seeking Posted October 15, 2001 Share Posted October 15, 2001 what have you lost that you cant get back? not a can of black while running from the cops, not your car keys. after your mom stopped dressing you and you began making your own decisions, which ones do you now realize were bad ones? what have you done that you cant undue, but haunts you still? seeking/skeletol closet keeper Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dirty_habiT Posted October 15, 2001 Share Posted October 15, 2001 Hmmmm, bad decisions....not running from the police, when I should have....I lost my time, my patience, my money, my goodwill. Now I'm overwhelmed with legal problems...I wish I could have my life back. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
alkaline Posted October 15, 2001 Share Posted October 15, 2001 I decided to start college at the tender age of 16. I got in over my head and had to grow up fast. I lost two years of goofing around. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Dusty Lipschitz Posted October 15, 2001 Share Posted October 15, 2001 what have i lost that i can't get back? 2 things my dad my childhood no doubt my dad died when i was 10 an anniversary just passed and i miss him deeply my childhood i would give up my left nut to be 5 again, and be able to grow up again... i dont know if i would do anything different other then enjoy the growing up experience. i wish i never went through life wishing i was older. everytime i got older, there were more responsibilities, and i lost innocense. thats one thing i wish i had back. my youthful innocence and ignorance. no cares on the world. no bills. no bosses. no girls stressin me out. just hanging around the neighborhood being a kid... what would i do different? nada nothing i have come to the conclusion that i needed to go through and experience everything i have in my life to reach this point. and i love this point. i like the person i am and have become. and i beleive i have only gotten here because of the trials and tribulations i have survived. sometimes i think its a really selfish thought, because i have put alot of loved ones thru so much shit. but i have talked to them about it and they agree with me. not a bad deal. my .02 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest imported_Tesseract Posted October 15, 2001 Share Posted October 15, 2001 to many... I've done a lot of stupid things concerning girls,but somehow that seems to amuse me (victim or victimizer) rather than hunt me. The most terrible things i've done took place when i was a kid.Those hunt me in a way.They remind me that when out of focus,i am capable of really odd things and desicions. From my adult life the thing that hunts me the most is something that happenned 3 years ago.I was in a very rough situation and the fact that i couldnt say "fuck y'all" and face despair while figuring out the next move made me stick to that situation and suffer for a long time in the "hands" of people that had power on me and abused it all the way. I dont know,sometimes i cant really make a difference between being good and being a victim. By the way...i broke my nose an hour ago...stuck my head on a glass door,shit was weird i didnt knew what hit me.The way you react in situations like that is very important.Your reflex could be the only guide you can have sometimes. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
-Rage- Posted October 15, 2001 Share Posted October 15, 2001 Damn, I thought this was about the new Starting Line EP..oh well. Anyways, I don't think I would have changed anything. ALl the stuff that I did and that happened to me happend for a reason. No point in dwelling in the past. Live for the moment, don't ever regret. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Remy Martin Posted October 15, 2001 Share Posted October 15, 2001 my sanity. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
seeking Posted October 15, 2001 Author Share Posted October 15, 2001 im not asking what you would change, im asking what things have deeply effected you in perhaps a negative sort of way. what have you done that has made your life harder. and im not talking about getting busted once for bombing a stop sign. im talking serious shit here. shit that has made you who you are. we all have fucking defects otherwise we wouldnt be on this board talking about the stuff we do. come on... open up a little bit. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CATS Posted October 15, 2001 Share Posted October 15, 2001 Several rash decisions have left me to contemplate if I have been making wrong choices all my life. I remember growing up and always having to stand up for what I believed in. Being stubborn I have lost close friends that I should have treated with more care and respect. I think about those friends who passed away and that they could be watching me"depending on religious values" All in all I wish I had been able to treat everyone who deserved it with more respect. Now I have to think of the what could have beens. Like in a Bronx Tale, Every guy get three really special women in his life. I too think I had all of mine already. :( Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
boogie hands Posted October 15, 2001 Share Posted October 15, 2001 exactly i was going to list something but thinking back on it i learned a few valuable lessons and regardless of being momentarly robbed of my integrity i emerged a better person for it, from that point on it was the begining of my life....i still hope that person is face down in a creek right now but thats besides the point:D i would have to agree somewhat with dusty....i started working as soon as i was fourteen thanks to a company that was violating certain labor laws....while all my friends were off fucking around playing pee pee touch with the little girls i was on the job, working away the last 4 years of my youth....then again looking at all those people im kind of glad i did that too....oh well, such is life Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Remy Martin Posted October 15, 2001 Share Posted October 15, 2001 as gay as this sounds. i lost my innocence way young. i regret dropping out of ninth grade and being a jr thugscout. i regret dissing my fams. i regret becoming a alcholic. so now ima part vampire ink paint pain user as stated previous. and im crazy to. sanity was nice. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Remy Martin Posted October 15, 2001 Share Posted October 15, 2001 oh yeah, i write regrets Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
T.T Boy Posted October 15, 2001 Share Posted October 15, 2001 nice post seeking, the title sounds so familiar..... whats it from? a title of a cd i think? theres alot i thought i would have changed. but now looking back at it, it actually changed my life in a way that would not have been possible the way i was living. being in trouble with the law, things that have happened within my family, things with friends, and things with my girlfriend. i miss my freedom, but isolation has given me a chance to find myself and change my life, and its all been for the better. and im happy with it. i just miss the friends whove passed on at such a young age, and all the people ive know whove passed. i wish they were back, but that wont happen. i just miss people that have left me living and dead. but if i could do it all again i wouldnt change a thing. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
T.T Boy Posted October 15, 2001 Share Posted October 15, 2001 well since i cant edit my post cause im not a registered user, ill make a new one. things that have affected me in a bad way...... i regret becoming an alcoholic. drinking away everything i have. ending up broke almost the same night i got paid. i regret getting drunk so much that my family didnt know who i was anymore. i regret ignoring and turning away from the peopl who love me.... losing them was the hardest part. i regret thinking i was some sort of bad ass when i was drunk and hurting people for no reason. i regret stabbing that kid in the face while drinking. ive lost everything because of that shit. alcoholism is such a hard thing to deal with. and its brought me so much hardship. but im proud to say ive mended things with my family and those around me, and am slowly talking to people who i was mean to again. im also proud that ive cleaned up my act and am clean again, and gotten rid of that addiction. these things still haunt me...... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dirty_habiT Posted October 15, 2001 Share Posted October 15, 2001 I think, also, I may not have taken so much LSD....I can only realize the effects now, if I could have only seen them then...I am permenately changed. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
inkjunkie34 Posted October 15, 2001 Share Posted October 15, 2001 bad decisions bad decisions...christ, there are so many to choose from...lets start out with the most recent. Not running from the fat fucking cops who in no way wouldve ever been able to catch me...now i got a court date on halloween...you know i'm fucked. then moving in with my girlfriend....totally ruined our relationship....so...think long and hard or think fast when it counts... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dik.n.ur.ear Posted October 15, 2001 Share Posted October 15, 2001 Originally posted by Dirty_habiT I think, also, I may not have taken so much LSD....I can only realize the effects now, if I could have only seen them then...I am permenately changed. YOURE? permanently changed?!? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dirty_habiT Posted October 15, 2001 Share Posted October 15, 2001 Yea, I used to be a little more down to earth and sane...but now, my thoughts seem to be inter-planetary most of the time...I think it was the acid.:eek: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
serum Posted October 15, 2001 Share Posted October 15, 2001 i regret not learning social skills. i played by myself too much maybe but now i have to force myself to be social. i wish i didnt have to be drunk to approach a girl. also i have chosen to be too emotional about everything. this is a bad decision for a cold ass world. i want not to care when people are assholes to me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lush Posted October 15, 2001 Share Posted October 15, 2001 I've never felt young and carefree the way all my friends have. I've worked since I was 14, moved out at 18, and started college. I never felt like a kid, because I never had anything in common with the children my age. I don't miss my childhood. I never wanted to socialize with kids my age, so working didn't bother me. At least I was with older kids. That may have affected certain events in my life. I started smoking and drinking at a very young age, and drugs followed closely. I always used in moderation though, so I was never an addict, and didn't become a vegetable like all the others. I have always been headstrong, and rarely back down, which caused some family troubles. They were all smoothed over and buried through the miracle of therapy. I do miss my father rubbing/scratching my back as I would go to sleep as a child. It seems as kids, mainly in North America, get older the intimacy we have with our parents dissipates. It becomes gross, and we look at people who do keep that bond as perverts. I rarely even hug my father now. We still love each other, but we've lost something I don't thinkw ill ever come back. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest platapie Posted October 16, 2001 Share Posted October 16, 2001 i dont regret to much i have lived my life pretty good so far. but i do wish i finished school andtryed harder there. oh and as gay as this sounds and i no alot fo you feel the same way about someone but i think i played my cards all wrong with one girl in my llife who i still am very much in love with. at least were freinds i guess. whoa like sad now. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
*see-phore* Posted October 16, 2001 Share Posted October 16, 2001 my mommy and if i could go back i would have treated her better.and understood what she went through. dayne b. i wouldve been on better terms with him at the time. i definetly would have paid attention in school when i was younger,if i knew how rough shit would get later. that flat black i lost cause of the stupid cops,and my car keys. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
George Dubyah Bush Posted October 16, 2001 Share Posted October 16, 2001 Originally posted by platapie whoa like sad now. hah...........damn. well, ............my major ex girl, I'm kinda glad that i've gotten over any positive or negative feelings towards her. Its more like neutral, and..........eh i've been having alot of dreams of her, so i don't know what that means. eh, oh well. Happyness is solitude is something hard to grasp. hold on while you can. as for changing anything, i wouldn't. All the events in your life make who you are no? and i am happy with that as well.........hah:dazed: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AeRoS0ul Posted October 16, 2001 Share Posted October 16, 2001 I miss the days i could play inside a cardboard box....dont quite fit anymore. I miss my dad. I regret not fully apreciating people till they move away, or leave my life by other means. not practicing guitar hours on hours every day, mixing up my prioritys..... :::sigh::: damn...its bittersweet. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fr8oholic Posted October 16, 2001 Share Posted October 16, 2001 there's a lot man but it's far too personal to air on this shit. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tow up from tha flow up ! Posted October 16, 2001 Share Posted October 16, 2001 I don't regret when something bad in my life happened, but I regret that for a long time when something bad happened I would close myself off and misdirect the anger or saddness at other things. I spent a lot of time between the ages of 11-15 thinking I was depressed about national and worldly happenings, thinking that my family wasn't important, and my life was too petty to be concerned about. When in reality I was depressed because after a tramatizing expierience (that I won't get into details about) I had closed myself off, pushed everyone out of my life, and refused to deal with the real issues at hand. I guess it was easier to be stimulated by zines and punk/hardcore shows and think about broad spectrum ideas like anarchy, communism, abortion, racism, facism, capitolism, etc. with a bunch of strangers, then to let myself be a real victim in front of the people who really loved me. I've always felt that it's selfish to act sad or ask for help from anyone, and I regret that sometimes instead of asking for help I inadvertantly build up a resentment to the people closest to me for my own inability to deal with emotions. Damn. That's the first time I've actually ever clarified that thought to myself or to anyone else. Thanks Doc, I think I've reached a real growing point. :D Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lush Posted October 16, 2001 Share Posted October 16, 2001 Originally posted by aerosoul I regret not fully apreciating people till they move away, or leave my life by other means. I hear that one. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
metallix Posted October 16, 2001 Share Posted October 16, 2001 i regret fucking my *best* friends x-girlfriend. big mistake. being shy, not being more social and outgoing, being timid often. not making more out of my high school experience (grade wise) some other various shit Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
iphs Posted October 16, 2001 Share Posted October 16, 2001 i've lost part of myself... but gained another self..conscious of that lost.. i just remember that tomorrow never comes. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
garcia_vega Posted October 16, 2001 Share Posted October 16, 2001 i try my best to never regret my actions and trust in a greater plan, but overall i feel all the worst decisions i've ever made involve girls. they bring out the worst in me. most of the hardships i've ever faced were beyond my control, but the most pain i've brought on myself is definitely getting hung up on the wrong girls, breaking girls hearts who were good to me, setting myself up for heartbreaks. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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