing.
  14. villain

    villain Veteran Member

    Joined: Jul 12, 2002 Messages: 5,190 Likes Received: 2
    Damn yo...
    Hey why didn't you call me? I was lying in bed, and unbeknownst to me, I was catching a cold from the draft through my window. Maybe I wouldn't have this cold now.
    You coulda put your tire back on the wheel with a flathead screwdriver or something... but that fixaflat only works for really small holes.
    Hope things are better for ya now...
  15. Poop Man Bob

    Poop Man Bob Dirty Dozen Crew

    Joined: Nov 16, 2000 Messages: 10,259 Likes Received: 18
    I'm sorry man.

    Not knowing your full situation, and based on just what you typed, the problem may be with the people with whom you're associating - not yourself.