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SUICIDE CONTEMPLATION AND IT'S LUSTY BEAUTY.

Discussion in 'Channel Zero' started by JoeyLawrence, Mar 25, 2002.

  1. JoeyLawrence

    JoeyLawrence New Jack

    Joined: Dec 29, 2001 Messages: 0 Likes Received: 0
    I really don't know if I'd ever get the guts to kill myself in an instant, but I sure get a sick euphoric feeling from just trying to slowly. Ok, I have had people I know personally commit suicide, and I don't think it's a joking matter, but I'm just wondering if it's normal to think about it so much and try little things like slowly slicing your arm with a boxcutter in the shower or eating a shitload of painkillers and just trying to sleep. I dunno, I just find it somewhat comforting to contemplate constantly instead of consistantly contending. I know this is just another bullshit rambleing thread of mine but fuckit i dont care. i hope people reply like seeking innocsecneese did lasttime when i talked about my fascination with death and suicide when he said something like "just do it and quit talking." but whatever. if you could only see inside my head for like one minute. haha last night me and my good friend jared went to jon benet ramseys house and just lied there in her front yard looking up at the stars. it was a wierd feeling being so close to somewhere where something so traumatic happened to someone. i dunno. i dunno i dunno. maybe i should turn off my melvins cd and go to sleep.

    p.s. im hungry. (again)
     
  2. bug

    bug Guest

    i'm generally lonely because i'm so introverted so i've thought about suicide a lot. but i'm also a fighter, so for me, killing myself would just mean that the world won. and i know that when its me vs. the world, i can fucking win it . i don't even think about suicide anymore.
     
  3. High Priest

    High Priest Elite Member

    Joined: Jan 1, 2002 Messages: 4,928 Likes Received: 3
    I think its normal.. every body gets those little instences where they ponder if its all worth it in the long run... I dont have any problems with getting sick when i think about it as it seems to be a natural occurence.
    Usually when walking near passong cars i get urges to step infront of them or other assorments of the likes, but i dont follow through.

    Suicide seems to bring more pain then it ever does comfort.
     
  4. inkjunkie34

    inkjunkie34 Senior Member

    Joined: Jun 9, 2001 Messages: 1,614 Likes Received: 0
    seek therapy

    junkie/biting seeking's shit
     
  5. ASER1NE

    ASER1NE Veteran Member

    Joined: Oct 15, 2001 Messages: 7,578 Likes Received: 3
    not biting seeking shit , seeking bit it from some other cat on here
     
  6. imported_splint2

    imported_splint2 Senior Member

    Joined: Jun 14, 2001 Messages: 1,571 Likes Received: 10
    i hate talking about it because people always question...like how can you just "try", but it's fucked up...like you said, after slowly doing things to hurt yourself it begins feeling good, like you need it...maybe i am fucked...i take medicine and stuff for it, but the feeling is always in the back of your head.
     
  7. VANDALISTIKO

    VANDALISTIKO Junior Member

    Joined: Aug 22, 2001 Messages: 157 Likes Received: 0
    isnt that why we do graffiti?. i mean damn, not trying to fuck with you man, but if you dont have much will to live then go out and fucking bomb like youve never bombed before, hang off the side of a bridge and do a burner on the side if you aint scared to get a little hurt if you fuck up, suicide has crossed my mind also like every 2 minutes but that's how fucked up i am, i aint gonna do it, id rather travel the nation with no money in my pockets putting little tags here and there, if you got money for medication then what's the deal, i aint got money for aspirin, shit...if you really wanted to do it, then you wouldnt come on here and seeking our support cuz you dont really want to.
     
  8. greedy mars

    greedy mars Guest

    i tell my parents i do graffiti becuase im derpressed all the time.. im surpirised they havent brought me to one of those sikiatrice things
     
  9. shameless self promotion

    shameless self promotion 12oz Legend

    Joined: Mar 7, 2001 Messages: 16,306 Likes Received: 104
    Some of those that were forces are the same that bore crosses!
     
  10. Wilt

    Wilt Guest

    suicide...the easy way out..there's wayyyy to much beauty out there to give in to your own demons.
     
  11. High Priest

    High Priest Elite Member

    Joined: Jan 1, 2002 Messages: 4,928 Likes Received: 3
  12. THEMISHE

    THEMISHE New Jack

    Joined: Sep 3, 2001 Messages: 1 Likes Received: 0
    I think about suicide alot....everytime I try to think about where I'm going to be in a few years my mind always goes blank...I hate my life so fucking much sometimes..sometimes I just sit on my porch, smoking and thinking about all the shit I done that I regret so much.
     
  13. nocalfr8tr

    nocalfr8tr Member

    Joined: Nov 29, 2001 Messages: 371 Likes Received: 0
    Hold the Sanity, please.

    you just gotta have confidence in your abilities. if you believe you can be successful in your business and social life, than you'll be fine. i've thought about the prospect of suicide many times. i dont believe i could follow thru, but i'm curious to find the power thats involved. the pure will to test your own mortality. the blind hope of an empty future. theres so many facets in life that can twist our psyche into unhappiness. but fuck it, you just gotta accept that only you can help yourself survive, and that each day should be cherished like you only have a few left.
     
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