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Discussion in 'Channel Zero' started by T=E=A=S=E, Feb 4, 2005.

  1. T=E=A=S=E

    T=E=A=S=E Elite Member

    Joined: Mar 27, 2004 Messages: 3,271 Likes Received: 0
    ok, i was going to get a new screenname, and type out my thread under that name to avoid the lame ass disses and what not that i get in my threads, but i figured id do one more serious one before giving up hope on everyone here.

    so anyways, ive been thinking about who i am and my life and my personality and all of that good stuff, and wondering why im so angry lately. i mean, over the past couple of months ive been super hateful, and angry and pissed off and just getting really annoyed over shit that i know i should just be brushing off.

    now, these problems are probally due to the pussy depression that im going through, the lack of friends, and the "social life" that is non existant and i guess you could throw in a huge lack of fun in my life as well, not to mention i think i am materialistic as fuck (its the only thing that makes me happy for a breif moment) which i just have come to realise as of late.

    but also, i have been kinda racist lately (not really but you know, annoyed more by certain races antics an shit) and the main reason behind that shit is for the longest time i involved myself with a lot of things from other cultures, (not trying to act like im black or mexican or anything) but taking the + 's out of their culture and adapting some of the things to my life because i also enjoyed them (like music, food, style of dressing (no not fubu) ...etc) and it came to a point where, no matter how cool i was with certain people of different races, whenever i ran into other people of those different races, its like id have to fight to be accepted all over again, and i hate that shit.

    so i gave up on it. its like, im going to do what i want, say what i want, and be me, and if they got a problem with that, fuck umm. that being said though, ive been hella resentful i guess towards certain people of different races beasically because they judge me based on certain things instead of accepting me for the person i am, just like they probally get judged by sometimes as well. i dunno, but that shit pisses me off.

    another thing, for some reason, when i meet new people, its like they're intimidated by me, or something to that affect. like, ive noticed that some people at work, whether it be a guy or a girl on my various teams, are hesitant to come up and approach me, or talk to me and i dont know why. i mean im not scary looking and im not a total asshole right off the bat, so im wondering why im so unapproachable?


    so basically, what im getting at is, are you guys frusterated with life like i am lately? do you have a hard time making friends or aquantences (sp?) ? ...are you as angry or mad at the world as i am? are you guys in a pussy depression? i mean what the fuck am i doing that is so wrong and backwards that i can be so off track from everyone else, or so it seems, i just dont get it.

    /babbling over.
  2. Tough Love

    Tough Love Senior Member

    Joined: Oct 10, 2004 Messages: 1,894 Likes Received: 2
    man its all good. i go through stuff like that sometimes too, its normal i think. Race antics piss me off, but i just look past the race and realize diff. races pull the same stuff that bugs me, so w/e. As for people not approaching you, this was an issue for me to some extent. but i think i dealt with it in a good way. really, what you have to do is think of meeting new people as nothing more than just saying whats up and small talk and shit....i guess dont expect too much out of it right away, and things will build up over time (with respect to any kind of deeper friendships and stuff u want). as for being unapproachable, what really pays off is how ur feeling inside. if u feel like shit and are sad, people will pick up on it and not talk to u.....i used to be like that all the time, but i think i just realized i had it pretty good compared to a lot of other people, so i just brushed off the little things that bugged me. If u seem like ur in a good mood, and ur happy, u will eventually truly feel that way too, and other people will see it, and want to approach u and stuff. it takes time but it works. I think it has something to do with empathy, like the reason chicks (and some guys) cry at sad movies...cuz they feel the same way as the movie is..i hope u get what i mean cuz its kind of hard to explain and im not putting much thought into it....

    as for being happier, iono its a toughy, it could be all sorts of things in your immediate environment that are contributing to it, so i cant really tell you how to change things around... sorry brah

    excuse the bad grammer/spelling
  3. 2 blaazed

    2 blaazed New Jack

    Joined: Jun 28, 2002 Messages: 0 Likes Received: 3
  4. Dr. Dazzle

    Dr. Dazzle Veteran Member

    Joined: Nov 19, 2001 Messages: 8,147 Likes Received: 3
    It's amazing how nothing has changed with you in the 5 years or so I've known you.....
  5. El Producto

    El Producto Senior Member

    Joined: May 6, 2004 Messages: 1,682 Likes Received: 0
    yeah life sucks at the moment...but what can you do about it???

    shit happens
  6. T=E=A=S=E

    T=E=A=S=E Elite Member

    Joined: Mar 27, 2004 Messages: 3,271 Likes Received: 0
    im improved a lot in the time that you've "supposively known me" and im sure youre aware of that. plus, problems such as the ones ive listed dont just stop and go away forever when you solve them for a brief moment in time. they can come back, which again, you know that.

    tough love-

    ...ive heard that before about you got to be happy within, and people pick up on that and want to be around that. i guess i have been kind of pouty lately and annoyed. but thats mainly because everyone around me is so fucking happy and carefree looking, i feel like there is a secret party going on and im the only one not invited. plus everyone else at work seems to have a boyfriend/girlfriend and they seem to be getting ass on the regular (again, so it seems).

    im always looking to improve and better myself, but it seems to me that ive tried every piece of the puzle and still nothing is panning out for me. its frusterating.
  7. duh-rye-won

    duh-rye-won Member

    Joined: Aug 8, 2001 Messages: 580 Likes Received: 2
    i'm getting frustrated with how you spell frustrated.
  8. effyoo

    effyoo Elite Member

    Joined: Sep 2, 2002 Messages: 4,703 Likes Received: 0
    stop worrying about how much pussy you're getting and just chill out. have some fun. stop giving a shit, it works wonders.
    and if people find you unapproachable, smile more. it works.
  9. duh-rye-won

    duh-rye-won Member

    Joined: Aug 8, 2001 Messages: 580 Likes Received: 2
    and tease, ass is so overrated. last night i found myself thinking that i wished my girlfriend wasnt at my crib so i could watch porn.

    you got it made, son!
  10. DETO

    DETO Dirty Dozen Crew

    Joined: Apr 25, 2002 Messages: 11,348 Likes Received: 155
    quitski, is right. sometimes, you're just like, no, i don't want sex. just give me some dome while i watch cartoons.
  11. bathoræ

    bathoræ Member

    Joined: Jun 12, 2003 Messages: 529 Likes Received: 0
    tease, it sounds like you're depressed. Not severely or anything, just mild depression... Get some exercise, get out in the sun as much as you can, go out and do something (other than the internet, or if that's a must, then find somewhere besides your house to do that... go to the library or something)
    quitter, it sounds like you need a girl who will watch porn with you...
  12. Gunm

    Gunm Banned

    Joined: Aug 31, 2003 Messages: 12,427 Likes Received: 2

    excercise more.

    we all go through this at some time or another....don't sweat it.
  13. Poop Man Bob

    Poop Man Bob Dirty Dozen Crew

    Joined: Nov 16, 2000 Messages: 10,259 Likes Received: 18
    If you're still on your parents health insurance (if they have it), you might want to go and talk with with a counselor or therapist. If you've been this upset and down for a while and can't seem to figure out how to solve it, there's nothing wrong with talking to someone who helps people in your situation fulltime. You need to do something, though, seeing as though what you've tried doesn't seem to be working.
  14. krs702

    krs702 Senior Member

    Joined: Jul 6, 2000 Messages: 1,212 Likes Received: 0
    reserved ass niggas

    tease, the best thing you can do is grow off your pain bc you'll keep drowning in misery - nothing can come out, in your situation.

    if you can't reach a solution on your own talk to someone and it doesn't have to be a counselor - say family, a close friend?
  15. T=E=A=S=E

    T=E=A=S=E Elite Member

    Joined: Mar 27, 2004 Messages: 3,271 Likes Received: 0
    thanks for the replies so far, keep them coming.

    as far as being depressed goes, i used to be real depressed from age 19-21ish or so, but im pretty muhc over that. I realise life is tuffer than i probally imagined a few years back, and im adjusting and everything, that's not really my problem.

    my problems now are just not knowing what im doing wrong as far as making friends go, and dont get me wrong now, i think 89% or more of the people i know at work all love me and think im a cool guy an shit, but there are still some of those people that you view as being "cool" or the hotter girl types that you wish would come up to you or atleast make you feel more intrigued to go up to them etc that aren't doing so, which makes me feel like im doing something wrong because im so unapproachable.

    meaning, i see the same people who wont give me the time of day or come up to me, go up to other people, which makes me feel like im doing something wrong.

    i know my foul language is kind of bad, especially in the work place, but in some instances i cant help that shit. and ill just have to disreguard those who cant handle that.

    but yeah... ive talked to a counselor before back when i was in college, and it was very fun, really helps you get everyting off your chest.

    however the guy was a fruit, he kept trying to get me on depression meds and asking if i was gay or abused an weird shit like that, dude was a quack.