I am going to keep it 💯 with you since I like you and want to see you prosper.
That video should get deleted too. It doesn’t do any good for your future to continue to go back to this one time in your life and reevaluate what you coulda-shoulda-woulda done. I get it man, it’s painful, upsetting and sad, I have been in a similar spot before, but it’s time to move forward and make the most of your future by searching for and partaking in things you enjoy when you can. You love to play the guitar and surf. When was the last time you did either of those activities? You need to go and do them ASAP.
What do you think happened to your wallet? From an outsiders point of view, their is a solid chance that chick swiped it and bounced. Yeah, that sucks if true….but given the circumstances and location it could have definitely gone down like that.
Like I said, I want the best for you dude, want to see you happy and doing things you like to do.