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depression...

Discussion in 'Channel Zero' started by sectorTVA, Sep 16, 2001.

  1. sectorTVA

    sectorTVA Senior Member

    Joined: Jul 8, 2000 Messages: 1,272 Likes Received: 1
    ive been pretty sad since thursday night. heres the deal. ive been living where i live for a year now, and i only have 3 people i can really call friends who live locally. the truth is that im lonely. and when i think about it, ive never really been happy the whole time ive lived up here. its not like i avoid making friends. i talk with people in classes, but the next day they dont even recongnize me as a person. its been like that since middle school, and high school, and i thought college would be different, but it really isnt. im a nice guy and everything, but people just dont seem drawn to talk to me. i dont know why, and it hurts in the worst way when i think about it. ive thought long and hard about it, and i started realizing how lonely i was after a cop was asking me how i got into graffiti. this was a year and a half ago, and this is what i told the cop. i told him that i started graffiti, because i didnt have many friends and i thought graffiti would make me more popular. well it did, but only with graf writters, i dont mind, that, since it seems graf heds are the only people i can realate to. the problem is, after i moved, the new place i reside at has very few graf writters. in fact i dont even know any writters locally. i just know 3 who live in a town about an hour away. so i waste my life away, waiting for days when i drink some alcohol and watch cheesy movies with a friend of mine. i guess im hurt the most by the length of time ive been lying to myself, saying that im happy, when im really not happy at all...it almost brings me to tears when i think about it, and if i actually talk to someone about it ill probably cry...im not asking for any advice, i just needed to be heard i guess, and i feel that the message board would be a good start for getting this shit off my chest. just asking for people to listen.
     
  2. seeking

    seeking Dirty Dozen Crew

    Joined: May 25, 2000 Messages: 32,277 Likes Received: 235
    your not alone bro... perhaps physically, but your not the only going through it...
     
  3. yel 2k

    yel 2k Senior Member

    Joined: Dec 21, 2000 Messages: 1,222 Likes Received: 0
    you could wear an interesting shirt to start a convo or attract people with similar personality. and as for lack of friends sometimes your better off without any.
     
  4. saint

    saint Junior Member

    Joined: Apr 13, 2000 Messages: 167 Likes Received: 0
    understand astrology, understand yourself, understand the world. read up on it. it will help you.
     
  5. platapie

    platapie Guest

    shit that sux man. jus be a tuff guy and punch peopel it usually helps a lil. but in all honesty itll be fine dude jsu be kool.
     
  6. Secret

    Secret Elite Member

    Joined: Apr 20, 2000 Messages: 3,169 Likes Received: 0
    Don't feel bad. I've been bumming really bad too. It's normal to spend less time with your friends as you get older. When you're young, people have similar priorities. Now, everyone's life has different demands....
     
  7. dukeofyork

    dukeofyork Guest

    i know the feeling...
    but when i go out painting, it all goes away.
     
  8. sectorTVA

    sectorTVA Senior Member

    Joined: Jul 8, 2000 Messages: 1,272 Likes Received: 1
    thanks the input...its somewhat good to know that im not alone...i just got back from painting, unfortunately painting is only a temporary fix for problems...takes my mind off things, but not for that long.
     
  9. dr. frink one

    dr. frink one Elite Member

    Joined: Jun 7, 2001 Messages: 3,638 Likes Received: 1
    as long as you have this people will listen. I just wouldn't give up hope you know?
     
  10. Rodney Trotter

    Rodney Trotter Senior Member

    Joined: Aug 23, 2001 Messages: 1,683 Likes Received: 1
    Run away and join the circus.
     
  11. beardo

    beardo Guest

    definately not the only one
     
  12. Fox Mulder

    Fox Mulder 12oz Loyalist

    Joined: Nov 23, 2000 Messages: 12,434 Likes Received: 86
    i know exactly how you feel. like 6-9th grade i was really popular and had lots of girlfriends. then a lot of my close friends moved away or went to different schools.and now 3 years later i want more friends and g/f's. i know what your saying about having people you talk to at school and in class but then not doing anything out of school with them. i think now my problem is that people think that i'm angry when i'm not. i dunno blah
     
  13. inkjunkie34

    inkjunkie34 Senior Member

    Joined: Jun 9, 2001 Messages: 1,614 Likes Received: 0
    unbottle your emotions, for real, i used to hate life until i got a couple of new hobbies, and it helped out alot...just dont do what others do when they dont feel accepted, dont go to raves

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    ya like dages...oh! dogs!
     
  14. asteriskoner

    asteriskoner Banned

    Joined: Aug 13, 2001 Messages: 197 Likes Received: 0
    i know what you mean,it so crazy when you think about all the time you spent with people growing up,and now if you talk/see them once/twice a years thats alot.you spent some much time with these people and you know them inside out,than out of nowhere they are someone new to you,you don't know they are anymore.one of lifes many downfalls i guess
     
  15. T.T Boy

    T.T Boy Dirty Dozen Crew

    Joined: May 18, 2001 Messages: 21,803 Likes Received: 41
    youre not alone. its hard. i know. if you had any idea what i go through everyday, that would make you cry.......
     
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