NightmareOnElmStreet Posted September 19, 2017 Share Posted September 19, 2017 Decy. I dropped out of college over depression. My entire life was set back for years over depression. I lost friends and jobs and a bearded dragon because of fucking depression. Drinking doesn't help. Rap letters make things easier, until you get popped and end up in jail only to increase said depression. This shit sounds depressing as fuck, and i know it. But the point here is this. Fuck that shit. I know how fucking hard dealing with that shit can be and i still do. The only thing that works is what works for you and you alone. But you gotta find that thing first and foremost. Staying active and over riding the desire to mope alone in bed is key. A simple walk is a beautiful place to start. Peace and stay up! 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
One Man Banned Posted September 19, 2017 Share Posted September 19, 2017 Few quick thoughts here... Exercise is one of the best counters for depression. I can explain why if you don't believe that. In most cases it is not a cure for depression, but it helps a bunch. @Hua Guofang and anyone else who thinks you can't offer advice because you haven't dealt with depression, I would say you still have a lot to offer. What about the opposite side- happiness or contentment? Maybe you have ideas on how to acchieve or maintain that. On drinking- the obvious best method is to not drink, but how you do that is up to you. To expect someone to turn off one day and never go back sounds great, and some people do that, but the majority of people do stumble here and there along the way. If you put your pants on every morning right leg first, and I tell you starting tomorrow you're going left leg first every time, I can bet your right leg will still find its way there first quite a number of times before you fall into a steady habit of left leg. It can also be a matter of perspective. You said you hung out, had a drink or two, and felt good about that, so feel good about exercising control in that particular situation. After that the rest was a matter of choices- you could have bought or left the whiskey. You could have bought it but then put it on the shelf, or you could open it and have some. You could drink half or the whole thing. You have choices. I believe I gave credit in a DM for bringing all these things up here but will give it here too, this is the real life shit that a lot of people experience but are afraid to talk about, it's also the type of thing that some people are afraid of or don't know how to respond to, so an old school round of tic-tacs for all. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Decyferon Posted September 19, 2017 Author Share Posted September 19, 2017 Thanks guys and sorry I've not responded to PMs I'm feeling pretty positive. I'm not gonna beat myself up for drinking on the weekend as am yet to drink this week. Started reaching out to some friends. Was nice that last night one of the local hip hop heads invited me to go chill this weekend. Painting is ok as I don't paint illegally anymore so not worried about getting nicked. Gonna go home tonight and get some sketching done for a few battles. Each day as it comes but definitely come to a realisation that most people I know are acquaintances and not friends but that's cool, I'm just gonna focus on me and my son 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Decyferon Posted September 20, 2017 Author Share Posted September 20, 2017 Another day without drinking Still feeling positive to the point I'm looking up yoga stretches to sort my sciatica out hah 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hua Guofang Posted September 20, 2017 Share Posted September 20, 2017 Good on you mate. Sciatica sucks. But isn't that more related to lower back issues? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Decyferon Posted September 20, 2017 Author Share Posted September 20, 2017 Yea all stems from a motorbike crash when I was 17 and fracture a vertebrae had lower back issues on and off since mid 20s Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sicilian antiquities Posted September 26, 2017 Share Posted September 26, 2017 Even though I've not had depression, I've been on and off for the last 2 years with a girl who has battled depression and alcoholism for years. She's currently on disability from the depression, should be on meds etc. I and we've done a fuckload of research on depression, meds, dosages. One thing I've found, and we've tested is micro dosing mushrooms. This has actually worked. I know it's not for everyone, especially with regards to drug testing at work places, but if you can, it's something to think about. There is currently quite a lot of testing being done with cancer patients, anxiety and depression with the tentative results being overwhelmingly positive. Some of the benefits she's noticed... Lower alcohol cravings Elimination of serious pms cramping and general psychoness Better vision (vision suffered from brain swelling) Overall well being greatly improved Suicidal thoughts diminished Night terrors eliminated And the list goes on. Google it for sure if it's something you'd be interested in. I have partaken with her a little bit as well and It's honestly helped me with random physical and mental issues. Better sleeps, less aggression, less figity, and the odd one... regulating my bladder and piss issues ( from years of painting). That last one threw me for a loop. Other than that, stay strong. One day at a time, and believing that you can do it goes a long way. Cheers. 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fist 666 Posted September 26, 2017 Share Posted September 26, 2017 I've read a bit about the same topic, there are a handful of interviews with vets affected by PTSD and similar conversations talking about the subject. I'm also under the impression that drug tests almost never screen for psylocybin/psilicin as it is cost prohibitive. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
NightmareOnElmStreet Posted September 28, 2017 Share Posted September 28, 2017 Another day without drinking Still feeling positive to the point I'm looking up yoga stretches to sort my sciatica out hah you ever listen to bill burrs sciatica bits? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Decyferon Posted September 29, 2017 Author Share Posted September 29, 2017 Nah I've not listened to them Gonna head to the doctor this week as still in pain constantly Been enjoying work not been drinking during the week but have had a few on the weekend but it's more relaxed than getting hammered haha Basically been rinsing gta online need to get myself some online gaming pals haha although my son is gonna start gta online with me too Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
5amshift Posted September 29, 2017 Share Posted September 29, 2017 Best friend of mine has been dealing with depression for as long as I've known him. Hanging out weekly at his place, late night game nights and going out for food was where we always bonded, not only to grow our friendship, but to keep his mind active and off other things. Doesn't help that his girlfriend fucking sucks, almost to the point of abusing him, and the list goes on. I believe she plays a key role in his depression, which I've said many times before but he really cannot' find the balls to get rid of her. Regardless. I feel for you guys and hope it becomes something that you conquer. I'm always available to chat. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
One Man Banned Posted September 29, 2017 Share Posted September 29, 2017 Drugs, alcohol, psychotropic medications, all can have positive (and negative) effects on your mental health but I would caution that in most cases this represents treating/alleviating symptoms, not curing them. Lot of the vets I've known seem to get screwed by the VA, put on multiple unnecessary meds, not really getting treatment. Military has known about PTSD since at least WWII but does not want to acknowledge the number of cases. Fucked up. @Decyferon good for you making some positive decisions and having some control, bet it feels good. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Inappropriate_Responder Posted October 1, 2017 Share Posted October 1, 2017 AYO D, stay up man. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Decyferon Posted October 1, 2017 Author Share Posted October 1, 2017 My son is off school this week as broke a rib so he is gonna come stay with me because I'm off from Wednesday to Monday Looking forward to some fun time with him and going to the anime and gaming convention on saturday Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hua Guofang Posted October 2, 2017 Share Posted October 2, 2017 Wow, broke ribs are fucked, no comfy position. Have a great time, mate. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
enteruncreativename Posted October 2, 2017 Share Posted October 2, 2017 Feels like I've been stuck in this washing machine for a little while now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted October 6, 2017 Share Posted October 6, 2017 you ever listen to bill burrs sciatica bits? . Sciaticaaaa......! Sciatuca-uh-uh-uh-yeah! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
greyusher Posted October 23, 2017 Share Posted October 23, 2017 I know some of you might remember me others not I've gone through a really shit period of life. A relationship has gone tits up. Been finding it difficult to connect with my son (he is almost 13) I'm drinking too much and hating life. I've worried about suicide but I don't think I'll do it. Dunno why I'm making a thread, just don't know who else to talk to how are you today Decyferon 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Decyferon Posted October 24, 2017 Author Share Posted October 24, 2017 I'm doing good. Been focussing on myself and have a week off work next week which luckily falls on half term so I will have my son all week and we are planning a spooky anime Halloween marathon and also going to the Grayson Perry exhibition here in Bristol Payday Friday so for the first time in months will have some money in my pocket. Hell even my sciatica isn't as bad. Everything's coming up Millhouse 5 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Brink Posted October 24, 2017 Share Posted October 24, 2017 Good to hear it! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Winnie Custodio Posted January 23, 2018 Share Posted January 23, 2018 I know some of you might remember me others not I've gone through a really shit period of life. A relationship has gone tits up. Been finding it difficult to connect with my son (he is almost 13) I'm drinking too much and hating life. I've worried about suicide but I don't think I'll do it. Dunno why I'm making a thread, just don't know who else to talk to It can be tough sometimes, but it helps to talk about it to trusted friends. You can go out together, have fun, relax and forget about your problems. Otherwise, you can take a proactive approach where you try to sort your life out and face up to your responsibilities. It helps to do things right and come clean. It's inspiring and makes you feel hopeful. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Steel Schnauzer Posted March 12, 2018 Share Posted March 12, 2018 I’ve dealt with depression for the last five years what helps me is eating right and exercise also doing the things that I love to do and hanging out with all my friends that are positive and funny I find that when I hang out with my friends that make me laugh I’m more likely to not be as depressed the next day 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
theprotester Posted March 13, 2018 Share Posted March 13, 2018 Lol If I'm depressed I'm not hungry so fuck good food I don't have any mates so can't hang around with them and even if I did I'm depressed I don't want to go anywhere especially not to fucking excercise 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hua Guofang Posted March 13, 2018 Share Posted March 13, 2018 My little girl died in January, not long before she was due to be born. It was a decision that was forced upon us. It's strange, but dealing with that decision, her dying and then her birth was not as hard as living without her is. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
you can microwave bacon Posted March 13, 2018 Share Posted March 13, 2018 don't worry about the son thing no son wants a dad or mom. we just wanna do hoodrat things with our friends he does need his dad tho and if you're paying for your kid's life, you should feel very proud of yourself because that's respectable as all hell. I know depression is a shapeshifting monster understood by only the victim, but I applaud all people responsible enough to take care of their kids, let alone be adults. if you deserve your drinks then drink them. if you don't want to feel like something is vaguely wrong- i can't help you there Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ms.seyer Posted March 13, 2018 Share Posted March 13, 2018 I'm doing good. Been focussing on myself and have a week off work next week which luckily falls on half term so I will have my son all week and we are planning a spooky anime Halloween marathon and also going to the Grayson Perry exhibition here in Bristol Payday Friday so for the first time in months will have some money in my pocket. Hell even my sciatica isn't as bad. Everything's coming up Millhouse Hey Decy, glad things ended up looking up for you. I've been super MIA from this place, but I can relate. Not the same situation but I've definitely been down that same trench. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Decyferon Posted March 13, 2018 Author Share Posted March 13, 2018 Thanks seyer Thinking of making some changes and leaving my home town and moving back to the same city as my son (Only 40 miles away) Don tend to socialise much where I am now and this town is jus being filled with hipsters n trustifarians. Also it's so expensive I can't make ends meet. Just need to work out what to do for work over there. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Decyferon Posted March 13, 2018 Author Share Posted March 13, 2018 Lol If I'm depressed I'm not hungry so fuck good food I don't have any mates so can't hang around with them and even if I did I'm depressed I don't want to go anywhere especially not to fucking excercise This Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
One Man Banned Posted March 13, 2018 Share Posted March 13, 2018 Will 1st say people are entitled to feel how they feel, and therefore, it's anyone's right to basically wallow in depression, marinate right in it, and do absolutely nothing. Maybe not healthy or productive, but you can do that for as long as you want. Exercise and hanging out are good countermeasures (assuming you have positive friends) and very likely something you don't feel like doing, but that's part of why they work. Guessing I've said that in this thread before but stands repeating. Feel like I should also mention that the end goal is not the elimination of depression, it's not constant everlasting happiness, it's about achieving a balance whereby you're able to experience a range of emotions that will likely fluctuate throughout the day (and I mean fluctuate, not rapidly cycle or becomes erratic). @Hua Guofang sorry to hear that, tough on you, and probably tougher on the wife. Be well. @theprotester you said "if" you're depressed, I'm assuming you're not? Know you follow at least some aspects of Eastern religion/philosophy, was wondering if that helps you against depression since part of that involves the acknowledgment and acceptance of suffering. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Decyferon Posted July 14, 2018 Author Share Posted July 14, 2018 Thought I'd bump this is as kinda fucked up. Not been doing well, struggling to hold down a job and pay bills and generally just making terrible decisions. I have no recollection of anything from the last 48 hours. I don't normally fuck with pharmaceuticals but I was eating xanax valium pregablin and even some oramorph and my friend ended up calling an ambulance as I was unresponsive. I have no recollection of this because I woke up in my bedsit having managed to break in as I left my keys at my friends. I don't know if I was discharged or just left the hospital because I woke up with ECG things stuck to my chest. I need to find something to do, something I can do for work that isn't customer service phone bullshit but also something I can do. I worry a lot about suicide but I don't think I'd do it because my family would be devastated but I need to find a purpose and stop being this piece of shit that doesn't care about living or dying Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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