1. Welcome to the 12ozProphet Forum...
    You are currently logged out and viewing our forum as a guest which only allows limited access to our discussions, photos and other forum features. If you are a 12ozProphet Member please login to get the full experience.

    If you are not a 12ozProphet Member, please take a moment to register to gain full access to our website and all of its features. As a 12ozProphet Member you will be able to post comments, start discussions, communicate privately with other members and access members-only content. Registration is fast, simple and free, so join today and be a part of the largest and longest running Graffiti, Art, Style & Culture forum online.

    Please note, if you are a 12ozProphet Member and are locked out of your account, you can recover your account using the 'lost password' link in the login form. If you no longer have access to the email you registered with, please email us at info@12ozprophet.com and we'll help you recover your account. Welcome to the 12ozProphet Forum (and don't forget to follow @12ozprophet in Instagram)!

about my life

Discussion in 'Channel Zero' started by HESHIANDET, Jun 8, 2004.

  1. HESHIANDET

    HESHIANDET Guest

    about my life

    Discussion started by HESHIANDET - Jun 8, 2004

    so ive decided that part of me wants to be where i am doing what im doing (trying toi break into the real world for a minute, stack some chips). but the other part of me is going crazy cause i'd much rather be hustling jetting on a whim and doing what I WANT to do. sometimes i feel like i let my feelings and othwers feelings controll my decisions and that makes me feel weak and a sellout to myself. feel me?
     
  2. ClueTwo

    ClueTwo 12oz Veteran Member

    Joined:
    Nov 30, 2001
    Messages:
    9,016

    ClueTwo - Replied Jun 8, 2004

    I chose the straight and narrow...
     
    ClueTwo - Rank: 12oz Veteran Member - Messages:
    9,016
    - Joined:
    Nov 30, 2001
  3. imported_El Mamerro - Replied Jun 8, 2004

    You and I both hesh, you and I both. So far this year option 2 has been winning. It has to end soon, and it sucks.
     
  4. <KEY3>

    <KEY3> 12oz Veteran Member

    Joined:
    Mar 24, 2004
    Messages:
    6,878

    <KEY3> - Replied Jun 8, 2004

    make those chips but keep the hustle running on the back burner.

    and just think... a few years of doing it the right way
    can buy you a lot of credit to put towards other shit.

    I one year from now I'll be in a totally different financial spot (rich, not broke)
    and then there's way more freedom if you choose to jet.
     
    <KEY3> - Rank: 12oz Veteran Member - Messages:
    6,878
    - Joined:
    Mar 24, 2004
  5. !@#$%

    !@#$% Moderator Crew

    Joined:
    Oct 1, 2002
    Messages:
    18,516

    !@#$% - Replied Jun 8, 2004

    i made the best of both.

    got my degree and my super ill career job
    still got all my crazy ass hustles, habits and hobbies

    my own definition of success
    life on my own terms.
    it took a long time and a lot of work to get here.
     
    !@#$% - Rank: Moderator Crew - Messages:
    18,516
    - Joined:
    Oct 1, 2002
  6. HESHIANDET

    HESHIANDET Guest

    HESHIANDET - Replied Jun 8, 2004

    man im trying. i just dont feel like im doing things for me.
     
  7. Dusty Lipschitz - Replied Jun 8, 2004

    i hope ive ended, or end up, like @#$%

    in the end, do what makes you happy.
    realize though, what makes you happy today, may not in a month or year, so be willing to be openminded and change.
     
  8. <KEY3>

    <KEY3> 12oz Veteran Member

    Joined:
    Mar 24, 2004
    Messages:
    6,878

    <KEY3> - Replied Jun 8, 2004

    it doesnt feel like you're 'doing it for yourself'.

    even a shit job that pays next to nothing can
    be the right thing to do if you're smart and focus your energy.
    Build up shit while you're stuck there so that when
    you get out... you've got reserves to tap.

    oh... and stay away from the ski...
    only after being out for 3 weeks have I noticed just how fucked up it makes you.
     
    <KEY3> - Rank: 12oz Veteran Member - Messages:
    6,878
    - Joined:
    Mar 24, 2004
  9. Vanity

    Vanity 12oz Veteran Member

    Joined:
    Apr 11, 2000
    Messages:
    7,673

    Vanity - Replied Jun 8, 2004

    i'm not a stupid guy... but i don't really grasp wtf you're talking about.

    if it's about controlling your impulsive actions, i can't help you.

    if it's about something else, please clarify.
     
    Vanity - Rank: 12oz Veteran Member - Messages:
    7,673
    - Joined:
    Apr 11, 2000
  10. <KEY3>

    <KEY3> 12oz Veteran Member

    Joined:
    Mar 24, 2004
    Messages:
    6,878

    <KEY3> - Replied Jun 8, 2004

    I think it's about 'working for the man'
    instead of 'making it for self' even if the second option is more like 'fucking around'
     
    <KEY3> - Rank: 12oz Veteran Member - Messages:
    6,878
    - Joined:
    Mar 24, 2004
  11. Weapon X

    Weapon X 12oz Loyalist

    Joined:
    Sep 6, 2002
    Messages:
    14,905

    Weapon X - Replied Jun 8, 2004

    Makin’ the money without the coca
    Livin’ the vida without the loca
     
    Weapon X - Rank: 12oz Loyalist - Messages:
    14,905
    - Joined:
    Sep 6, 2002
  12. HESHIANDET

    HESHIANDET Guest

    HESHIANDET - Replied Jun 8, 2004

    its more about living w/ a girl and how that came to be........
     
  13. Weapon X

    Weapon X 12oz Loyalist

    Joined:
    Sep 6, 2002
    Messages:
    14,905

    Weapon X - Replied Jun 8, 2004

    then perhaps these lyrics don't pertain...

    verything is bleak.
    It’s the middle of the night.
    You’re all alone and
    the dummies might be right.
    You feel like a jerk.
    My music at work.
    My music at work.

    Avoid trends and cliches.
    Don’t try to be up to date.
    And when the sunlight hits the olive-oil,
    don’t hesitate.
    The night’s so long it hurts
    My music at work.
    In a symbol too far
    or the anatomy of a stain;
    to determine where you are,
    in a sink full of Ganges, I’d remain -
    No matter what you heard
    in my music at work.
    My music at work.
    My music at work.

    I call it, ’Olga Waits;
    The Cloud That Entertains
    The Dim Possibility of
    Showing Some Restraint.’
    The rain came down berserk.
    My music at work.
    My music at work.

    On a star beyond the chart
    or the dark side of a drop of rain.
    determining where you are,
    in a sink full of Ganges, I remain -
    No matter what you heard.
    My music at work.
    My music at work.
    My music at work.

    La-la-la-la-la-la.
    La-la-la-la-la-la-la-la.
    La-la-la-la-la-la.
    La-la-la-la-la-la-la-la.

    Everythng is bleak.
    It’s the middle of the night.
    You’re all alone and
    the dummies might be right.
    Outside, the darkness lurks.
    My music at work.
    My music at work.

    Hey fallen hummingbird,
    my music at work.
    From the middle of the earth,
    my music at work.
    Bound for bed without dessert,
    my music at work.
    My music at work.
    My music at work.
     
    Weapon X - Rank: 12oz Loyalist - Messages:
    14,905
    - Joined:
    Sep 6, 2002
  14. !@#$%

    !@#$% Moderator Crew

    Joined:
    Oct 1, 2002
    Messages:
    18,516

    !@#$% - Replied Jun 8, 2004

    relationships can take on a life of their own.

    if it's getting to be too much, take off for a week or so to see friends.

    the shit takes work.
    it's hard and compromise is needed.

    i've been living alone for a few months and i really enjoy it... it also gave me the room i thought i'd need before i start to get really settled into another serious relationship..

    it took years of madness, self-sacrifice and work to make some of my relationships work.
    they weren't all worth the effort
    but i learned a lot.
    and i won't make the same mistakes again.

    i had some good times living with my guys.
    but it wasn't always a bowl of cherris, fo sheezy.
     
    !@#$% - Rank: Moderator Crew - Messages:
    18,516
    - Joined:
    Oct 1, 2002
  15. CIPHER_one

    CIPHER_one 12oz Senior Member

    Joined:
    Jul 3, 2000
    Messages:
    2,300

    CIPHER_one - Replied Jun 8, 2004

    well, there's two debates going on.

    1. Work hard for a while in order to acheive something greater or go out on the road and take things as they come, experience as much as you can, etc. etc.

    2. Do things for yourself or for others.


    For #1, I'm going to have a tough time working that out when I'm out of school as well. I can't really help you there. Although, I do imagine a happy medium can be reached.

    For #2, I don't think there's any question. Always do things for yourself. Don't try to please others, only keep yourself in mind...as far as choosing where you want your life to go is concerned.
     
    CIPHER_one - Rank: 12oz Senior Member - Messages:
    2,300
    - Joined:
    Jul 3, 2000